Although my wife had ended her relationship with Dan, the man who'd first cuckolded me back in high school, we both knew that certain aspects of our marriage would never be the same. I suppose I'd never hidden it well, but it was now clear that surrendering my wife to a man who believed himself superior to me was intensely arousing to a cuckold like me. To be sure, I'd always made it clear through my words and actions that I loved it when my wife dated men who were bigger, stronger and more handsome than me. But now Cheryl knew these qualities were not the only traits I liked her lovers to have.
Sure, I've always enjoyed it when my wife fucks the kind of man that most women would find desirable. That's natural. I love my wife and I want her to always have the best, whether it's the finest clothes money can buy, or the best looking, muscular stud that can rock her world in the bedroom. But it's always been more than just wanting my wife to bed men who epitomized the male ideal. I was happiest, or I should probably say, most aroused, when the men who slept with my wife were confident, powerful men who didn't care one whit that Cheryl was my wife. The kind of men who had no problems seducing her right in front of me and knew that I wouldn't, or couldn't, stand in their way.
I've often wondered from where this unusual kink stems. Is it a defense mechanism? A way to eroticize the hurt and jealousy from my first cuckold experience back in high school? Since Dan had been a guy who I'd always somewhat feared, was it then natural for me to associate cuckolding with surrendering my woman to a confident, more dominant man?
When I first discovered that my wife had been cheating on me, I automatically assumed that she'd slept with men who were stronger, more powerful, and more sexually skilled than me. But in addition to her lovers' physical attributes, it seemed that Cheryl inevitably chose men who were self-assured and confident, some might even say arrogant. And when my wife confessed to having fucked certain friends or acquaintances, they invariably were men, like Brad, that I considered full of themselves, or at the very least supremely self-confident.
At first it was a shock to hear how easy it was for certain men to cuckold me, but over the years, however, I've grown to envy and admire how these men can assertively stake their claim to my wife, confidently seducing her while I'm expected to passively step aside. I suppose it's easier for me to rationalize my arousal at being cuckolded, if the men who sleep with my wife are men who I consider alpha-males and to whom I naturally defer and would never challenge?
The other possible reason for my strange desire to have my wife fucked by men who I dislike or by whom I feel intimidated is that perhaps I have some sort of innate desire on my part to be submissive to my wife's lovers. When another man fucks my wife, he is making it abundantly clear that he is the alpha-male and I, the beta-male. And I only confirm that pecking order when I enthusiastically lick and suck Cheryl's well-fucked pussy following her extramarital encounters. Is this a natural cuckold hierarchy where Cheryl is submissive to her lovers and I am submissive to both my wife and her lovers? I suppose I'll never truly understand why I am the way I am, but now that Cheryl had been made fully aware of this deep, dark secret she wasn't going to let this knowledge go to waste.
Cheryl has never been shy about discussing her attraction to certain men, but seeing me defer to Dan, tolerating his barbs and public flaunting of his relationship with her, my wife now had an even greater understanding of my cuckold psyche. My wife now knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I actually got off on her fucking men who intimidated me, or of whom I disapproved, and she began teasing me incessantly. Whether it was regularly pointing out "hot guys" that she knew I'd find threatening or flirting with guys she knew I disliked, Cheryl had me on pins and needles constantly.
In the aftermath of Dan's relationship with Cheryl, I, too learned something about my spouse that furthered my understanding of just what motivates she and I to do what we do. It seems that just as I was aroused by my wife sleeping with men who were dismissive of me, she admitted that the sheer wickedness of carrying on affairs with men who I disliked, to be very much a turn on.
Cheryl told me that she first experienced this feeling early on when she was sleeping with Brad behind my back. She said she knew I'd never liked Brad and the feeling was somewhat mutual, but when Cheryl was sprawled out on his bed, waiting to be fucked by his big cock, she'd revel in the illicit nature of fucking a man her husband, or boyfriend when she first started, disapproved of and disliked.
This all made perfect sense considering my wife has always been most aroused when engaged in particularly "dirty" or "taboo" sexual activities. It's one of the things that make Cheryl such a natural hotwife. Even the fact that I must remain faithful while she is anything but, is a turn-on to my wife. No, we aren't swingers, nor do we have an open-marriage, instead she's a promiscuous wife and I'm a cuckold, a decidedly taboo marital arrangement. And to Cheryl, violating her marriage vows with a man who I dislike or who is a rival of mine ranks high on her list of naughty acts, and is consequently, incredibly arousing.
Once her infidelities were known to me, Cheryl said that at first, she'd felt bad when she'd tell me she was going out with Brad, or some other man that she knew I disliked or had an issue with. And when she'd see my sad eyes, or hear the heartrending quiver in my voice, Cheryl said she'd sometimes wonder if she was doing the right thing. But every single time, she'd look to my crotch and see my "little dickie" twitching in excitement. My wife knew that despite my frightened reaction, I was totally on-board with letting her enjoy the attentions of other men, even those men that I abhorred.
With both Cheryl and I having broached this complex and potentially dangerous subject, we reminisced about all my wife's encounters involving men to whom I felt some sort of aversion. From Brad to Dan, throughout our courtship and marriage, many of the men who have shared my wife's bed have been men who I've either disliked or come to dislike. Cheryl told me that this dynamic emphasized that what she was doing was wrong, but that only made it more exciting, or "naughty" as my wife described it. And my wife was not shy about telling me that when welcoming one of these guys into her juicy pussy, this sense of immorality and wickedness stoked her passions to unbelievable heights.
All our conversations were more theoretical in nature given that after Dan, Cheryl had remained monogamous despite her frequent flirtations and teasing comments. But my wife frequently toyed with me, telling me that she regretted not fucking my first boss, a handsome man who'd been very much a task-master, or reminding me of all the times Brad had fucked her while I pretended to be asleep, my wife's lover laughing at my naivete as he cuckolded me in my very own home.
I suppose it was inevitable that Cheryl would take things further. And one evening when I returned home from work, Cheryl gleefully announced that she had a date arranged for the upcoming Friday night. But when my wife told me her date was with a former neighbor of ours who I'd always disliked, I realized that I might have created a monster in disclosing all my deepest, darkest secrets.