Apart from the obvious need to know more about my new lover, I kept Monica engaged in conversation as we walked back to our apartment to reassure her. She was nervous and probably worried about walking through the streets without the familiar security that wearing panties had given her for so many years. Her unfounded lack of confidence about her body probably stemmed from a repressed upbringing and an inherent fear of exposure to others. Her eyes darted from side to side as we progressed homeward, as if she was doing something wrong.
We were less than 2 kilometres from the apartment but I had the feeling that for Monica, it was probably the longest walk of her life. On the way to the studio it had only taken us half an hour, even though we were window shopping on the way. Monica had been totally relaxed and walked naturally, without a care in the world. The first kilometre of the return journey I noticed that Monica was tense and nervous, walking in shorter steps like a wooden doll. By the time the apartment was within view she had relaxed her steps and quickened her hesitant pace considerably. She coyly admitted that she would never have dared to walk home this way without my encouragement and support. None the less, she conceded that she had enjoyed the sensation of the cool night air as it circulated around her bare pubic area.
I remembered the first time that I had dared Nana to spend the entire day without underwear and smiled when I thought about the similarity of their natures. They were both artistic and enjoyed nudity as long as they were not the subject of other people's attention. Nana would always maintain a discrete distance from me whenever I undressed in public. It never stopped her from wanting to witness my dares but she didn't want anybody to associate the two of us for the duration of my exhibitions.
Afterward, in the privacy of our room, she would become even more passionate in her lovemaking than usual. It was as if she was an exhibitionist by proxy. Similarly, Monica had displayed no hesitation in showing my photographs to Pete, eagerly showing me off and revelling in his reactions of astonishment and admiration of her work. Try as I might, Nana refused to accompany me when I was naked let alone experience the exhilaration of nudity in a public place herself. I loved her dearly but in the end I came to accept that I would never change this annoying aspect of her nature.
I hoped that Monica might be persuaded to join me one day in the uplifting experience of going without clothing in public. I would start slowly and observe her reaction to the idea of dressing more daringly in future. Perhaps the odd flash to build her confidence.
The living room of the apartment was empty but I could see a light under Sally's bedroom door. We didn't disturb them and Monica guided me silently toward our room. I was tired of talking so I undressed to get into bed, slipping off my skirt and top as soon as we entered the room and placing them on my bed. It had been a long day and Monica and I had already discussed and agreed upon our sleeping arrangements for the night. I slipped beneath the sheets of Monica's large single bed, looking forward to her joining me as soon as she put her gear away and undressed.
The next day I would meet another of Monica's partners and assist Monica to develop the studio photos that we had taken earlier on. It was hard to imagine where our first evening together had gone. Everything was moving so fast and the time had gone so quickly since I arrived. We didn't leave the studio until it was well after 11pm and now it was after mid-night already. I closed my eyes momentarily and luxuriated in the soft satin sheets as Monica was opening dresser drawers and then closing them again. What was taking her so long? My body was tense with anticipation and eager to respond to her tender, loving ministrations. It had been a long time since I had slept with another woman and felt the closeness and warmth that resulted from gay intimacy.
It was vastly different from being intimate with a man, more sensual and fulfilling on an emotional level. With a man I was on guard at all times and unable to relax as fully, always wondering what he was thinking of me and afraid to surrender myself completely to his demands. Men had double standards and while I didn't mind being used for their pleasure and had enjoyed servicing their needs, it was rare to find a man that completely understood my own needs. It was either a rush job, followed by cold rejection, or they demanded and expected absolute control of my life from that point on. Most were totally insensitive and seemed to be incapable of enjoying true intimacy with no strings attached.
Then there was the abduction that followed the private show at the piercing studio. God! Never again would I allow myself to be used and intimidated in that way. I shuddered with the memory of that evening, the following week's events still fresh in my mind.
Monica turned off the bedside light and the weight of her body pressed onto the bed as she slid into the sheets beside me. Although I was tired the proximity of my new lover's nude body next to mine awoke my passions anew.
I responded eagerly to her kisses and melted into her arms gratefully as she caressed and explored my body. Her nipples were hard as I returned her passion and pulled her body closer to my own. Monica was far less inhibited than she had been at the studio and we made love until we were trembling with orgasmic pleasure and both of us straining for release. Monica whispered words of gratitude as she convulsed in my embrace and we both satisfied each others needs. My eyelids grew heavy and soon afterward we slept, still locked in a lover's embrace.
The next morning I woke before Monica and looked at her. Not wishing to wake her by moving but needing a visit to the toilet I held on as long as I could before gently extracting my body and making my way to the bedroom door. It was quiet outside so I rushed to the toilet and turned on the shower afterward. By the time I returned to the bedroom, dried and refreshed, Monica was awake and she watched in awe as I entered the room with my towel still in my hand.
"God! You look lovely." She breathed. "Shut the door and lock it again Katrina." Monica looked at her watch and smiled. "The others won't be up for a while yet. Did you sleep well, sweetheart?"
I looked at her, propped up on the pillow, realising that she was inviting me back into bed. I felt fresh and eager to please her so without hesitation I crossed the room.