"Oh, no, I can't ask you to do that," said Kate. "It's your profession. It's how you make your living. I wouldn't ask you to come to my office and process my paperwork for free."
"It's different," said Ben. "Photography is my passion. It's not like work for me, shooting someone as beautiful as you."
Kate smiled.
"Perfect!" said Ben. "Just like that!" He raised his new camera and snapped the shutter.
Our dinner guest sure knew how to flatter a woman. And in this case, it was my wife.
Kate sipped her wine again, then stuck out her tongue. It was already stained purple.
The shutter clicked again.
"Besides," Ben continued, "my portfolio is really one-sided. The only women that book my boudoir shoots are the rich housewives in Lake Oswego. You know the typeβthey go to Palates classes every day, and to the tanning booth, and dye their hair three tones of blonde, and wear too much makeup.... I don't have anyone like you. You're so much younger, and more hip. So natural. The classic Girl Next Door."
Everyone likes being told they look good, but women can get competitive about it. Kate had brown hair, sort of straight. It wasn't dyed or styled. She didn't wear makeup much, and her skin was pale with light freckles over the bridge of her nose.
"And it'd really help my portfolio," Ben added.
"So it'd help you?" said Kate.
"Yes, definitely. I don't have any shots from this new camera and it'd help me market myself."
"I see," said Kate. She appeared to be giving the idea some serious consideration, but I already knew the answer was "yes" in her head. Our living room was scattered with issues of Vogue. My wife loved looking at fashion models, and it seemed like modeling was always an unfulfilled dream of hers. She certainly was pretty enough, but at 5'6"she wasn't tall enough to be a professional model.
"Well," she said, softly. "If it will help you, I'll do it."
Ben let the camera drop from his face. His eyes were gleaming and a huge smile was plastered on his face.
"What do I need to do?" asked Kate.
"Um-um...." Ben seemed lost for words. "Um... well, um.... you could pick out something... um..."
I could tell he was struggling to say "sexy to wear," or something like that. Perhaps it was easier to talk to strangers, the rich wives who were paying him $1,000 for professional boudoir photos.
Ben had been acting a little strange around my wife that night. When he came to the front door, he'd brought a bottle of wine. Pinot Noir, her favorite, and sheepishly presented it to her. As she cooked, he complimented the aroma. When we sat at the table, he'd pulled her chair out for her, like on a first date. And after diner, he jumped up to clear the table. Maybe he was just helpful because he was a gentleman. Maybe also because he lived alone and maybe didn't get invited out to dinners that often. Of maybe, as I suspected, he harbored a secret crush on her.
Kate wasn't oblivious to this. Perhaps that's the real reason she wanted to pose--not purely altruistic to help his portfolio, and not just because she'd had several glasses of wine, but probably because when she's a little drunk, she turns into a flirt and a tease.
When Kate got up off the couch, her legs wobbled a little. She swayed to our bedroom.
Once Kate had disappeared, Ben turned and looked at me with his boyish grin on his face, but also a look of concern in his eyes.
I shrugged. "Her decision," I said. "I'm not the one modeling."
Looking back, I don't know why I was so nonchalant. Perhaps because I'd had a hard day at work, and really, had only agreed to Ben coming over because he was so excited about his new camera. Perhaps because Ben was so polite, so respectful, the type of boy who grew up putting women on pedestals, that it didn't seem like he had anything but professionalism and innocent intentions. Perhaps because I knew, trusted, and loved my wife. We'd been married three years, but together a total of six. As long as I'd known her, she'd never done anything wild or reckless. Sure, she could get flirty after a few drinks, but she was truly devoted to me.
We'd been nothing but monogamous since the day we met. And maybe that was why I wasn't too concerned when she agreed to model for Ben. I was 90% sure she wouldn't go through with it, and was just teasing him. But the idea of the 10% chance that she might actually.... That idea thrilled me.
Kate returned wearing her pink fuzzy robe. It's cute, but she wears it every morning to and from the shower. It's certainly not her sexiest outfit.
Ben seemed elated with the choice and almost immediately began to snap photos. Surprisingly, I realized I was a little disappointed. I knew Kate owned more revealing intimate wear. I guess she was just being modest.
Then, after Kate reached the center of the living room, she unknotted her robe and let it fall to the floor.
For the second time, Ben dropped the camera from his face, and just stared at her.
She stood in the center of the room in her favorite lingerie--the set I'd bought her when we were first dating: a set of black garters, black lacy thong panties with little red roses embroidered on the top, and a matching black bra that cupped only half of her breasts.
Kate's breasts were small, 34a, and so having them cupped by the bra made them look a full size bigger, and having them half exposed drew attention to her exposed nipples. I've always thought that sexuality is not simply what you have, but how you frame what you have.
Ben seemed frozen, unable to move his camera or his gaping jaw.
"Will this work?" asked Kate.
Ben is probably one of the fastest and smoothest talking guys that I know. It was part of his charm. He'd brag that he was born in Jersey and of Italian heritage. As long as I had known him, he wasn't the type of guy at a loss for words.
It felt like five minutes passed before Ben snapped out of his stupor and stammered, "Y-y-yes. Th-that's perfect."
Having studied every issue of Vogue since she was 14, Kate seemed to know how to strike fashion poses. When she put her hand on her hip, the camera snapped. She turned, the camera snapped. She lifted her arm, the camera snapped. Then she stopped, suddenly realizing that she'd exposed her underarms.
Through the bleak December weather and craziness of the holidays, she hadn't picked up her razor. Always wearing long sleeves, sweaters, it had been "out of sight, out of mind." Now January, the hair had returned nearly to its natural state.
"I'm sorry," she said. "I wasn't prepared for a photo shoot."
"It's not a problem," Ben assured her. "It's just what I want--a real woman, not the waxed ones of Lake Oswego. I love it. So bohemian!"
Apparently he'd fully regained his fast-talking skills. He'd reassured her, and she resumed her posing.
Ben moved quickly, the camera shutter snapping dozens of images with each flip of her head, each sidelong glance, each bat of her eyelashes.
I was out of beer and excused myself to go to the kitchen to get another.
I took my time returning to the living room. I wanted to give them space. And, I don't know, honesty, I sort of wondered what Kate would do without me right their. How far would she go?
I think you'll agree that there is something in human nature that makes us stare directly at things that we know are about to go wrong. In fact, the more wrong things are about to get, the more we stop to watch. It's like when two cars are about to collide, people just can't look away. Even if their minds shout inside their consciousness: Look Away!! Someone might get hurt! The primal subconscious overrides the warning and shouts back: "No, I have to see this."
Kate was getting into her poses. She sat on the couch, her back to Ben. From the kitchen doorway, I could clearly see the thong disappearing between her butt cheeks. Ben approached, and I could tell he was getting a close up.
When she turned around, she opened her legs to the camera. That's when I remembered that those panties were crotchless. The lacy black fabric framed her natural bush.
She had turned around so quickly that Ben hadn't had time to retreat back. He was still close to her, his camera eye level with her crotch.
He hesitated for only a second, and then snapped the shutter. He rotated it to get a vertical frame, and snapped again.
Kate looked down and considered her patch of curls that poked from her panties. In the summers, she always kept her pubic hair trimmed, tidy within her bikini. In the winters, she let it grow back to its wild and natural state. Most men seem to have extreme preferences one way or another. I always said that it was her body. She could do what she wanted with it, and if she shared it with me, that was a gift to me, not a right. And to be totally honest, I liked the variation. As such, we actually didn't talk about it much. And she probably hadn't though about her soft brown curls and how they looked in her lingerie until a fancy DSLR camera was pointed and focusing on them, just a few feet away.
As if by curiosity, she dropped her hand down and began to gently play with her curls. Fluffing them, pulling at them to see their true length, combing them with her finger tips.
This caused Ben to snap more photos.
"There's too much hair there," she said, embarrassed.
"No no," he said. "It's natural."