Part one: Model Saeeda.
I had been thinking about it for some time, wondering what it would be like, even dreaming about it in bed and masturbating as I imagined. I had shot nudes before on a few occasions, but it was always for editorial or advertising, with several people around in the studio and a strict brief to follow, but what I wanted to do, what I dreamed of doing was a nude shoot where there would be just me and the model, where I could direct her as I wanted, where I could fulfill the fantasies I had buzzing around in my head, and I realised I would never be satisfied if I hadn't tried it even just the once. I had to try.
The first problem was the model, and this turned out to be not a difficult one to solve much to my surprise. A classified ad in a local paper for girls wishing to try glamour modelling resulted in half a dozen phone calls in the first few days. On the phone I stipulated that I was looking for models for nude work, no experience needed, but must have a good body and attractive face. All of the respondents said they didn't mind doing nude work, although all of them had no experience of modelling. I made appointments to see them on separate days at the end of the afternoon , telling them I might shoot a quick test while they were with me if they were agreeable. Once the appointments had been made I felt a growing excitement, trying to imagine what the girls looked like, what it would be like to see them naked and alone with me in the studio. I couldn't wait for the first session at four o clock the next day.
At ten to four the bell rang, the first girl was early, a good sign. My heart was beating with excitement as I climbed the stairs to open the door, and I could feel the warmth in my groin or pre-arousal, just hoping I wouldn't be disappointed.
I wasn't. The girl who stood shyly on my doorstep was about nineteen, long dark hair, and big brown eyes, she was half Indian I guessed, her flawless skin a soft brown. Her name was Saeeda.
I showed her to reception and offered her a drink or tea or coffee, she smiled and asked for a glass of water.
'so,' I began as I sat next to her on the sofa, 'have you ever done any modelling before?'
'No, not at all I'm afraid. but you did say experience wasn't necessary.'
'Thats right, it's not. In fact I like to work with models who are natural and not too posey. But you do understand its for nude work?'
'Yes, you said that on the phone.'
'And you're alright with that? Not shy about showing your body?'
'Well, I don't think so, I want to try anyway.'
'Well that's good, and you don't have any boyfriends who would object?'
'Gosh no. I guess no body I know would see the pics would they?'
'Look Saeeda, anything we shoot would be for Internet usage, very unlikely anyone you know would come across them. But what I'd like to do, if you are agreeable, is to shoot a quick test, just to see how we get on, help you get confident and relaxed. I'll show you the pics after and you'll see how amazing you will look. Are you up for that?'
Saeeda shrugged her slim shoulders.
'I didn't bring anything, you know, things to wear like.'
'Thats not a problem love, it's you I'm interested in, not your clothes. Let me show you around the studio first.
I gave her a quick look around the studio, finishing in the changing room.
'If you like to strip off to your bra and panties, I'll give you a shout when I'm ready.'
I left the room tugging the curtain closed behind me, but not completely, leaving a gap so I could see in from the studio.
I was getting seriously excited by now, I couldn't believe that this lovely young girl, a complete stranger, was going to exposed her naked body to me, was going to reveal her most intimate parts to my eyes and camera. I peeped through the gap in the curtain as I set up the lights, catching glimpses of her removing her boots, slipping down her jeans revealing slim brown legs.
'Ready when you are Saeeda.' I called out.
She stepped out of changing room, smiling shyly, with just a white frilly bra and panties.
I took her hand and led her onto the background.
'Saedda, you are lovely?' I said, and meant it. She was quite slim, even petite, but perfectly proportioned and with smooth unmarked skin.
'Youll have to tell me what to do. I don't know how to pose or anything.'
'Now don't worry about posing love, just do as I tell you, be natural. Remember you are a beautiful young girl with a fantastic body, just be yourself, be sensual and don't be shy, you're going to look amazing.'
I started by shooting some simple portraits, just to warm her up and make her relax, then moved back to do three quarter length shots. After twenty or thirty shots I could tell she was relaxing and feeling more confident in herself.
It was time for the first test.
'Now Saeeda, I'd like you to slip your bra off, but do it slowly, teasingly, you know what I mean.'
Without hesitation she reached behind her to unclasp her bra, then without taking it off, just help it against her, looking up at the camera.
'Thats it! Great!' I said, a catch in my voice. 'Now, slowly uncover yourself.'
She was a natural, slowly she slid the bra lower, centimetre by centimetre uncovering her young breasts.
'Yes! great!'
The bra top slid lower and exposed her nipples. They were small and brown slightly protruding, and she looked down at them as they emerged.
'Ok, now drop the bra love, but cover your breasts with your hands.'
She did as I asked, cupping them in her hands, her fingers slightly indenting the soft flesh. This was something I had thought about before as a pose I wanted to see, a girl touching and holding her breasts, feeling what I wanted so much to feel.
'Uncover a bit, so I can see your nipples.' I told her, 'Touch them with your finger, make them erect if you can.'
Looking down at herself she did as I asked, squeezing her breasts gently as her index fingers flicked the nipples.
'Its working.' She said quietly, 'I have really sensitive breasts. Is that better'
