Note:
this story has virtually no sex, just lots of public masturbation!
It seemed silly to me now, but for a greater part of my life, I had actively avoided attracting any type of attention towards myself-- good or bad. I suppose that, in my mind, flying under the radar was preferable over being mocked or put on a pedestal. I thought it made me cool and mysterious. But honestly? All this had actually done was turn me into an unhappy, boring person. I had no spark in my eye. No real passions or goals. I was just sort of existing.
Thankfully, Pastoral had then come in and hit me like a truck. Moving to this town had forced me out of my comfort zone and made me realize how monotonous and unsatisfying my life had become. And you know what? In spite of all my initial complaints, the truth is that Pastoral was not boring: I was! It had all been projection.
Jeez, I really owed this place an apology, didn't I? I was being offered the unique opportunity to start over and live a more fulfilling life, but my stubbornness had stopped me from seeing it-- until now.
Today, I was finally leaving the old Tessa behind. No more monotony. No more flying under the radar. I was taking my first step towards becoming a bolder, happier person.
And what was that step, exactly?
Simple! Going out for ice cream on a busy Saturday evening while completely naked.
Hell, I wasn't even wearing shoes.
Zoe frowned as she stared at all the people in line at the ice cream stand. "Okay, the line is waaay longer than normal-- usually you can just walk up and order. It's probably the evening rush." She turned to face me with an apologetic smile, striking a pose that really accentuated her bare breasts. "But trust me, it'll be worth the wait. The cookie dough ice cream is exactly what you need after all that excitement."
"Uh-huh...!" I answered absent-mindedly, my brain a complete jumble of thoughts and feelings as my gaze shifted between Zoe and the small crowd in front of us.
I still couldn't believe it. Earlier today, in what I could only describe as a horniness-induced state of madness, something had snapped in my brain, and I finally went from being a simple observer of Zoe Farrow's naked displays, to an active participant myself! Somehow, I had gathered up the courage to join her in the nude at the park, and even edged myself into the most mind-melting orgasm ever in unison with her. And if it couldn't get any crazier, I was actually hanging out with the dark-haired beauty herself right now, who of course, was still just as delightfully naked as before-- as was I!
This was so surreal. Before today, I could have counted on the fingers of one hand the amount of people who had seen me naked in the last ten years. But now? There had been dozens in just the last few minutes. There were so many eyes on me, all around me, and I could
feel
each passing gaze on my body, even if none of them lingered for too long.
A few guys peeked at my chest as they stood in line. I shivered. Were they observing the way my breasts moved as I shuffled nervously? Or perhaps they were staring at my exposed nipples, which were so noticeably hard from the outdoor breeze? No clue, but they were
definitely
looking at my tits!
I then diverted my eyes, only to catch a girl slightly younger than me stealing a glance at my crotch as she chatted with her friends. My vulva was still visibly red and swollen from all the stimulation it had received just a short time ago-- very hard to miss! Did she notice that my pubic hair grows in a funny way? God, if I had known that everyone would be staring at it, I would have trimmed it a little!
Also, this was probably just my mind playing tricks on me, but I
swear
I could sense people checking out my ass as they walked by behind me. I mean, some of them had to be, right? It's hard to ignore a bare butt.
My anxiety got to the point that I even began watching out for familiar faces around me. Yes, I was fully aware that just about every single person dear to me lived hundreds of miles away from Pastoral, but that didn't stop my brain from asking, "hey, what if your entire extended family showed up out of nowhere just to catch you in the nude?"
Was I excited? Was I panicking? Both? I didn't know! My fight-or-flight response was in full swing-- I felt so alive, but also, so, so terrified.
The only thing keeping me sane amid all my inner chaos and confusion was Zoe's presence. Even now, I couldn't stop looking at her. Shocking, I know-- I'd only been doing that every day for the last two weeks. But how could I not? She exuded so much raw confidence and energy, even while doing something as simple as waiting in line. Nudity just felt so right on her.
Mind you, I wasn't only staring at Zoe because of the fact that she was a very hot naked girl standing inches away from me! Maybe that would've been the reason before, but now that I was just as naked as her, I found her nudity to be a much-needed reminder that I wasn't doing this alone. People were checking her out too! We were in this together.
Of course, she was handling it
much
better than me, so as we stood there, I couldn't help but try to mimic her posture and mannerisms. She made it look so easy, but as I immediately found out-- it wasn't. That anxious shuffling of mine? Just my attempt to copy Zoe's energetic little bounces. A very, very bad attempt at that. My objective was to give off the impression of confidence, but I probably looked more like a rabbit in a trap. Wait, maybe that was why people were staring? I was doing everything wrong!
"Tessa?" Zoe poked me in the shoulder, trying to get my attention. "Are you there, Tessa?"
I snapped back to reality, only to find myself standing right in front of the ice cream stand cashier. Was it my turn to order? When had we reached the front of the line?
"Huh? Oh! Sorry." I quickly skimmed through the menu on the wall, my panicked mind not processing any of the words I was seeing. "I'll have the um, what was it? The cookie dough ice cream? Y-yeah, that'll be the one." I tried to give the worker a natural-looking smile. It wasn't convincing at all.
Zoe seemed to notice my queasiness. "Is everything alright?" she whispered.
"Y-yeah! I'm doing great. W-why?" I half-heartedly assured her as I pulled out some cash from the wallet that I'd been awkwardly holding since leaving the park, and handed it to the worker. I missed having pockets. How did Zoe handle this? She never carried a bag, wallet, or phone with her. Thinking back, I'm almost certain she hadn't actually paid with physical cash that one time at the coffee shop.
"You're tomato red." Zoe noted, before gently placing a hand on my forehead. "Whoa! Tomato red
and
turning into tomato soup. Okay, come here, you
need
to take a breather." She grabbed my hand and guided me towards the steps of a small building across the street from the ice cream stand, gesturing for me to sit down. "Just take a moment to unwind, alright? I'll be back in a second." She said, before returning to the stand to pick up our food.
I sat down on the steps and hugged my legs together in defeat-- the warm, rough feeling of the concrete against my bare butt a constant reminder of my nudity. Welp, there went any hope I had of being seen as cool by Zoe. I wanted her to believe that I was just as brave and unbothered about nakedness as her, but apparently I couldn't fake it till I made it.
In the distance, Zoe was happily chatting with the workers as they prepared our order, casually resting her big tits on the display glass and sticking out her butt. Confident. Carefree. Sexy.
Seriously, how did she do it? I wanted to be like her