On June 1st, one month ago, I was boarding my plane to Hawaii, excited to move in with my long-distance boyfriend after two long years of being away while finishing school. I had to finish my B.A. by thirty; it wasn't an option. It had been on my to-do list since finishing community college five years earlier. Since my boyfriend was always working anyway, I'd left Hawaii, gone to New York to attend an expensive journalism program, and successfully graduated exactly five days before my thirtieth birthday. Now, properly degreed and returning to Hawaii and my long-term partner, I felt like I was about to embark on real adulthood. He'd rented a studio apartment right on the beach at a condo called Mauka Luna. Complete with a swimming pool surrounded by palms and plumeria trees, it would be our own piece of paradise. I couldn't wait to start our life together.
But unexpectedly, that life was short-lived. A week after I arrived, my boyfriend, who was still always working and who'd seemed distant and preoccupied since the day I got back, dropped the devastating news on me that he wasn't sure how he felt, it wasn't what he'd expected, and that he just didn't feel like investing in our relationship anymore.
"I'm sorry, Danielle, you deserve better," he'd said, packing his suitcase. "Stay here as long as you need to while you figure things out."
He left and I cried for days. The emptiness of our bed amplified the aching void in my heart. The last thing I'd wanted to do was live alone; I'd spent our two long-distance years alone, and lonely. But here I was... again.
At least my rent was paid up until October, and I didn't have to worry about that for a while. I hadn't come financially prepared to support myself right away. I was doing editing work part time, working from my laptop, and writing part time, trying to get myself established as a freelancer, but work was sporadic, and clients were few and far between. I tried to focus on my career instead of the gnawing loneliness in my middle. Some days, after hunching over my laptop for eight hours straight, I'd remember that the ocean was in my backyard and go sit outside to watch the sunset.
Mauka Luna is part long-term rentals, part vacation rentals. The vacation rentals are the ones with the patios and balconies looking out on the beach. My studio's windows look out at the parking lot. But, hey—free rent.
The front lawn, overlooking the ocean, is always dotted with tourists enjoying their summer vacations. They are here to have fun, let loose, and soak up the sun, lying out in their bikinis and swim trunks, getting sunburnt, drinking beers and grilling up steaks on the barbecue. Some are businessmen, mixing business with pleasure, making calls and looking at paperwork on their balconies. Personally, I'm the resident nerd, always reading a book or scribbling in a journal under the umbrella at the far end of the yard.
Sometimes, though, I just take a day off to relax—like today. It's a Saturday and I've decided I need to catch up on my own summer sunbathing. I've put on my cheeky new bikini (one I bought because I knew my boyfriend would love it) and my polarized sunglasses, and I'm lying on a lawn chair in the 11-AM sun. I'm enjoying the feel of its hot rays on my already mocha-colored skin (the skin tone I inherited from my Middle Eastern father), and I stretch out my slim-but-still-curvy 5'5" body. I've put my long, thick, dark hair up in a messy bun, and I've rubbed coconut oil all over my skin to maintain its moisture, so I'm smooth and shiny and smelling like the tropics. My C-cup breasts, softly rounded, are tucked inside the jewel green triangle top of my bikini. I've just gotten to the point where I'm totally relaxed, listening to the sound of the ocean waves and feeling a gentle breeze, unable to keep a little grin off my face because it feels
so good
— when a man's voice startles me.
"Would you like a drink?" the voice says.
I look over and see that one of my neighbors has settled in at a table near my lawn chair and is holding a sweating glass of something cold; maybe a mojito or a margarita.
Unlike most of the tourist vacationers who are perpetually attired in their swimwear, he's dressed in a white linen, button-up shirt with a collar, the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, and gray cargo shorts. His face is pleasant; he's a bit older—I can tell from the gray around his temples—but he's well-built and rather handsome. Though he's seated, I can tell he's tall—probably about 6 feet. He has broad shoulders, a healthy tan, and his eyes are clear and blue. He has a subtle smile on his face.
I'm immediately shy. "Oh, I don't drink much..." I begin.
"How about a small one then?"
He lifts a bottle from an icy cooler by the table, pours a small glass of the yellow-green liquid, and offers it to me.
I accept it with a bashful, "Thank you."
"Enjoy," he says, and his smile is more in his eyes than on his lips.
I sip the drink, and it's cold, slightly sour, and sweet at the same time. I can taste the alcohol, but it's not too strong—it's refreshing, really. It's definitely a margarita.
"Mmm, it's good!" I remark.
"Glad you like it." He takes a sip of his own drink, then inquires, "Are you on vacation?"
"No, I live here. I've been here for a few weeks."
"Welcome," he replies, "I've been in my condo for a few years now. But this view—" he gestures to the ocean—"never gets old."
"I'd imagine not!" I agree. The sky is a stunning, cloudless blue on this midsummer morning, and the surrounding neighbor islands show up green and lush across the channel. As if on cue, two white doves fly into view and across the yard, stopping to inspect some crumbs in the grass under one of the other tables.
"You're a writer?" he asks.
"Oh! No. Well... sort of," I respond. "I do write, but nothing steady... yet. I'm also an editor." At first I wonder how he guessed my work so closely, but then it occurs to me that he's probably seen me before, propped up in the shade, scribbling away.
"Ah, an editor. Very interesting. What do you edit?"
"Oh, mostly newspaper stuff, magazine articles, stuff like that," I reply, "I'd like to start editing books too but it's slow going."
He nods, as if familiar with the ups and downs of the freelance industry. "I've done some photography work myself; I know it can be hard to get your foot in the door sometimes."
"Nice! What kind of photography?" I ask.
"Oh, all kinds. Nature. Cars. Models," he shrugs a bit, turning his glass around with his fingers, again with a subtle smile playing over his face.
I can't help smiling, too, sneaking glances at him sideways. He has such a nice profile. I have to admit it to myself, I'm super attracted to this stranger who also happens to be my neighbor.
We continue chatting, small talk and get-to-know-you questions. His name is Curt, and he's originally from Pasadena, California. He's been a businessman, but retired early. Now he mostly does consulting when he feels like it, photography when he feels like it, and divides the rest of his time between cooking gourmet meals, restaurants, reading, surfing, swimming, and traveling.
"Sounds divine," I murmur, having finished my short drink and allowed him to pour me a second. "I can't wait to be established and successful and be able to travel, too... and of course the fine dining."
"Why wait?" He smiles. "Join me tonight. For dinner."
I feel elated and embarrassed at the same time. I've longed to spend time with someone and hated my endless loneliness since the breakup, but was I really ready to start dating again? I'd been out of the dating scene for a while—four years since I'd started dating my ex. Would I know what to say? What to wear? All of that ran through my mind in just a moment or two, and if he noticed my hesitation, he didn't let on.
"I'd love to!" I replied, suppressing any squeamishness. It was time to take the plunge.