I was as nervous as a whore in church. What had I gotten myself into? It started innocent enough. Wasting time between appointments and tiring of the same old porn sites I frequented, I casually clicked on an adult chat link. It was confusing and I stumbled around until I learned the knack, then found myself enjoying the banter. It seemed like the only person responding to my comments and questions was a person called Curious. I found it necessary to cut the session short to meet my appointment, but I told Curious that I would return in about two hours and would like to continue our conversation. Before leaving the site, however, I checked the profile on Curious and learned she was 21 years old with interests in voyeurism and exhibitionism. She was single and resided in Minnesota. I was anxious to return to the chat.
You see, I don't really enjoy personal interactions. I spend ten to twelve hours a day interacting with people and playing the roll as salesman. On my own time I am somewhat of a loner. Complicated relationships are depressing and too much work. When I want sex, it is much easier to go to the internet and masturbate, or when I tire of the self abuse, I pick up a common street walker. The nice thing about a whore is that her only aim is to please you, and as fast as she can. That works for me.
When I got back to the chat room, Curious was there and we picked up just like there had been no interruptions. As the chat became more intimate, we had a variety of geeks adding their comments. That's when Curious suggested a private room. With a few instructions from her, we were soon communicating more privately. This went on for almost two weeks. Curious and I were getting to know each other quite well. We never talked much about what was going on in our lives, but rather, about the things we liked and disliked.
We shared fantasies and desires and on more than one occasion I would masturbate while we were on line. When I finally got the nerve to tell her that I frequently jacked off when we shared fantasies, she surprised me by admitting that she did the same. We soon graduated to giving blow-by-blow descriptions while we were in the process of masturbation. These communications had become the most exciting and erotic thing I had ever done. One day, as Curious was vividly describing how her pussy was wet to the touch, she said she wished I were there to see it. Knowing that that wasn't really possible, I half-heartedly suggested that she should send me a picture. That's when we quit talking in the chat room and shared our private e-mail addresses.
I slept in one Saturday morning, not having to go to work, and when I awoke my computer was flashing a message. I knew it would be Curious, but I wasn't expecting what appeared when I opened the message. No text, only a very close up picture of a widely spread, dripping pussy hole. Her clit was visible and swollen at the top of the frame, while her inner lips, wet and matted against the fleshy part of her pussy, extended beyond the edge of the picture. At the bottom of the picture her dark pink pussy hole oozed a thick droplet of fluid. The picture had been taken just before the droplet had separated and dripped away. I imagined the position she was in when she took the self- portrait, probably sitting on the very edge of a chair with her pussy hanging over and holding the digital camera ready for just the right moment. Over the next 3 months we exchanged a variety of photos, but never of anything but our genitals, and in her case, only extreme close-ups. An occasional finger in her pussy and even a carrot once, but never a larger view. Many times I wished I could "zoom out" and get a better overall perspective, but Curious never responded to those requests. It wasn't long before the electronic relationship started to wane. The pictures became redundant and the descriptions more mundane. I was beginning to think it was time to move on.
One night I mentioned that I would be visiting her fair state for a convention. I didn't think it unusual that she would ask for some details. I told her that it would be held at the Hyatt in St. Paul and that I would be there for three days. There was a long pause before she came back on and asked if I thought it was a good idea to finally meet. I was speechless. This was a woman with whom I had an intimate, although detached, relationship. This was a woman with whom I had shared the most secret of desires. But most alarming, this was a woman who's face I had never seen. In fact I had never seen any part of her body except her extreme pussy. Was she really 65 years old and fat and ugly? After all, nobody ever misled you over the internet. Granted it was shallow and chauvinistic to consider such things, but wasn't our only link a quasi-physical one? On the other hand, I was ready to end it anyway. Finally seeing her might be the clincher.
We agreed that she would call me at the hotel on the second night and we would finalize the plans. She was very illusive and would not give me a phone number or tell me from where she was traveling, if she was, indeed, traveling. The closer it got to convention time, the more I got cold feet. Several times I reminded her that this meeting might be the end of us. Her only response was, "If it ends, it ends."
The first night at the hotel I lay awake, wondering why I had put myself in this position.