"So," asked John, the spokesperson for the four boys, "now it's our turn to select the pose, right?" "Yes." I replied softly while standing before them completely naked, my left hand covering my private area and my right arm across my breasts. "Yes, now you get to pick the pose."
How, you might ask, did I come to find myself in this most embarrassing situation? Perhaps I should start at the beginning.
My name is Amy Parker, and I'm a high school teacher in a small town in the Midwest. I grew up in the south with a loving family, one younger brother. I decided I needed to leave the south to expand my horizons and applied to a big university in a big city in the Midwest. It was perfect for me, and I really loved the wholesome, casual nature of Midwesterners.
I'm a slender blond about 5'4" tall. I had been a pretty good gymnast in high school and it had left me with a nice body. I elected not to pursue gymnastics in college.
A favorite Uncle had jokingly told me when he learned I was going off to college, "Don't let your studies interfere with your education!" I guess I felt the same way about continuing my sport - in high school it had required almost total dedication, and I was looking to broaden my experiences. Not long after I stopped the strenuous training, I noticed two things: my period became regular, and my breasts started to grow.
This story I'm about to tell you happened in 2011, my second year as a teacher, but it really began four years earlier when I was a sophomore. It was 2007 and I was majoring in art appreciation with a minor in French. The world was my oyster. Walking through the Student Union one morning I overheard two upperclassmen talking. One was telling the other a joke, "... then the architect asks, 'How will this building function?', and the engineers asks, 'What materials are needed to construct it?', and the banker asks, 'How will we fund this project?', and the Liberal Arts major asks, 'Do you want fries with that?'" I thought the joke was funny, then considered my own situation and decided to add a minor in education. It only took two 18-hour semesters my junior year to make that happen. That was fine because my junior year I was in-between boyfriends.
I only had two serious boyfriends in college. By "serious" I mean we had regular sex. My first boyfriend was a senior who I met in my sophomore year. He was almost exactly two years older than me. We both knew we would go our separate ways after he graduated, but we enjoyed each other's company while we were together.
He was the first boy to see me naked; it occurred on my 19
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birthday; the night I would lose my virginity. We had been dating for several months and I was ready for the big leap. I started taking the pill and giving him hints. One afternoon we were at his fraternity house looking at a lingerie catalogue together. I pointed to a pair of stockings with little pink hearts on them and suggested, "Those look nice."
A week later, on my birthday, a package arrived from Victoria's Secret. In it was a garter belt and those stockings. That night my roommate was out, and my boyfriend and I were in my apartment engaged in a heavy petting session following a celebratory birthday dinner. I announced that I had an early birthday present for him.
Summoning all my courage, I returned several minutes later with a beer on a tray wearing the garter belt and stockings, high heels, and nothing else. I looked hot! He must have agreed because he took me right there on the sofa.
It was exciting to experience sex for the first time. But that paled compared to the thrill I felt walking into the living room almost naked, wearing just those pink heart stockings, about to expose myself to a boy for the first time.
I guess I'm a bit of an exhibitionist - aren't we all? I love the feeling of adoration and being the center of attention. The adoration was one of the things I really missed from gymnastics. Our meets in high school had huge audiences, mostly boys. They were not all there because of their love of sports!
My first boyfriend and I had regular sex after that, and he often told me that my private area was his favorite part of my anatomy. I kept myself neatly trimmed - it was one of the few habits that remained from my days as a gymnast.
Our love making sessions were satisfying but I wanted more. I wanted to expand my sexual horizons and explore these deeper feelings - my primeval programming.
My junior year I was in-between boyfriends when I met Matt Sutton. Matt had been a nude model for one of our art classes and I invited him for a coffee afterwards. I guess I wanted to see what made him tick. I found out that Matt is gay and an entrepreneur of sorts. He has a thriving florist business and manages himself and several other models. We became good friends and hung out together when he wasn't working. We still see each other occasionally. Matt plays a pivotal role in my story later.
My second boyfriend understood me much better. He was a graduate student in finance, also two years older than I. It was the beginning of my senior year, and we were both planning to graduate in the spring. The morning after the first time we had slept together, we woke to the room basked in the golden glow of the morning sun. He politely and reverently asked if he could see me naked. We had had sex several times the previous night, but in the dark. I replied in my sexiest voice, "Of course."
I was on my back, covered by just a sheet. He got out of bed and slowly began to pull down the sheet. That same exciting thrill began to sweep over me. As the sheet reached my chest, I put my arms over my head in mock surrender. I heard a whistle as my perky breasts came into view. As the sheet passed my pelvic bone, he exclaimed, "Oh my, you weren't kidding; you ARE a natural blonde". And when I was completely uncovered, he told me that I was stunningly beautiful with the most perfect body he had ever seen. To which I replied, "I'll bet you say that to all the girls." It was all I could think of; it was all I could do to talk. The thrill of being naked and admired by another person took my breath away.
My breasts had grown to perfect C cup size and turned up slightly at my nipples. My second boyfriend thought they were my best feature and loved to admire them. I was happy to let him.
We began to role play and explore. In most of our role playing, I would end up naked on the bed while he examined me. God, I loved that. Sometimes I would fantasize it was against my will.
He loved to strip me in front of the full-length mirror in my bedroom. He would remove my clothing one garment at a time while telling me what he was going to do to me. I pretended to be shy and non-cooperative. When I was down to just my white panties, facing the mirror with him behind me, I would stand with hands covering my breasts. He would reach around and forcibly pull my arms behind my back, exposing my breasts. Then, with his left-hand pinning both my arms behind my back, he would reach under my chin with his right and pull my head back, arching my back and accentuating my exposure. Then he would tweak my right nipple until it was rock hard. Swapping hands, he would tweak my left nipple until it was hard. Then he would say, "Amy, the only thing better than looking at you topless,.... is looking at you completely naked".
At the pause, he would grab both sides of my panties and yank them down to mid-thigh, leaving me exposed. Sometimes, while keeping my arms still pinned behind my back, he would finger me until I came. When this happened, my knees would buckle, and he would have to support me. Watching him violate me was such a turn on.
When I wasn't going steady, I had lots of opportunities for dating - I just was seriously turned off by anyone who came off as immature, and I absolutely hated getting "hit on". I guess the only thing that might have been worse was a boyfriend who didn't try anything. And that's where I found myself in 2011 at the time of my story, but more about that later.
I graduated in the spring of 2009 - the Great Recession was in full swing. Job opportunities had dried up and my only offer came from a small-town high school about 2 hours from the university. A high school football coach and his wife were both retiring, and the school needed her replacement to teach English, French, and Art Appreciation. I was impressed that there were still high school districts that appreciated the arts, so I took the job. It turns out that I may have overestimated the school district's love of the arts.
The Art Appreciation class I was to teach was mostly a crip course for the senior football players. During our turnover, the coach's wife told me that I must never flunk a football player. This course was the school's way of saying "thank you" for their hours of hard work. She also suggested that each class include a modest female nude to keep the boys interested.
For this purpose, she had a stack of small poster sized copies of paintings that featured tasteful female nudes. As she gave them to me, she whispered, as if protecting our secret, "These are for you, Dear." I responded under my breath, "Don't they have the internet here?"
Not only did I take her job; I took their house. They were moving to a small condo in another state to be close to their oldest daughter's family and did not want to sell in a down market, so they rented their mostly furnished house to me. It was bigger than I needed but would be perfect if my folks and brother visited.
My first-year teaching was hectic and exhilarating and I barely had time for anything other than class preparation and grading papers. My Art Appreciation class had gone well, probably because I had followed the script from my predecessor.
My second year I began to feel my oats and started to develop my own style. For my first Art Appreciation class I shared why I love the arts and why they were important; then added that there would be graded tests. The next class, four of the football players were missing. It was their way of saying, "We don't think you understand the deal here." After they missed the next three classes, I went to the new football coach to ask for help.
The new football coach had been hired as the assistant coach and history teacher three years before me with the expectation that, if he worked out, he would take over as coach. He had. At 26, he was the youngest head coach in the district.
We knew of each other, and even acknowledged each other in passing, but we'd never had a meaningful conversation. I had even lightly flirted with him a few times with no success. He was either shy or uninterested.