I looked up surprised as Tom, my husband, swore and brushed the papers he was working on onto the floor. "There's no way I can work this out." He sat back in his chair holding his head in his hands.
I went over and put my arms around his shoulders. "Surely it's not as bad as all that."
He shook his head. "I'm afraid it's very bad and it's going to get worse. We are two payments behind with the mortgage, the credit cards are at their limit, and the car insurance is due at the end of next week."
I hugged him. "I will just have to try and get more hours at the supermarket."
He smiled and squeezed my hand. "For what you earn an hour, you would need to work twelve hours a day, seven days a week to make a difference, but thanks for the offer."
The latest global recession had hit us particularly hard, especially when Tom had lost his job, and although he tried to find another position, it was always the same. Firms were cutting down on staff, not hiring them.
Probably we were to blame. We had gone into debt never thinking that Tom would ever lose his job.
Jobs with banks were always said to be secure for life. Not any more; well, not in 2009 at least.
The mortgage on the new house had stretched us so I had gone back to work three days a week at our local supermarket. It fit in well with the children, and I got a discount on my food shopping.
But now we were in a mess; not only a financial mess, but also a personal mess. Tom was stressed out, grumpy, and always tired because of so many sleepless nights, and it was reflecting on our relationship. It was at least three months since we had made love, and this was affecting me.
Before the trouble, we had always been a loving couple. Maybe we didn't make love every night like we used to when we first got together, but we still did it, maybe more like every other night. But now nothing. I tried to encourage him, but he would shrug me off and turn away. "I'm sorry, I can't," was all I got from him.
It was a few days later. I was having a coffee with Rachel, another mother I had met at the school gates. We had become good friends, and I often called in on the way back home after picking up the children. Our children played together in her garden while we had coffee. That afternoon she had commented that I was looking down and had asked me in for a chat. I didn't really want to tell other people of our predicament, but once I had started the whole thing came out. When I had finished, tears were running down my cheeks. Rachel handed me a tissue just as Ralph, her husband, came in from work.
He smiled at Rachel and kissed her, then turned and looked at me. "You don't look a happy bunny," he said.
"She's not. Tom has had no success getting another job, and things are getting tight for them."
Ralph shook his head. "Things are getting bad for everyone."
I smiled and wiped my eyes. "I know; that's the problem, so if you can find me a job that pays me £300 a week for a few hours a night, I will be indebted to you forever."
Ralph grinned. "You would have to strip or go on the game for that sort of money."
Rachel looked at him. "Ralph, how could you!"
"Well, it's correct. You women are sitting on a goldmine." With that, he smiled, picked up the evening paper, and went through to the lounge. I heard the TV come on.
Rachel and I continued to chat. I told her that I was going to ask for some extra work at the supermarket, and she kindly offered to mind the kids for me if I needed it.
Just then Ralph returned to the kitchen smiling. He held the paper out. "Here you are; read this," he said, dropping the paper on the table in front of me and pointing to an advert for Cinderellas, a local night club. It read: Amateur Strip Tease Competition, £500 in prize money. It went on to say that there would be four local heats and a final. The heat prizes were £250 £150 and £100 and the first prize for the final would be £1,000.
I read the advert and passed it back. I shook my head. "I couldn't do that; take my clothes off in front of a room full of men."
He smiled. "With a figure like yours, you'd win easily."
I felt myself blushing. It was nice to feel somebody thought of me that way,
Ralph picked up the paper and returned to the TV. I finished my coffee, thanked Rachel for listening to my problems, and calling the kids in, made my way home.
Tom was in a mood when I got home. He had had a letter from the building society saying that if we didn't pay something on our mortgage, steps would be taken to repossess the house. I made tea for the kids, but Tom said he could not eat anything. He was now beginning to worry me. I could see he was sinking into depression.
That night in bed I lay awake, wondering just what we were going to do. Then suddenly I remembered the advert in the paper. Was Ralph right? Could I win? More to the point, could I do it: get up on stage and strip naked in front of all those guys? But desperate times need desperate actions. More to the point, what would Tom say, or should I tell him? I hardly slept that night thinking about it, and was thankful when Tom said he would take the kids into school as he needed to go into town to look at the job situation.
After they had left, I got up and made myself some breakfast. Then I went up for a shower. I was just soaping down my body when I remembered last night. I held my breasts; yes, they were still firm. I fingered the nipples always ready to rise to the occasion. I moved my hand down over my flat stomach and down into the soft hair of my pussy. The thought of stripping had excited me. I ran my finger down my pussy lips, easing them apart; then I could not resist slipping one finger inside. I groaned as my finger touched my G spot, and I squeezed my thighs together trapping my hand. I felt my body responding as I worked my fingers harder inside me. Then I gasped, clutching onto the shower rail as I suddenly orgasmed for the first time in weeks.
I stepped out and dried myself, then went through to the bedroom. I looked at myself in the long wardrobe mirror. Yes, I had a good body: long legs, firm high breasts. I stood there in front of the mirror looking at myself; then I closed my eyes and tried to imagine what it would be like to stand there totally naked on the stage in front of all those men and display everything to them.
All day I thought about the pros and cons. If I won the money, great, it would help out, but could I do it without telling Tom? But need he know? If I didn't win, there would be no need to tell him. I had tried and failed and he would never know. Then there was the actual performance. I had never seen a strip show. I had seen some on TV, but I had never seen one for real. One thing in my favor was I had been a dancer when I was younger. That should stand me in good stead. But I realised that I needed to see a show to know just what went on and how good the competition was. I could not see me going to a place like that alone, and I couldn't really ask Tom to take me.
It was Rachel who came to my aid again. We had just dropped the kids of at school and I asked her if she would like to go for a coffee on the way home. I said I needed to talk to her. In the coffee bar over steaming coffees, I told her much to her surprise that I had decided to go in for the strip tease competition.
She looked at me aghast. "Really?" she said. "Have you told Tom?"
I shook my head. "No, I've decided to do it and then tell him. Well, I'll tell him if I win, but If I don't, he won't need to know."
Rachel looked at me and shook her head slowly. "Well, you are a very brave girl. I don't think I could do it however badly we needed the money."
I smiled. "I'm not keen myself, but I have to do something. If we lose the house, I think I will lose Tom as well. I don't think he can take much more."
Then I went on to tell her that I needed someone to go to see the first show with. Like me, Rachel had never seen a live strip show before, and she was a little reluctant. "Give me some time to think about it," she said, "and I will let you know."
The following morning I was pleased when she told me that she would come along, but Ralph would also be coming as she didn't fancy just the two of us on our own in a place like that. I didn't really have any objections, and I could see her point.
The first heat was on the following Wednesday, and I told Tom that I was going over to Rachel's to baby sit. He didn't seem to mind. He wasn't very good company at the moment. Ralph drove us down to Cinderellas, and I was surprised by the number of cars in the parking lot. I was even more surprised at the numbers of people that were inside. Ralph found us a spot where we could see the action and went to get some drinks. He had only been gone a couple of minutes when two guys came up to us and started chatting us up. One inquired if we were competing tonight. We shook our heads. The other who had been eying me up nodded. "You ought to get yourself up there, lady. With what you've got, you could steal the show."