Text: "What is a little harmless cuddling between two consenting cuddlers."
It was those adorable words that started it all. He was impossibly young and I had resisted as long as I possibly could. The cuddling line did me in. Something inside of me melted when I read it. A piece of resistance to letting myself be loved again fell away as I let myself desire that cuddle so adorably offered.
So what's the problem? He lives in Australia. I live in San Diego. He had been texting and teasing for awhile now and I had declined up until now. I had never gotten intimate in text and I wasn't sure what to expect. Even though this young man was a master and knew just what to say to keep me engaged, I was still intimidated.
Little did I know that an hour long orgasm was in the cards for me.
Without touching myself, speaking to anyone or watching any porn...even the always fabulous erotica created by women for women that I love. No, all this happened from a text conversation. My body responded like never before. WTF??
So how did I find my text hero?
I found Ashley Madison, a classy website that offers hookups to people looking for virtual sexual partners. No in your face sexuality at all. Discreet and inviting. Women are free and men purchase credits to connect with women members.
I was contacted by men nearly immediately on the site and the very first one brought me this gift of an hour long orgasmic paradise. He was not the only one involved though...here is why I was on the site in the first place.
I am killer attracted to a younger man who is not available to me right now. I can barely resist him and while I know he is interested and seems to care about me beyond how good we could be physically, I am just not in a position to be having sex with someone right now. In person sex, that is.
So, here's what happened. FunInOhio was texting me on line in a private chat room. He was detailing what he wanted to be doing to me, had a degree of fun and creativity and it was mildly hot. Mildly because he had me naked immediately and was acting as if I was already aroused and ready for that.
He, like many men sexters I meet, he had skipped right over the all important Setting The Stage Step and was totally out of sync with my desire.
But, when I imagined it was my unavailable guy who was typing what he wanted to do to me... , the cuddler mentioned above, I melted in a way that let me orgasm in waves and waves. I was completely alone in the experience physically but his energy was all around and over me. I felt safe and relaxed like never before and I just coasted into a matchless body state.
There is something about being alone that let me relax in a profoundly deeper way than I do with a partner.
There was family in the next room. I just sat there on the couch and my body went to a place of crazy delicious and over the top feel good. FunInOhio didn't want anything in return. He seemed genuinely wowed by my experience.
And my unavailable guy? I don't think he realizes what his texts are doing to and for me. I can't wait to explore this option. Maybe one day we will add that dimension but until I am ready to be with someone physically again, I plan on having some some great sexual fun and enjoy the anonymity of the internet in a way that works for me.
It is red hot texting with a lover. The crazy anticipatory turn-on knowing you have a person with you in real time and all about your pleasure is ridiculous. Holy Crap. It is like being in a Lifetime Movie of the Week. Watching for each new text to arrive with heart beating hard and breath getting fast. Nothing hotter.
Want a peek? Check this one out, it makes me shiver just reading it again!!
Mmm. so u like foot massages.
I'm good at those.
what else would u like me to massage??
I have a specialty
It involves warm coconut oil
smeared all over a willing body
then massaged in slowly
rubbed over every inch of skin
everyone needs a sensual touch
would u like me to touch u
i can see myself there with u
my hands running over your legs
down with the tips of my fingers
along your inner thighs.
edging closer to your ladyness
i might stop u from breathing