Chapter 20
MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER AND I ARE TRICKED
After returning home late from my evening of 1900's debauchery at the camera club I entered my house and shouted, "Hi!" to my daughter Lili who was not yet in bed and then headed straight for the shower. With my clothes in a heap on the floor I stood for a long time under the shower with the hot water cascading over my body.
I felt very guilty as images of what I had done that evening filled my head and, as I soaped my body, I was constantly reminded of what I had done by the soreness between my legs.
However, I felt a warm glow and although if anybody asked I would probably deny it, I knew that given the chance I would do something similar again. I even chuckled to my self as I washed my hair; a feeling of almost disbelief washing over me about what I had allowed to happen and the many orgasms I had experienced during the evening.
I finished my shower and, for the moment at least emerged as a boring middle aged mother of two daughters.
My eldest daughter, Alice, was now one month short of twenty years old and was studying away from home at university.
My youngest, Lili had just reached eighteen years old and was still studying at high school.
Lili had always been talkative and I like to think that we get along as best friends now that she is older. I've always encouraged her to be open with me and discus anything that might be troubling her or needs to chat about.
That particular evening she seemed a little troubled as if she wanted to tell me something but was finding it difficult. To be honest all I wanted to do was go to bed after my exhausting evening but she followed me to my room and sat on the edge of my bed. She was already for bed wearing just a tiny night dress. Maybe it was the events of that evening or maybe I just hadn't noticed before but I suddenly realised how much Lili had changed over the past year or so. I could see that she was no longer my little girl as I caught a glimpse of her pert young breasts beneath the night gown. I suppose in truth I felt envious as I saw how firm they looked compared to mine; almost the same size but jutting out firmly from her young body.
Lili had recently told me that she had a boyfriend and I wondered if it was something to do with him that was troubling her.
She was silent for a moment and then suddenly blurted out, "I'm on the pill!"
I felt stunned but tried to remain calm as I said, "That sounds like a very sensible thing to do." Trying desperately to block the thoughts and images in my head of Lili, my little girl, making love with her boyfriend.
"So when did-," I stammered.
"When did I lose my virginity?" She helped.
"Yes, when?"
Then came shock number two as she said, "Actually I lost it a while ago with another boy."
I wasn't sure how to react so I just reached out and hugged her before saying, "So who was the other boy?"
"Oh just a class mate," she said.
"Did you love him?"
"No, he was just there at the right time," she said quietly. "And before you say anything, I know it was not the way in which I had been brought up by you and in many ways I already regret it but I wanted to do 'it', I wanted to feel what it was like, to become a woman."
I was still shocked but recognised the need to keep calm and not discourage her from talking to me in the future.
"OK, I said calmly, "As you are now sexually active I think that you have been very sensible in taking birth control precautions." Thank you for finding the courage to tell me. Now let's get some sleep and maybe we'll talk about this boy tomorrow.
Lili looked relieved to have told me her news. We kissed each other and she said, "Thanks mum, night night," and left for her room.
After the revelation of that evening we didn't talk about it much after that. The boyfriend came to dinner a few times and I still struggled inwardly to control my sadness at the passing of Lili's childhood as I looked at him knowing that, to put it crudely, he was fucking my youngest daughter.
After a while I began to accept it and it had slipped down my list of worries by the time of the letter arriving from a Doctor Lee.
It read,
Dear Mrs Chen,
We at the University of Taichung are carrying out a detailed study of female sexuality and health. We are particularly interested in studying mothers and their daughters to determine characteristics that are passed on genetically. We have been looking at medical records and think that you and your youngest daughter would be perfect for our study.
If you are willing for you and your daughter to take part then please reply to this letter and we'll send further details.
Yours faithfully,
Dr Lee
As I was reading it Lili walked past and said, "Who's that from?" I passed her the letter for her to read.
"Sounds interesting," she said, "are you going to say that we're interested?"
"If you don't mind," I said, "It could help medical science and might be interesting."
"So let's do it then," said Lili.
I replied to the letter and within days had a reply which read,
Dear Mrs Chen,
Thank you for declaring your willingness to take part in our research. Before you finally accept our invitation I should make a few things perfectly clear:
1.You must both be willing to be intimately examined.
2.Be aware that some of our testing and measuring techniques are invasive so please avoid the times of your periods.
3.You might find some of our tests a little strange but I can assure you that they are all scientifically necessary and will help with our study.
Yours faithfully,
Dr Lee.
I was already having second thoughts as I read about being, 'intimately examined' and 'invasive procedures' but thought it might be educational for Lili to experience being intimately examined by a doctor sooner rather than later.
I talked it over with her and felt relived to discover that she already knew about smear tests and such like and said that knowing I was there would help and that she wanted to do it.
I put off replying for a few days, to make certain that neither Lili nor I changed our minds.
We then sat down one evening compared the dates of our periods before writing the reply to Dr Lee complete with convenient dates.
I was a little surprised by how quickly the reply came and when I opened the letter discovered that our appointment had been made for the earliest date and was in fact in a just few days time.
Lili seemed more relaxed than me as the day dawned and we set off for Taichung. We had decided to take the train as it was more relaxing than driving the two hour car journey.