"I've just been feeling this weird thing lately, I was hoping I could talk to you about it?" I asked.
Ashley, my girlfriend, looked up at me from the book she was reading. She put the page marker in, closed it, and set if off to the side.
"Of course," she replied with slight trepidation, "you know you can talk to me about anything."
She scooted over to make room on the couch next to her, and patted the now empty space.
I sat down and took a good long look at her. I still couldn't believe I had a girlfriend as beautiful as her. She had a soft kind face, and a slender build. She was shorter than me at 5'5. She had deep green eyes, and natural blond hair.
Today it was done up in pigtails, and she was wearing short shorts and a tank top. She never wore a bra at home, and her C cups were well accentuated by the top.
"I just... I've been thinking lately. You're the first and only girl I've ever been with, but I know that I'm not your first. I've been feeling this weird anxiety about that. I don't even really know how to describe it. It's like, I guess not knowing anything about your previous... partners, uh, it's like I'm making the worst possible assumptions about your past. Does that make any sense?" I asked her.
"Yeah, I think that totally makes sense, it's hard not knowing things and then you build them up in your head. How long has this been bothering you?"
"Since we started talking about maybe getting married. Once it became clear I wanted to spend my life with you, I just felt weird that it'll always be that I've only ever had you, but you've been with others."
"Okay well, I was only with a couple boys before you. Did you.... want me to tell you about them?"
My heart started to beat faster. That is what I wanted, but it still made me nervous. I nodded my head.
"Ok, well the first guy I was ever with, I was a freshman in college," she started. "We met in one of my classes, and I was immediately smitten, just classic tall dark and handsome."
I started to blush. Tall dark and handsome? That was the polar opposite of me.
"So I started sitting next to him in class and talking to him and stuff. Before long he asked me out. After a couple dates he came back to my dorm room."
Her eyes locked onto mine. She had a concerned expression on her face.
"How uh... how detailed did you want me to get?" she asked nervously.
"I want to know everything," I replied.
"Okay... just uh, just stop me if things get too much."
I nodded.
"So we to back to my dorm, and things are getting hot and heavy. He's pushing me up against the wall as we're making out, and our clothes start coming off. Then I asked him if he had any condoms."
Ashley started to blush as she turned away from my gaze; clearly embarrassed of where the story was going.
"He uh, he said no. But... I was young and stupid and just so, so horny at that point. I didn't stop him. I told him he would have to pull out and he agreed," she continued, still not looking at me.
At this point, I was rock hard. I hadn't expected this reaction from myself honestly. What had started as stress and anxiety had turned into pure lust.
"Well, that went about as well as you would expect. It was his first time too. He lasted less than a minute. And came in me without warning."
My heart nearly stopped. He came inside her? We've been dating for 3 years and still I've never gotten to do that. She insists on a condom every time. I would probably feel jealous if I wasn't so turned on.
"Well, as you can imagine that made me very angry, and freaked me the fuck out. So, if you ever wondered why I'm so insistent on condoms... that incident is probably to blame."