It was late January and I was at the mall shopping. The holiday rush was over and the entire mall was very quiet on a weekday afternoon.
I do not like trying on clothes, but I dislike returning items even more so I do it when necessary. Today I had taken the afternoon off to shop for a friend's birthday and maybe update my wardrobe a little when a sweater caught my eye. A clerk directed me to the changing rooms. Even though this was an upscale mall, I saw the changing rooms had the style where they were very concerned about shoplifting. The rooms were not off in a separate corridor, but on a wall in the back of the main store. Instead of private rooms with doors, the rooms had a pull curtain which allowed a pretty clear view of a person's legs. However, the store was essentially empty and the rooms were obscured by some racks of clothing, so I was not concerned. Sometimes this kind of changing room without privacy would be enough for me to go somewhere else if the place was busy.
I went in and hung up my coat. I closed the curtain and faced the mirror as I removed my shirt. I was dressed casually, jeans and a pullover navy blue crew sweater. The curtain was in two pieces that you pulled together at the center. I saw there was a small gap where the curtain came against the wall and I noticed some movement, but I could not see any details and thought I was just being paranoid. I tried on the new sweater. I liked it, but it was too big.
I got dressed again and left the changing room. There was no one nearby, but the store was essentially empty so I suspected the movement I sensed had likely been the man now looking at clothing. He was maybe about 50 and well dressed. He looked like he come from work and it appeared he was shopping for his wife as the clerk was giving him some suggestions.
I heard him comment, "No, she is more like her size," as he looked over at me. I had found my sweater in a smaller size when he and the clerk approached me holding a red cocktail dress. The clerk had been holding it up to herself, but she was only about 5 feet tall and somewhat overweight while I am 5'7".
"Excuse me, I am trying to pick out an anniversary gift for my wife and I was trying to decide on this one. You are about her size. Would you mind very much holding this up to you? I like this, but I am concerned it is too much for her."
I could see what he meant; it was pretty but slinky with a plunging neckline and a short hem.
I smiled and said, "No problem, but did you say this was her gift or your gift."
I held it up to my body, but it is very difficult to tell where the hemline or neckline comes when a dress is on a hanger, so I am not sure what was gained. The clerk came back and echoed what I had said, but also told him his wife could return it if she did not like it.
He said he hated to do that, as they were going to be traveling soon and hoped to take the dress on the trip and there was not a lot of time left. He hoped whatever he selected would be close to the correct size. He had been very polite and well mannered, so I thought to help.
I said, "I am trying on the sweater anyway, if you like, I can put it on to help you decide."
I realized this could appear forward, but I really only had the intention of being helpful. He responded with a courteous attitude; expressing his gratitude and apology for the inconvenience. In my view, courtesy begets courtesy, so not being in a hurry, I did not mind. I took my sweater and the dress back in the changing room. I tried on the sweater first. It fit well now, but the room was small and the mirror was very close. I went out to get a better view with the three-way mirror in the store.
The man said, "I think I changed my mind and will get her that sweater instead." I knew what he meant; it did look pretty good, form fitting and a shimmering fabric. I would intend to wear it with a classy skirt for work. His comment was friendly, a little flirtatious, but not overt.
I responded, "Ha-ha, too bad, I am going to get this one. Give me a second and I will try on the dress. I would have done it first if I thought you were waiting, sorry."
He said, "No, no, take your time."
I went in again and took off the sweater and jeans. I had not noticed anyone outside as I was trying on the sweater, but now I could tell he was nearby from the reflection underneath the curtain. I wondered how it looked as my jeans dropped to the floor and he could see my bare legs. I put on the dress and there were a couple of problems. First, it was too way too big. Frankly, when they had handed me the dress I had not looked at the size. Secondly, I could tell my bra looked stupid in this dress. It was fine for a sweater with a crew neck, but with the plunging neckline of this dress, it was a huge distraction.
I slipped off the dress and poked my head out the curtain as he was standing outside waiting, "Could you ask the clerk to bring it one size smaller?"
He smiled, "Sure," as I handed him the larger one.
After a few moments, I heard him say, "Hello?"
I poked my head out again as he handed me the smaller size. During the mechanics of hanging up the dress and closing the curtain, I realized he might have had a short glimpse of me, whether directly or from the mirror.
Inadvertently, I had closed the center gap in the curtain, but by doing this I had created a small gap between the curtain and the wall. Not much, but enough so I could look at the correct angle of the mirror and see outside. I also noticed the man had shifted his position and I suspected he could be trying to look.
Should I glare at him, close the gap, or move over within the changing room to eliminate his view? My thoughts complicated more as I realized the thought he was looking at me was mildly exciting and my nipples were suddenly hard. A lot was going through my mind quickly, but I acted as though I did not know he was looking.
I had certainly not gone to the store intending to allow anyone to watch me undress. Had I realized as I used the changing room there was a chance of someone looking at me, I would have been much more careful. Now that it had inadvertently happened, I knew I was a little turned on.
I have been nude in public before, but the context was different. I enjoy nude beaches very much, but when others are also nude and that is the custom, it is no big deal. I have been to Europe many times and the standards for saunas and spas are very casual about nudity, normal beaches are topless for women.
Other than nude beaches, I had some exploration of public nudity during the last couple of years such as a 'strip golf' adventure on the Hawaii golf course and on a boat during my travels to Florida.
So while I am not a prude by any means about nudity, this was a completely different situation. The exhibitionist angle was present, but also contributing was the fact this was in my home arena. I have been adventurous on occasion, but it had always been when I was traveling. The idea people did not know me provided freedom and that feeling of anonymity was a part of me letting loose of my inhibitions. I did not know this man, but this was within my 'home court' and I was feeling conflicted.
So even in my own mind, I was not entirely clear about why the little peep show was appealing. But even without having all of that worked out, I found it very exhilarating and I liked the feeling of being turned on this way.
I took the dress off the hook and examined it slowly to prolong the show as I acted as though I was reading the tag. I took the dress off the hanger and slipped it on. It actually fit beautifully and would have been exactly the kind of dress I would have wanted to wear to a fancy occasion. I had on black bra and thong which were not the sexiest ones in my drawer, but I did not expect to be putting on a show. The bra was very prominent in this dress, both the shoulder straps and the bra itself in this neckline. As I moved around a little, I could tell he was still there trying to get a glimpse. I wondered how much he could really see through the curtain gap, but I was not bothered.
I lowered the dress enough to take off my bra. I stood there and looked at my hard nipples in the mirror. I wanted to touch my breasts and I would have had I had these feelings in private, but I resisted the temptation. I noticed he turned his head as if to check whether anyone else was watching. He looked again as I started to put back on the dress. The dress looked great, I had to admit. It was flimsy material, so I would have worn the right kind of a bra with it, but as it was now, my hard nipples were prominent.