The first time I met Julia, she was walking through the dorm hallway on her way to the bathroom wearing the most amazing night outfit. She was wearing a men's athletic shirt. I think they're called A-shirts or tank-tops. (Some people today call them wife-beaters, but that's kind of rude.) Her nipples weren't just sticking out through her shirtβyou could actually see their dark shape through the thin fabric. The shirt came down to just below her crotch. I assumed, but wasn't sure, that she had panties underneath. She was, to say the least, uninhibited.
Little did I know...
I should mention that she is Asian, so she has black straight hair and very dark nipples on smallish boobs. (She also has straight black pubic hair, not kinky, but I didn't know that at the time.) Those nipples would shine through white fabric, even if it weren't the sheerest kind. And that shirt was quite thin. It was quite a sight. I worked hard to avert my eyes.
Her outfit wasn't the only remarkable thing about that evening encounter in the dorm the first week of freshman year. More importantly, she gave me the friendliest, most welcoming smile, and the simple word "Hi." That's all it took. I was smitten.
But I was shy. I'd had girlfriends in high school, but I was hardly a chick magnet. I was on the debate team, not the football team. Yes, I was smitten with Julia, but she seemed out of my league, so all I could muster was a small smile, and a return "Hi" and that was the end of it. Or so I thought.
The next day at lunch, I was in the dining hall at a table by myself, and guess who sat down with me? Yep, there was Julia. We introduced ourselves, and even shook hands. She ate her salad and I ate my burrito and we chatted about all the normal stuff - where we were from, what courses we were taking, who our roommates were.
She was, as usual, braless and very perky, and I worked very hard not to look. I kept my eyes on her face, very politely. I am, unfortunately, a "nice guy." As I said, I'm not a chick magnet. I kept my eyes where they belonged.
We ate, we talked, and we said goodbye and went to classes. I was, I think, elated but a bit confused. She was a 10 and I'm a 5, or maybe, on a good day, a 6. It didn't seem right. Maybe she just wanted to be friends.
But it was nice to think about her. Back at the dorm that evening, I told my roommate Dave about it. He gave me a big pat on the back, congratulated me, and said "Go for it man. You can do it." Maybe I had a chance?
It turns out that he was right. I did have a chance. Over the next week or so, she would join me and Dave and the other guys at meals, if we were in the dining hall at the same time. She sometimes brought her roommate Kathryn, who would flirt with Dave. He wasn't interested since he had a girlfriend back home, but he was nice to her.
One evening she even came by my dorm room, just to visit, and sat on my bed. I pulled up my desk chair next to the bed. She put her bare feet on my lap and we chatted away.
I couldn't help but notice her outfits. She was always braless, which I guess was normal since she had small boobs and really didn't need support. But those nipples were hard as rocks, and the tops were skimpy, and it took every ounce of concentration to mind my manners. She always had her eyes on mine, so I didn't even have much of a chance to let my gaze wander.
You may be asking, "She's obviously into you. Why don't you ask her out?" Yeh, I know. I was a dork. Too shy, too insecure, and I still had the lingering feeling that she was out of my league.
Fortunately, she solved the problem. It was a Saturday, with beautiful weather, and she came by my room in the morning, when it was nearing lunch time. "Let's go on a picnic, Conners" she said. (My name is Alan, but she always called me by my last name. I don't know why.)
What a great idea. She didn't have to ask twice. We stopped by a deli and picked up sandwiches and sodas. She'd brought a blanket from her bed, and we went to the quad and set the blanket out and ate. There were other couples and groups around, but not right next to us, so we were mostly alone.
After we'd eaten, we were both quiet for a few minutes, just looking at the trees and the grass, with nothing to say. Then she spoke up. "Lie down," she said.
That was pretty bossy. I looked at her with a question on my face, and she said it again, "Lie down." If I hadn't been a dork, I would have known what was going on, but I was a dork so I didn't. I was puzzled. So she made it clear. "Just do it," she said, pointing to where I should put my head on the blanket. Very directive, very bossy.
So I did what I was told. I laid back and looked at the sky. Then - surprise, surpriseβ she sat down on top of me, straddling my legs, and she leaned over a bit. She looked at me, holding my gaze for a good long minute.
She was, of course, bra-less. I didn't dare look, but I could see, out of the corner of my eye, down her low-cut loose-fitting shirt with the top two buttons unbuttoned. You could see all the way to Texas. Nearly everything was on display, but I couldn't look. Her eyes were glued to mine, and if I looked down for even a moment, she'd know it immediately. I couldn't do it. Eyes where they belong...
After a good long minute, she spoke. "You're a real gentleman, aren't you?"
I didn't know what she meant. "What?" I asked.
"You want to look down my shirt, but you're too much of a gentleman to do it."
I had no idea what to say, and she continued, with a stern look on her face. "Stop it," she said. Once again, very bossy. Very authoritative. No nonsense.
My heart sank. She and I were having such a great time together. It seemed like we were getting along so well. But I'd blown it. She thought I was a pervert, or at least a pig.
I started to explain or apologize. But she put her finger on my lips to quiet me. Then she gave me a sly expression, half-smile and half-smirk. "I didn't mean you should stop looking," she said. "I meant to stop being a gentleman." Then she corrected herself. "I don't really mean to stop being a gentleman. I like that about you. I mean that I want you to look at me, like you want to."
Now she adjusted the shirt, opened another button, and leaned over just a bit. "What do you see?" she said. I hesitated. This was a test, wasn't it? I was supposed to say, "I'm not going to look down your shirt because that would be treating you as a sex object. I value you for your mind, not your body." Or something like that.