feeling-herself
EXHIBITIONIST VOYEUR

Feeling Herself

Feeling Herself

by midnightconfession
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"I wasn't expecting as much attention as I got. For real. It was just a couple of normal pictures with an honest question. I wasn't even showing any skin, at least not much. Of course, some things I can't hide. You know?" Nicole gestured to her chest, as if it wasn't obvious.

"Honey, you posted a picture on the internet. What did you think was going to happen? Everyone was just going to be nice?" After looking her friend up and down, Stacy looked away and focused on something inside the restaurant. Nicole couldn't help but notice that Stacy seemed a little off tonight and more than once had checked out her body, only to turn away when she was caught.

"People were nice! They were mean too. They were kind of everything. I got so many messages I couldn't have responded even if I wanted to. I just never had so much attention. It was weird. Sort of uncomfortable..." Nicole trailed off as her thoughts returned to the flood of messages and comments. It was true, she wasn't used to having so many eyes on her. Good, bad, all of it. Two days ago Nicole posted in an online forum to solicit some advice on how she could look better. A normal question that any young woman would want an answer to. She had asked her girlfriends the same but the answers seemed without meaning. They had all said that she looked great and that she should just keep on being her, no need to change a thing.

But even more than feeling uncomfortable, the attention was exciting. She hadn't admitted that to her friends. This was actually the first time that she really admitted it to herself, even though the feeling had been there since the first wave of messages and comments came in. All talking about her, her body. She had sat there for hours and read through every word, amazed at what people were saying. More than anything that these people, internet strangers, had spent their time looking at her.

Nicole had to admit that the attention was flattering. And more than a little bit of a turn on. The slight tingle between her legs said the same.

Jackie smirked and put her hand on her friend's shoulder. "I think it's kind of hot. Right? Lots of creeps I'm sure, but..."

The hostess, a young blond girl, interrupted. "Ladies, you can come with me. I've got a table ready for you." She grabbed menus and led the three women through the restaurant to a table near the back. It was early on a Friday night but the place was already full. One of these trendy fusion restaurants that served small plates, craft cocktails, and had a shelf life of about eighteen months before everyone moved on to something else.

The hostess ushered the women through the room and Nicole could feel the eyes looking her over, which wasn't a new thing. Good looking girls drew attention and these three were no exception. But something felt different to Nicole tonight and it wasn't just the new dress. The feeling was in how her body felt in the dress, how she shook her wide hips and how her large breasts swayed with each slightly unnecessary shake of her shoulders to move past a table. There was excitement when she stopped for a moment to let a busboy pass and stuck her chest out, dangerously close to brushing against the young man. His eyes were wide, taking advantage of the split second opportunity to stare at what was briefly offered.

Nicole wondered what they were all thinking. Was she just passing eye candy or would some of them remember the curvy brunette for a bit longer?

Behind the bar was a large mirror that made the room seem bigger than it was, but Nicole only had eyes for herself. Her shoulder length brown hair was done with little flip up at the edges, sort of a retro look that made her seem fun, maybe even a bit flirty. Her big, expressive brown eyes and friendly smile competed for attention on her pretty face.

The long red dress hugged her body enough to show off her curves without being obscene. The plunging neckline showed more cleavage than Nicole was used to, but certainly a lot less than many of the women in the restaurant. Though a quick look around confirmed that none of them filled out a dress the way that she did. Nicole needed a new bra to go with the new dress so that the undergarment wasn't visible, she wound up with something that gave a lot less support than she was used to, but was worth it for a night out.

One guy in particular followed her out of the corner of his eyes, trying to make it seem like he was looking past her or at something else. But she had developed a sense over the years for this sort of thing. Nicole knew she was a type; big tits, big ass, a classic hourglass silhouette. Maybe it had gone out of fashion over the years but experience had taught her that she still had her admirers. And she was a paragon of the model, so much so that some people couldn't take their eyes off of her. This guy was one of them.

And her admirer was good looking. He had short brown hair and a tan button up with rolled up sleeves, but it was his eyes that she was most interested in. They were locked onto her body like a tractor beam, she could feel the desire in them. Nicole stopped for a second and patted herself down, as if she was looking for something lost. Then she spun her body back towards the door, offering a full view of her body. Not just her tits, but also the plump ass that strained at the back of her dress and wanted attention too.

Then she smiled and said to her friend, "I've got it. Thought I lost my phone."

Nicole sat first and grabbed the seat that left her the most exposed to the room, her chest facing the majority of the restaurant, the long slit up the side of her dress on full display to anyone that wanted to look.

The hostess dropped off the menus and let them know a server would be by soon.

Nicole looked across the table at her two friends. Stacy was a wispy bottle blond that never had a problem attracting men. She was tall and thin, two classic beauty markers that seemed to be enough for most guys. Clothes fit her like a model, which was the upside of a body that was straight up and down, barely a curve to be found. Stacy didn't usually wear a bra and this evening was no exception. Tonight she had on a skin tight black dress that came to her mid thigh and heels that made her even taller.

Of the three women, Jackie was the only one that had a long term boyfriend and had settled into a bit of a contented ennui. She had on blue jeans and a light sweater, a laid back vibe that paired well with her girl next door look. Most people remembered Jackie for the long black hair that went halfway down her back and her laugh, loud and encouraging. Her once a month night out with the girls was a chance to live vicariously through her friends and she wanted all the details.

"So, Nic, what did people say to you? Actually, catch me up on the entire thing," Jackie suggested. Stacy was already looking at the menu but Nicole thought she saw her eyes darting over to her cleavage. It honestly wasn't that much, but more than she typically showed.

Nicole paused, not wanting to seem too eager to recall the comments that she had received.

"Well, I posted in one of these forums where people ask for advice on how to look better. I think I sort of need a little bit of a new look, the things that worked when we were younger aren't really cutting it anymore. I asked people what I could do to improve," she explained.

"And you posted pictures? I could never," Jackie shook her head, squirming at the idea.

Nicole nodded. "That part was a little weird, truthfully. But I wanted honest answers," she said. She also wanted people to see her, she could finally admit that to herself. Just the thought got her excited and she wiggled in her seat a tiny bit, just enough to feel her own body move. It felt beyond good. "And I certainly got them."

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"Like what?" Jackie was enthralled at her friend's adventure.

"Yeah, what did people say about you?" Stacy finally looked up.

"A lot of people said I need to lose a little weight. They made it seem like they were concerned about me in the long term. Which, honestly, felt odd. These people don't know me and they're all worried about my health?" Nicole confided. "It almost felt like..." they were jealous, is what she wanted to say. But she stopped herself.

Stacy moved her mouth to speak, but paused, whatever she was going to say frozen in her throat.

"But other people were more explicit. They talked about every part of me," Nicole kept her voice low, like she was sharing a secret with her friends. There was so much more that she wanted to say about this, but it felt weird to talk about it because she couldn't without admitting how good it felt. "Some parts definitely got more attention than others."

"You look great," Jackie was always a cheerleader for her girls. "Every bit of you." She traced a curvy silhouette with her hands and gave Nicole a wink.

Stacy was ready to change the subject and looked around the room with a wicked smile curling her pouty red lips. "Some cute boys here tonight. I think it could be a fun evening. That one over there, brown shirt and short brown hair, has been looking this way since we sat down." Stacy sat up and adjusted her dress, pulling at the thin fabric so that her friends noticed the lines of her ribs and the stiff tips of her nipples.

"Wait, can I just say one more thing?" Nicole interjected, her mind again lost in the words of total strangers. "This one guy sent me a message. He said that back in the day there were posters of girls like me in every Army barrack so that the boys knew what they were fighting for. He said that they don't make them like me anymore."' She paused and squeezed her thighs together beneath the table. "What does that even mean?"

But she knew what it meant. It meant that she could get someone's blood pumping without even trying. She must have reread those words a half dozen times, her nipples stiff the entire time as she imagined all the eyes that zoomed in on her photo and thought about her curves.

Jackie was hanging on her words. "Girl, that's fucking hot. You do have that pinup look going on. I bet I know how that guy spent his night?"

Stacy just watched, not saying a word. Again she was about to speak and rolled her eyes when the server walked up, cutting her off. He was probably in his late twenties and not bad looking. Broad shoulders and a little bit of stubble on a pleasant face.

"Good evening ladies. I'm Steven and I'll be helping you out tonight. Get started with some drinks?" Steven looked over the three women seated in front of him and smiled. He was a pro and knew how to act, but couldn't help but steal a long glance at Nicole.

Nicole was seated with her back straight up and her chest pushed out in a way that demanded his attention. She looked at him with her big eyes and smiled.

"Thanks Steven. I want a cocktail, what do you recommend? No tequila."

"Hmmm. I really like the gin cocktail we've got on the menu, the Aviation. A little lemon makes it tart, the crème de violette has some sweetness and gives it a slight purple color. It's fun," he explained. His dark eyes met Nicole's brown ones, her breasts just on the periphery but impossible to ignore.

She broke first and looked down at the cocktail menu. Nicole held it in front of her tits and pointed to the drink, inviting his eyes to take another peek. "That does look good. I'll have one of those." She didn't need to look up to know that he had taken the bait, she could somehow feel it in her body. And she liked it.

"Great. And you two?" The server turned to Stacy and Jackie.

"I'll have the Founders All Day," Jackie said. She had been on a beer kick lately and wasn't a big drinker.

Stacy leaned into the drink menu, a quick glance at Nicole before looking at the waiter. "A white wine. This one here," she pointed, "I'm not going to say that French word." The waiter barely looked at her, whatever had his attention it wasn't Stacy. Nicole watched and noticed that her friend wasn't built all that different from the menu, holding it to her chest was not a flattering comparison for Stacy. She quickly pushed the thought away, it felt mean. But it was true.

"Thanks ladies, I'll get these right out to you," one more glance at Nicole and the waiter headed to the bar.

Was she really getting turned on over this? From some waiter checking out her tits? Was it because her friends were there and she was the one that he wanted to look at? But she couldn't ignore the warmth that was spreading from between her legs and seeping into the rest of her body.

She watched the server go to the bar and drop off the order with the bartender. Then he leaned in and whispered something to the bartender, an older guy. The bartender looked up and then over to Nicole, a little smile on his face. Their eyes met for a second and then she looked away. The interaction was quick and her friends didn't notice it, but Nicole was certain the two guys were talking about her. She brought her eyes back to the table but could feel the attention linger. Some evolutionary remnant that let her know she was the target of something hungry.

Nicole reached her hand into her cleavage for a quick adjustment. If anyone happened to be watching they may have gotten a quick glimpse of her creamy flesh as she slid everything back into place.

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"Sorry," she explained to her friends, "things were moving around a little."

"I love that dress, it looks great on you," Jackie complimented.

"Yeah, Nic. It's a different look for you," Stacy countered, not a compliment. Just an observation.

"Thanks, I thought it would be fun for a night out with the girls," she said, flashing that big smile of hers.

"Is it because of one of the comments that you got? I bet you had, like, a hundred guys talking about your tits," Stacy's tone was dismissive. "I'm sure more than one said that..."

Nicole cut her off. "Thousands."

"What?" Stacy raised her eyebrows and Jackie mouthed something.

"Thousands actually. Last time I looked there were about 2500 comments. I said it was a lot of attention! They weren't all about my tits, but a lot of them were. Crazy, right?" Nicole leaned forward as she spoke and the small line of cleavage grew deeper until her breasts were resting on the table.

"Damn, that is a lot," Stacy leaned back and crossed her arms over her chest. The three of them were quiet for just a moment until Jackie said something.

"So what else is going on? Stacy, you still seeing that guy from a couple of weeks ago? Let's hear about it? You know I live for your updates," Jackie gave the thin blond a little nudge under the table.

"Well...," she began and the conversation flowed from there. Stacy had gone out with this guy a couple of times, and it was cool but she didn't see it going anywhere long term. Jackie was excited for an upcoming trip to some National Parks with her boyfriend. The conversation was nice, the three of them had been friends since college and could talk about anything, but Nicole had a hard time staying focused on what they were saying. Her mind was elsewhere.

The waiter dropped off their drinks and brushed against Nicole's bare arm and the touch lit her up. After that, her attention was entirely elsewhere, not that she was thinking about the waiter exactly, but way more in tune with what was going on around her rather than in front of her. The brown haired guy couldn't go more than a couple of minutes without looking in her direction, as if he was afraid he would miss something. And everytime the waiter checked in with the bartender it seemed like they had more to talk about than a drink order.

"Excuse me," Nicole pushed back her chair and stood up from the table, straightening out her dress and pulling it close to her for a moment. She smirked when the brown haired guy spun his head around so fast that it looked like a spasm. "I need the bathroom."

She grabbed her phone and walked across the restaurant to the restrooms near the bar, taking her time and putting a tiny bounce in her step so that her tits wobbled with each move. This is fun, she thought, whatever it is.

The unisex bathrooms were in a narrow hallway, a row of three doors set off of the main room, with a kitchen entrance at the end. Not a great setup. She went in the last one, closed the door, and looked in the mirror. Without hesitation she lowered the straps of her dress and then her bra, finally pulling everything down and putting her tits on display. This voyeurism wasn't her plan, at least she didn't think it was, but why shouldn't she take a peek at what everyone else wanted to see?

She lifted her heavy breasts together with both hands and then let them drop, a quiet slap of flesh echoing in the tiled bathroom.

Nicole loved the way that her tits looked and felt. In the mirror she saw a pair to rival anything that she had seen in a movie or online. Her breasts had wide roots and projected out from her body in a way that let her fill out whatever she wore. To say she was busty would be a massive understatement. It was rare that she didn't have the biggest tits wherever she went. Some women her age had already begun to succumb to gravity, but so far Nicole had resisted and her breasts looked as good as they did years ago. No, she corrected the thought, they looked even better. Too big to be considered perky, she had been called voluptuous and shapely more times than she could count. In contrast to the pale skin of her tits, her nipples were small and dark. Right now they were also as hard as pebbles. She couldn't resist and Nicole gave each one a gentle tug, pulling her tits away from her body and then letting go to watch them crash back against her with a tremor that almost shook her body.

She could admit that she loved the way that she looked.

But Nicole wasn't always the girl with the big tits.

It wasn't until a late college growth spurt that Nicole's body began to resemble what was reflected back at her from the mirror. In a matter of months she flew through the alphabet of bra sizes, struggling with a series of ill fitting undergarments and recommended sister sizes until she finally deciphered the riddle of a proper bra and discovered British sizing. At first she loved her new tits and the attention that she got from them, flaunting them like a favorite toy that she was eager to show off. And there were no shortage of suitors looking to show their appreciation for her and them. But their power went beyond just attracting the opposite sex. On one occasion, a bit tipsy at a party, she flashed a flat chested girl to shut her up just because she could. Stunned, the girl stared at her slack jawed, no rebuttal possible. The two of them weren't on the same level, Nicole figured, and that's just how it was.

But it didn't stay that way. Instead, she began to see herself as she feared others did. A fetish object worth a night, a story for someone to one up their buddies with. She watched as her friends fell into long term relationships and she got texts from old hookups that were recently single and looking to get a drink. What had once given her power and confidence was instead making her feel unsure.

And throughout it all her tits kept getting bigger. The rate had certainly slowed down over the initial burst, but each year she'd get resized and another batch of expensive bras would be relegated to the bottom of the drawer. Maybe revisited if, for some reason, her breasts decided to get smaller. But that never happened.

Instead, the rest of life did.

Nicole was smart and sweet and she never doubted this about herself. Shortly after college she landed a good job, eventually went to grad school, and was doing better than just about anyone that she knew. Her style became more conservative and emphasized her bust less. She could finally afford those expensive British bras that she liked so much, even treating herself to several animal skin patterned ones that gave her a thrill to know they were beneath her toned down work wear. There was never going to be a way to hide what she had, but she could minimize them. It's not that she wanted people to ignore her breasts, she just wanted the world to like the other parts of her as much as they liked her tits. Aside from her intelligence and charm, she knew her ass didn't get the attention it deserved. A shame.

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