My mind was empty for the first few minutes as I drove back from the restaurant. I just about managed to go through some logistics like making sure of the time so my parents wouldn't be home, and that I was presentable enough to walk from the car to the house. Given how far I'd gone with them I was presuming that I'd be too shocked to think about what happened next, but as I went along familiar streets I realised that my mind wasn't really blank it was just calm.
I could get excited or nervous again easily, I just needed to recall some of the details. The look of terrified anticipation on Nick's face as he pulled my knickers down, or the feel of Tim's hands and penis on my body. However the feelings were in the past and I had no regrets or worries any more, just shock and delight that it had happened. Well I did have one regret, that it was over. Reliving it was one thing but I couldn't be surprised by past events, my thrills really came when I didn't quite know what would happen next.
This attitude didn't change for the rest of the day and it started to seem like a new normal. That meant the only real question that formed was what I'd be doing next. What I'd be doing as soon as possible. Far from worrying about overdoing things it seemed obvious I should just take every opportunity while I had lots of free time.
Initially my thoughts were about who to get in touch with. So far I'd just let Tom, Jim, Jeff and the rest of them choose what happened to me, so that seemed the obvious course of action. I hesitated because I didn't really know how to choose, I'd not seen Jim for a while, Jeff probably expected me to tell him about the restaurant and Tom always seemed like the most enjoyable to just hang out with. Maybe I should get Tom and Jim back together again, or Brad and Jeff. Or could I somehow get in touch with Nick?
Nothing seemed quite right and eventually I figured out why. The part of my last adventure that I relived the most were the moments in the corridor with Nick. They reminded me of how all this started, back when I was the one urging Tom and Jim to take more and more liberties with me. Back when it was me asking them to take my clothes off rather than them telling me to. It wasn't that I'd lost my taste for being a plaything, I thought about being one a lot too, it was just a side of my exhibitionism that felt it needed more attention right now. Getting in touch with people who already knew what I would do for them if they asked wasn't going to cut it. I needed to get out there and find some new blood.
That was daunting, but it wasn't as if I was starting from scratch. Along with various fantasies I'd had over the years there were situations I'd seen in films or TV that had excited me, and there were also the vague plans that I'd been having without particularly trying to over the last few weeks. There was one location that I'd thought about a lot as it seemed about the only place in public where it wouldn't be completely out of the blue for me to undress. I still needed a good story before any strangers would watch me undress, but I kept at it, running different scenarios through in my mind.
It felt close several times but it also seemed hopeless a lot of the time too. If there was one thing I'd learned lately, though, it was that lots of men wanted to watch me take my clothes off. All I needed to do was figure out a way to just ask them to, which, when put like that seemed the simplest transaction in the world. Once I had that simple formulation then things started to fall in place. Eventually I had a plan that seemed solid and that I didn't want to overthink. Working out the rest off the cuff would make it more fun, and it would also lessen the chances of deciding against it. It had taken a day of hanging about the house, but that evening I went to bed nervous and excited but also determined, and possibly even a little bit confident.
The next morning I had a few things I needed to prepare but that didn't take long. Like when I'd got ready for the restaurant I was deliberately not thinking about what would happen, that was already decided. Given there was no Tom or Jeff or Brad to make me carry on there might be more moments of doubt just before action, so I wanted to guard against them as much as possible.
I did need to choose my outfit, however, and that did require some reflection on what I wanted to happen. I needed to look professional but obviously also sexy. In the end I settled on a tight skirt that finished just above the knee, tights, a white blouse that I could unbutton a little without it seeming gratuitous and a jacket I got from my Mum's wardrobe. I put my hair up and decided to wear my glasses. Looking in the mirror I seemed right on the edge between a professional looking outfit that happened to be sexy and a sexy outfit that pretended to be professional. Possibly I was slightly over but that was perfect.
I took another moment to look at my breasts, bum and tiny waist which were all wonderfully tightly packed and emphasised. I tried to imagine a man's reaction if I told them I would get naked for them if they wanted. My stomach did a familiar flip of nervous excitement and I briefly wondered what on earth I thought I was doing. But it was only very briefly before my slightly blank determination to act took back over. I gathered what I needed, made my way to the car and set off.
My destination was one of the local malls, quite big and anonymous and featuring several large department stores that seemed perfect for what I wanted. I was pretty apprehensive as I made my way inside but I realised that a lot of that was wondering if I would find the right setup. I had a particular idea in my head of how to approach things and I knew that although some compromises might be needed if things were too out my confidence might desert me.
It took about half an hour of nervous scouting before I settled on a location. It had been the first I'd looked at but I hadn't been able to start without checking some others. I think I'd known it was fine immediately but it was fun to feel the fear build as I went from justified preparation to warring with myself. That familiar tug where I wanted to run away embarrassed and terrified but knew I would hate myself if I did. I couldn't believe what I was about to say to someone and felt thousands of excuses pulling at me, but at the same time I absolutely had to do it. For about the fourth time I started towards the changing rooms that I'd picked out telling myself that this first part was really simple. This time as I got closer I suddenly realised I was not going to turn back, my nerves were under control.
"Excuse me."
The guy at the entrance, who looked to be a bored student on a summer job, looked up. He didn't seem particularly excited by my appearance but it was early days.
"Yes, miss?"
"There's no problem with bringing someone in here with me is there? They'd wait outside the changing room till I'm ready, but it looks like there's plenty of room and wouldn't disturb the other cubicles." I looked past him as I said that as if checking, but this was one of the things I'd scouted. It was early and a week day so the shop was quiet but I'd already seen that exact thing happen.
"Yes, that's not a problem, people do it all the time."
"Great!" I smiled brightly at him, trying to over do it with confidence and happiness. "Well, hopefully I'll be trying quite a few things on today, and I'll be bringing a few people back with me. Is it alright if I put my things in the one at the end and then come back with my first few outfits?"
"I, er, think so." He seemed slightly confused now but still mostly bored.
"Thanks." I hesitated slightly, I wasn't sure if I needed to say more. He wasn't a big part of my plan but I wanted things to go smoothly when I brought someone back. He helped me out by asking a question.
"We don't normally let people save them for too long. You're not planning on being away for a while, are you?"
"Oh, I hope not." I smiled at him again. "You see, I'm doing an experiment for a college class and I need to find a few volunteers, but it shouldn't take long and then I'll be back. But, don't worry, I will be buying some things as well, I promise, I know I can't use your shop for free."
"An experiment? I, er, I think I might have to ask someone about that."
It sounded like he hated feeling the need to say that. I tried to look sad.
"Oh, no, don't say that. I shouldn't have said anything, all I'll be doing is trying on clothes. That is the experiment, you see. I promise." I tried to look at him appealingly.
"So, you're just asking people to look at what you wear?"
"Yes, just like a normal trip to the mall." I paused, I couldn't resist adding something more. "They get to pick my outfits, but I don't see why that changes anything."
"Oh, really?" He finally sounded slightly interested.
"Yes, that's the point, actually. It's to see how guys act if they can pick what I wear."
He had visibly perked up. "So they choose what you wear and get to see you in it?"
"That's the idea."
He looked me up and down. "And they can pick anything?"
"Pretty much."
He paused again, seemingly wondering what to say.
"Obviously if they knew me and it was in private," I smiled at him some more, "well, we think they'd probably pick the sexiest stuff they could. We want to find out how that changes in public, you know, it's a test of inhibitions."
He wondered some more but in the end he didn't come up with anything much. "I guess it's fine."
"Thank you."
I smiled again and took my bag to the changing room I'd picked out, looking back to make sure my new friend had seen and noted which room was now mine. It was at the end of the corridor which curved slightly, so there should be no opportunity for others using the changing rooms to see what I was doing inside. Now I just needed to find the first person who would get to watch.