Dear diary,
It's been nine weeks since my last entry. I told Jenna about the experience with the military guys. It's the first time I've ever felt like a woman has lusted to be in my position. Maybe all those years of me talking about my relationship with Max didn't exhibit true happiness and fulfilment. It's not until you're out of something that you really acknowledge that you weren't 'living' -- you were just getting by.
I said goodbye to that girl a little while ago. I couldn't tell Jenna about the office encounter with Josh. It's crazy, but Josh actually got back together with his ex. Then they split, then she revealed she was pregnant. I... Don't even know what to say on that one. Life is happening and it's happening FAST.
I've been trying to suppress things -- my urges, desires and impulses. Maybe I'm going too crazy. Is it concerning? I just know that I can't live without really enjoying myself sexually. I've had offers to sleep with other men, per their hungry DM's, but I just wanted something that made me feel alive.
Have a got a juicy one for you... I was made to feel alive by somebody who I didn't expect. I took an internal promotion and have gotten to know James quite well. James is our Interim CEO, working occasionally at our office, in between here and our other branch 35 miles away. Is it bad that after not seeing him for some time, I scoped out his ring finger?
Sadly, James is married. Note the 'happily' part not being featured. It's amazing when you're sitting in on meetings and having 1to1s what a man will reveal to you. Especially as a younger woman. I always wondered how older men viewed me. I know, now, that I have something they want. In fact, something they need.
A guy in his late 40s hasn't fucked a pair of cheeks like mine. The old me would think that's incredibly cocky. It's just the truth. They can't get enough of girls with huge, good quality asses. The type of fillet mignon butts that their wives don't and will never have. They're ticking away on the age clock, you see, and me, well, you could argue I'm in my prime.
I was invited to go on a business trip with James. All I needed was one more little hint, and I was determined to make him mine. As if the looking at my ass, revealing a lack of sex in his marriage and issues around his wife's attitude wasn't enough. I needed final confirmation. I soon received it when James and I got to the check-in desk of the hotel.
"So, to confirm, you have a double room, on the 5th floor. Here is your card key and enj..." The hotel receptionist said, before being interrupted, "double room? It was twin I would have ordered, I'm 99% sure." James contested.
"It's fine. Those beds are huge anyway. C'mon, boss. Let's head upstairs." I said, smirking.
I made three people turn bright red in that instance. The receptionist, who struggled not to laugh, along with James and then even myself. I thought, fuck it, I won't see that receptionist again. And, besides, I now knew this was either an elaborate plan, or I'd just made the best of a situation spontaneously. I know, I'm a naughty fucking bitch.
As James and I went into the room, I embraced the luxury. We didn't have anything going on until the morning and he suggested heading out for food. I told him that I had everything I needed right here. I caught his eye, as he took his tie off. James looked at the floor, then at me, asking, "are you sure there's enough space here? We can look at a twin."
I envisioned myself looking like somebody out of a movie, as I sat on the edge of the bed, with my legs crossed, looking up at him. I pictured Margot Robbie in the Wolf of Wall Street. I looked into James' eyes and said, "this bed suits me absolutely fine, James."
James looked at me, then his wedding ring. I can't believe it, but I bravely pitched a gamechanger, as if I hadn't laid out my intentions already, saying, "take it off if it makes you feel better."
He moved closer to me and I didn't move or hesitate. Instead, I chose to offer him the final set of words that he needed to hear. I told James, "you can have me on one condition. You treat me like a disposable, naughty fucking slut. Your slut. And I will never tell a soul. Do we have a deal?"
James took a moment, comprehending if this was real. He immediately nodded and moved my hair out of the way. I arched my neck back, looking at him and non-verbally screamed, "fucking ch0k3 me, Daddy."
Taking the hint, he kissed me, gradually placing his hand closer towards my neck. I laid back on the bed with him side mounted on top of me. My hands were above my head, emitting true, submissive behaviour. I was his naughty girl, and now, my neck embraced a strong hand around it.