Author's Note: Thank you for your patience, my dedicated readers. This has been a particularly difficult chapter. I really wanted to get it right. It's also really long -- the longest in the Traffic Girl series to date. I hope you enjoy it. I hope you see the tensions and changes in the characters have become more clear, and those changes are something they grapple with all the time. It's part of the continuous evolution we all go through. And there's a lot of hot fucking.
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Homecoming had won six Oscars out of its ten nominations so far that glorious Sunday night in Los Angeles. But the final three were the ones that mattered most: best actress, best actor, and best picture. The girls and I, plus Melanie, were pacing back and forth, anxious to see the outcome. We wanted this for Juliet. We wanted it almost as badly as she did. And she wanted it more than anything else in the world. I poured us all Champagne, ready to make a celebratory toast. The night had gone so beautifully according to plan, we felt like Juliet's win was inevitable.
But Juliet didn't win. The best actress Oscar went to a four-time nominee who had been shamefully shut out in the past. So they were making it up to her this year. It was the classic Oscars story. When the camera flashed to Juliet after the announcement, her outward facial expression was one of graciousness, but I knew better. There was just that twinge of disappointment in her eyes.
She texted me shortly after that and seemed upbeat. She was young, had two high-quality movies coming out this year, and a couple more in the pipeline. There was no reason to expect this nomination was a one-off. But it always sucked to feel let down, even if you had your hopes up.
"The world is still my oyster," Juliet wrote. "See you at Vanity Fair."
Homecoming finished with eight Oscars -- taking home best actor honors for Stephen and winning best picture. The disappointment that Juliet didn't win wouldn't dim the night. Social media was already buzzing with the storyline that she had been robbed, that she was now among the best and most desired actresses in the world. There was simply too much upside for her to be down about it.
The upside for me was the parties we were about to go to. Vanity Fair promised to be a unique kind of shitshow. We'd be around a slew of the most famous people in the world. Juliet and Stephen had told us it would be a crowded mess but also a once-in-a-lifetime experience. So we braced ourselves for everything.
Our limo picked us up for the twenty-minute ride. It was manned by Stephen's personal driver, since he would get to the Wallis Annenberg Center in another car with Juliet and other central figures from Homecoming. The five of us passed around a vial of coke with a small spoon attached to the lid. The back of the limo was a chorus of quick, sharp snorts as an eight ball disappeared in record time. We were perfectly buzzed as we pulled up.
What having Stephen's chauffeur did for us was allow us to enter the party in the lesser-known VIP entrance, not having to wait up front for the throngs of red-carpet goers and people who had paid more than $100,000 per ticket. We got treated like movie stars.
It was a fucking badass experience. There was no other way to put it. No one recognized us, but by virtue of entering through the back door, as it were, we eased right into the hum of the party. The scene was electric -- and crowded. Too crowded, honestly, to really have a good time. But maybe it wasn't only the crowd causing that. Maybe it was the fact that everyone you bumped into probably was on someone's hall pass list. I wondered how we would ever find Juliet in the wall-to-wall crush of people.
We moved into the main area of the party, and it was pleasing and funny to see people stare at the girls. There were plenty of lecherous leers, which I was used to, but they were often coupled with a puzzled look, as if the onlookers were trying to figure out what famous person each was. Everyone assumed somebody was someone at the Vanity Fair party.
For thirty minutes, we ambled around, accepting glasses of Champagne as quickly as they could be brought and helping ourselves to the exquisite passed appetizers as they flowed past. We spoke very little, and after a few minutes, even the frequent expressions of surprise or tapping each other on the shoulder to see who was brushing past us didn't last more than a few minutes. There was that much action. There were that many famous faces.
Like salmon swimming upstream, we worked our way through the crowd as best we could. Eventually, we reached an area teeming with people, where it seemed the throngs reached their crescendo. And in the middle of it stood a radiant, beaming Juliet Lawson. Dior had outdone themselves with the dress. Even after the long ceremony, her hair and makeup were impeccable. She was a way better looking statue than Oscar. And in the middle of all the chaos, with everyone wanting just to get a glimpse of her, Juliet spotted me out of the corner of her eye. It was a brief moment, barely fleeting, but she caught me staring at her. Her gaze stopped, however briefly, and locked on me. She smiled, her electric, movie star smile. Just for me.
It was as if the world slowed down. Rita noticed it. So did Kat. They each slipped a hand into one of mine. Jess winked at me, while Melanie flashed a knowing smile.
Behind us, I heard a voice scream, "John!" I presumed it was for someone else, but then I felt a pair of hands on my shoulder and someone jump up behind me. It was Petey. He grabbed two glasses of Champagne -- both for himself -- as a waiter walked by, and we clinked glasses.
"My man! My man!" he shouted. "Did you see that? Did you see that?" He spoke in fast, staccato tones, wired on cocaine. At least cocaine.
"Didn't miss a minute, brother," I said as Petey and I embraced awkwardly because we were trying not to spill Champagne.
He leaned in and whispered to me.
"We are going to get fucking rich as fuck because of this," he said.
He smiled at the girls and hugged them, too. He pointed at me, still holding his double glasses.
"We've got a lot to talk about," he said. "But let's give it a few days. I'm going to be hungover as shit!"
I raised my glass to him, and somehow the throng had parted. There was a clear path between Juliet and me. We kept our composure but quickly closed in around her. It was a euphoric reunion, with hugs and shrieks all around. There were flashes and rustles of elegant fabric -- the girls had all dressed in Dior out of solidarity with Juliet -- and warm feelings and bodies all around. It was a brief interlude. The next wave of fawning well-wishers were coming for Juliet, along with photographers. We scrambled to untangle our impromptu huddle, but Juliet subtly tugged me close to her briefly.
"One hour," she whispered. "Meet us at the same door where you came in."
I nodded my understanding, and Juliet became engulfed again. The girls and I got scattered in the crowd. I scanned the room futilely but finally felt a warm hand in mine again. It was Rita.
"This is too much!" she said, a grin on her face. Our bodies pressed together in the tight quarters of the party. "I think I've seen four guys on my hall pass list."
We laughed, and I noticed a nervousness about Rita. She still got a little bit on edge about being around famous people. Kat had no such problems. She stood against a nearby wall and caught Rita's eye as we moved through the sea of people. A tall, devilishly handsome, and young man stood with one arm against the wall and stared down at her. I recognized him as the lothario star of a college dramedy that had taken a streaming platform and social media by storm. Kat said something to him, rolled her eyes, and then pushed her way over to us.
"Oh my god," she said. "That guy just said he always wanted to play with a cougar."
We laughed loudly, but the noise was swallowed up effortlessly by the din of the party. As the crowd swelled beyond comprehension, drinks and food became harder to come by. About fifteen minutes before we needed to depart, we spotted Jess and Melanie, who were chatting with one of the best supporting actor nominees and an exquisite blonde. Melanie introduced us to her, a model with whom she had done a couple shoots many years before, before their careers took divergent paths. Melanie settled down. Ellen was on the cusp of being a supermodel. She was dating an equally attractive actor. And both of them had easy, friendly personalities. Chatting with them was a perfect way to pass our final minutes at the assault on the senses that was the Vanity Fair party.