September 27, 2007, I sat in my therapist's midtown Manhattan office checking my text messages while waiting to start my session. I had been getting counseling for my sex addiction for several weeks now and it had been going great. I was upset that this was my final session with my therapist because I developed a crush on her. Recently, she started calling me by my nickname, Nature Boy.
Finally, Shardae walked in looking radiant in a black designer dress and high-heels. Her hair was honey-blonde and her body was voluptuous. No lie, she looked like R&B megastar Beyoncè. As she sat in her leather chair, she began to talk and I do not even hear the words coming out of her mouth because I was so mesmerized with her pretty face, perfect teeth and hazel eyes. Explicit and vivid images of Shardae and me having sex in this office rambled in my head.
"Oh, Nature Boy," she said, snapping me out of my daydream.
"I'm sorry, what did you ask me?" I replied.
"What do you want from a woman?" Shardae asked.
"Well, I'll say love," I answered. "Then I would have to say great sex."
Shardae laughed. "I think you should figure out what's in your heart and stay true to it."
"Doctor, I really don't know if I can," I admitted.
"Okay, what kind of woman is your type? And please don't give me any answer."
"Alright," I continued softly. "My type is a woman who's sexy, driven, and has a career. She is somebody who is one hundred percent loyal to me. Most importantly, she is a woman who I can tell anything to, regardless how boring the subject might be. She would just sit down next to me and listen. Also, let me cry when I need to. I believe that is my kind of woman."
"I finally get to see a more serious side of you," Shardae expressed. "I didn't think you had it in you to cut the foolishness."
"I hope you find this side of me sexy." I smiled. "So what's your type doctor?"
"This isn't about me, remember?" Shardae quickly answered. "I have to admit this is probably the best session we had. Too bad it's the last one."
"This was fun. Are you still going to be in the city?"
"No, I am going back to Beverly Hills. I want you to go home and think about what we discuss during the sessions, Nature Boy."
"I will," I promised.
While I was getting myself ready to leave, I sensed that Shardae was definitely feeling me. I was about to walk out the door when she got up and walked over to where I stood. Shardae stared for a moment, licking her soft lips. It seemed like we were about to kiss, but her secretary hollered her name on the speaker phone to inform her that she had an important call on line two.
We both smiled, and I left Shardae's office. As I drove my brand new white Porsche 911 Turbo Cabriolet back home, all I could think about was Shardae. I had 105.1 playing, Beyoncè's "Crazy In Love" came on, and I just stroked my dick a few times. I was surprised I did not masturbate right there on the dashboard. I could not seem to get the thought of having sex with my therapist out of my dirty mind. I really felt like running back to Shardae's office and have wild, passionate sex with her on the desk. God please help me control my hormones before I go crazy.
Later on that evening, Shardae showed up at me apartment clad in a nice denim outfit with a tank top underneath. She really looked nice! I stood there shirtless and felt myself developing a hard-on. I really was not expecting my therapist to be at my door.
"How are you, doc?" I greeted her with a kiss on the cheek.
"Hey," Shardae said. "I know it's getting late, but do you want to hangout before I leave?"
"Sure, why not, let's own the scene," I agreed. "It should be fun hanging out with a hot therapist in Manhattan!"
We went to a lounge in Chelsea, and we had a great time. Almost everybody in the place at first believed Shardae was Beyoncè. There were so many people with their camera phones out snapping pictures and whispering. For a moment, I felt like I was Jay-Z standing next to Shardae. We attracted so much attention that it was crazy! I already knew I was going to see some of those pictures on the Internet and TMZ. After having a quick drink, we hit the dance floor.