September 27, 2007, I sat in my therapist's midtown Manhattan office checking my text messages while waiting to start my session. I had been getting counseling for my sex addiction for several weeks now and it had been going great. I was upset that this was my final session with my therapist because I developed a crush on her. Recently, she started calling me by my nickname, Nature Boy.
Finally, Shardae walked in looking radiant in a black designer dress and high-heels. Her hair was honey-blonde and her body was voluptuous. No lie, she looked like R&B megastar Beyoncè. As she sat in her leather chair, she began to talk and I do not even hear the words coming out of her mouth because I was so mesmerized with her pretty face, perfect teeth and hazel eyes. Explicit and vivid images of Shardae and me having sex in this office rambled in my head.
"Oh, Nature Boy," she said, snapping me out of my daydream.
"I'm sorry, what did you ask me?" I replied.
"What do you want from a woman?" Shardae asked.
"Well, I'll say love," I answered. "Then I would have to say great sex."
Shardae laughed. "I think you should figure out what's in your heart and stay true to it."
"Doctor, I really don't know if I can," I admitted.
"Okay, what kind of woman is your type? And please don't give me any answer."
"Alright," I continued softly. "My type is a woman who's sexy, driven, and has a career. She is somebody who is one hundred percent loyal to me. Most importantly, she is a woman who I can tell anything to, regardless how boring the subject might be. She would just sit down next to me and listen. Also, let me cry when I need to. I believe that is my kind of woman."
"I finally get to see a more serious side of you," Shardae expressed. "I didn't think you had it in you to cut the foolishness."
"I hope you find this side of me sexy." I smiled. "So what's your type doctor?"
"This isn't about me, remember?" Shardae quickly answered. "I have to admit this is probably the best session we had. Too bad it's the last one."
"This was fun. Are you still going to be in the city?"
"No, I am going back to Beverly Hills. I want you to go home and think about what we discuss during the sessions, Nature Boy."