I sat there in utter shock as I watched her go into the house. Obviously, I drove home but I have no recollection of doing so. One thing became excruciating obvious: it is one thing to be told that your wife has been screwed by someone else and another to suddenly realize that she is planning to do so. The first is over and done with, a fait accompli, and beyond your control, so you deal with it. You blow up or you just accept it - but it's happened. In the second case, however, nothing has happened - yet! What do you do? Try and stop it? I could wait an hour or so and stop by the party, stay awhile and bring Sandy home. I'd done that before so it wouldn't surprise anyone except, of course, Sandy. How would she react, what would she think of me? Would that seem too possessive? After all my talk of not being jealous would that make me look silly and weak? Was I jealous?
Then, of course, did I want to stop it? I told her to have fun and enjoy herself. I had as much as told her that whatever she decided was ok with me. Maybe she just put her diaphragm in just to be on the safe side, not intending to do anything.
These questions and probably a hundred more jostled each other in my mind as I robotically drove home. Suddenly presented with a reality I just hadn't believed would come to pass, I just didn't know how to react, what to do. However, as I pulled into the garage and got out, I was shocked to discover that my body has involuntarily reacted for me - my cock was as stiff as a board! My mind was in turmoil, deciding what to do, but my subconscious had answered! I still didn't know if I wanted Sandy to be fucked again, but there was no question that I found the possibility to be exciting!
I really was startled, and, I'll admit, a little embarrassed, to find myself reacting that way, because it seemed a bit perverted to be aroused by another man having my wife. However, it was not as if the same thing hadn't happened before and that Sandy and I had both found the aftermath to be tremendously exciting. Hearing her describe, in detail, the things they had done had been rousing as we had enjoyed it together and the subsequent conversing and fantasying had energized us in the weeks since. So, maybe I was just rationalizing to get to where I wanted to be, but I finally admitted to myself that I was actually hoping that something would happen!
However, now that I had decided that I wanted Frank to bring Sandy back home, I was sure that it wouldn't happen. Maybe someone else will be the driver, maybe Frank wasn't even at the party, maybe he was a gentleman and had accepted Sandy's "never again" assertion, maybe...anything! As I sat there pretending to read, I was tense, looking at the clock with its hands that hardly seemed to move. Finally, about 12:30 I quit pretending to read and moved into the darkened study and began an interminable period of waiting for a car to turn into the drive.
The drive was curved so you couldn't see the road from the house except through the trees - large white pine trees that hid the house from passing traffic. The drive ended at the garage door and had a turn-around area for backing out. Right over the garage was the study-library-office, a large room that, as I said before, we had converted from a bedroom. A perfect vantage point for a depraved husband to wait for someone to bring his wife home.
It was weird, sitting there in the dark waiting for a car to turn into the drive. Occasional cars came down the road and I jumped each time, wondering if this was the one I was waiting for. I have never been in a situation remotely like that. I know that I wasn't thinking clearly - I was nervous, anxious, jumpy and conflicted. I knew if a car pulled in and Sandy got out after a moment or two of goodbyes I would be relieved, but disappointed and dissatisfied. On the other hand, if she stayed in the car and, certainly, was engaged in sex, I would be wildly aroused, but all the inchoate negative thoughts that were just below the surface would arise and assail me. I feared that I would gain and lose something either way.
Finally, after an excruciating 45 minutes and several false alarms, a car turned in and slowly came up the driveway. It stopped directly below me and set there, lights on for almost five minutes. I couldn't see into the car at all because of the glare from the headlights, but it seemed obvious that Sandy had received a ride home and was having a conversation with her driver friend, whoever it was. I almost left my observation post and headed for bed, but inertia held me in place a bit longer. Suddenly, to my real surprise by then, the car lights went out!
It took me a moment or so to realize what had happened and a bit longer for my eyes to adjust to the end of the headlight glare. When I finally focused on the windshield below me, I could see surprisingly well because of the security light overhead. It was quite bright, certainly sufficient to see the two people in the car. The angle was such that I couldn't see heads, but, from the neck down to the edge of the seat the car interior was fairly bright. What I saw immediately, was that Sandy was right in the middle and, from her position, I thought that she probably was being kissed. It certainly was clear that whatever reservation she had about being intimate with Frank again had been eliminated. Suddenly, she broke away and removed her coat and sat there in her sweater and skirt.
Driven by an intense curiosity, or prurient interest, I bolted from the study and hurtled downstairs to the kitchen where I grabbed a small pair of binoculars that we used for bird watching on our feeder. Hurrying back upstairs, I frantically focused on the action below. In the short time I was gone, they had changed position and Sandy was turned so that she was facing Frank - I couldn't see their heads, but the position was obvious. The binoculars brought the scene so close that I could see the heavy, twisted weave in Sandy's sweater as well as a man's hand around her back, holding her. I had a very weird feeling as I saw, for the first time with my own eyes, her in an intimate position with another man. Yes, I had heard and reacted to the detailed description of her adulterous relationship with Frank, but that was a story, this was reality!
It seemed that the kissing was prolonged, never going to end, but it probably was my own distorted sense of time - like in a movie wishing that they would "cut to the chase." At length, I saw that his hand which had been moving up and down her back had slipped under her sweater onto her skin. After a short time, she turned and sat up and reached for the bottom of her sweater and just pulled it up over her head and off and lay back across him with her tits completely exposed. They were not uncovered for long, however, as a hand began fondling and squeezing them.
I had the strangest reaction. Since then, I've read a number of stories of "wife watchers," and almost all of them were wildly excited. They usually describe seeing their wives engaged in sex with another man as causing them to have rigid cocks which would cum, almost involuntarily. I had none of that. For me, it was much like watching a porn film, arousing but, not explosively so. Oh, I knew that it was Sandy having her tits felt, but, somehow, I felt divorced from the action, an observer but not personally involved. I suspect that if I had masturbated as I watched I might have reacted more vigorously, but I was too fascinated by the show to do so. I was too busy watching, too busy recording everything in my mind.