I spoke with Ali for a few minute before I took off, making my way to my parents' house. It wasn't as bad as I pictured it. I don't know why, but what my mom said to me this morning did something.
I was able to hug my mom and dad goodbye and that was about it. It was a short visit, but I'm glad I went. I made it home, but I couldn't bring myself to pack anything. Everything in this house was left the same way it was, before Grayson died. It just didn't feel right to move anything or to even take any of it with me. Thinking about it now I probably should have moved a long time ago. I wanted to take a look around, one last time. I opened the door to his room for the first time since he died. I just stood in the doorway, taking notice of his toys on the floor at the foot of his bed and his favorite teddy bear on his pillow. I turned off the lights and made my way to the front door, taking nothing with me. I couldn't even pack an extra change of clothes. I grabbed the bottle of scotch off the table as I walked out and locked up. I sat a key under the rock next to the bushes in case anyone needed to get in.
I called a cab to take me to the airport Hilton; I figured I'd stay there, that way I wouldn't miss my flight nor would have to stay another night with all the memories.
I couldn't believe it, a tiny little thing like a change of scenery was all I needed. I was buzzed by the time I checked in at the front desk and pretty much drunk by the time I slid my key card through the slot. I opened the door to my room, and immediately closed it. I couldn't sit still. Too much anxiety, stress and whatever else was in my head. But not for the job, I was actually quite indifferent to it - almost excited.
I carried the bottle with me as I walked around the property, thinking of something to do. After wandering aimlessly for a bit, I headed back to the lobby and took a seat in one of the couches. Holy shit, these couches are actually comfortable. I took another guzzle or rum, realizing that I was quite past the point of drunk.
When intoxicated, my tactile sensitivity is increased and I notice whatever I touch in greater detail. "Oh my God," I said quietly, rubbing my hands on the surface of the couch. "This is amazing."
For some reason, I had never felt anything like this. "Oh God," I cried out again, this time louder, calling the attention of the clerk behind the counter.
Not sure what was happening, I let myself go and fully enjoyed the pleasure that this couch had to offer. Neurons and synapses firing like I've not felt before while sitting on a 'plain old' couch. Eerily familiar, however, to something I've been doing with different guys for the last six months.
What is happening? I closed my legs together tight and my body squirmed in place. Involuntarily I began rubbing as much of my body on the material as I could, my back, head, legs, arms and ass. A few minutes passed and I opened my eyes to find a family of five standing above me just a few feet away. But before I realized what was happening, I cried out one last time, "Oh God... Oh Fuck." I was almost on the verge of orgasm.
Before I could rip my clothes of and dry hump myself to completion, the father coughed purposefully, "Ahem..."
My eyes fully opened and I snapped back reality, taking notice of the jaws of a mother and three little girls hitting the floor, and one menaced looking father. The mother covered the girl's eyes and quickly rushed them toward the elevator, scoffing as they went, "Well... I never."
With their backs turned to me, I flipped them off. Knowing they couldn't say anything back to me once the elevator doors closed, I waited till they entered, and then yelled, "Can't a girl have a little privacy around here?"
The awkward moment passed as they did and I sat myself up straight. The clerk standing behind the counter stared at me with wide eyes and a creepy grin, resting his chin in his hands.
Well, that was new. I grabbed the bottle off the floor and took another drink and watched the front door slide open. A flight crew walking through after having just landed.
"Oh my..." I whispered, looking at the Pilot. I don't know if it was the suit and hat, the alcohol, or possibly that arousing molestation of a couch by a woman, but "Dam." I crossed my fingers that they would have more than a five hour layover. I let loose the top two buttons of my shirts as they walked through the lobby.
I watched him until his eyes wandered down to my sweater meat, taking that as my cue. "Hey guys, where you coming in from?" He stopped to talk to me while the other three, with him, walked on to the elevator. God, men are easy.
"Dallas, actually." He looked me up and down. "You?"
I uncrossed and crossed my legs, "headed to DC in the morning. Just crashing here so I don't miss my flight."
He took notice of the bottle in my hand, "you starting the party early tonight huh?"
I gave him a devilish smirk and giggled, not taking my eyes off his, "It's not a party till there's two people." I tilted my head from resting on my left shoulder to my right, never breaking eye contact.
The man chuckled and looked down at the floor, then back up at me. He lifted his left hand, brandishing his wedding ring, "Sorry but I'm..."
Like that's ever stopped me before. Men are dumb and horny. Of course those are the best two qualities I can think of at the moment.
I opened my eyes wide and pouted my lips, playing the situation up as best I could. "Oh okay, but if you change your mind, I'm gonna hop in the pool in a few minutes." I placed a hand on my thigh and started moving it up toward my crotch. "But I have to grab another bottle first." I was wearing him down.
Without saying a word, he smiled and nodded his head, and then walked away. He stepped in the elevator, but before the doors close I spoke loud enough for him to hear, "but I don't have a swimsuit, so I'll just have to use my panties." I smiled, knowing that I was fucking with his mind, but I didn't care. I was drunk, happy and all I wanted to do was fuck.
Confident that I would have company this evening, I made my way to the hotel gift shop to grabbed the biggest bottle of Crown they had. A young woman dressed in nothing but a pair of tight blue leggings and a sports bra holding up her large perky tits was searching the coolers for sports water.
"Flawless," I accidentally mumbled more than loud enough for her to hear.
"Excuse me?" She turned around abruptly, "What did you say?"
Oops. Speechless, I said the first thing that came to mind, "Uh... sorry, I... I was just looking at you breasts... Uh... no... I mean... I..."
"What?" She was growing angry.
Clearly I was only making matters worse but I had to try, "Look, I'm just saying, I'm not a lesbian or anything... but you're making me think twice about letting you feel me up." I looked her up and down and then winked at her and clicked with my mouth. Uh oh, Not good.
A look of terror appeared on her face as she gasped. The alcohol was slowing my reaction speed and before I knew it, she raised a hand and slapped me across the face. She turned and stormed away without her vitamin water.
I rubbed my cheek with my hand, trying to figure out what the hell just happened. As she left the gift shop I yelled, "What? I just meant you have nice melons." I shook my head and continued quietly, "ya crazy, cro-magnon bitch."
I walked up to the counter to find the girl laughing and tried her best to blurt out, "Oh my God, she slapped the shit out of you."
"Yeah, yeah, just ring it up there smiley." At least someone was enjoying my pain.
When she finally calmed down, the girl offered something to ease the embarrassment I may have felt. "I'm sorry for laughing. It's just been a while since I've seen a rejection like that." She finished with my purchase and added. "Plus, from what I'm looking at, it's her loss," as she bit her lip.
"Easy there skippy," I said as I began to walk away.
I may not have been gay, but that doesn't mean I have to rain on someone else's parade. I made it half way through the lobby when my conscious got the better of me. I turned around and poked my head around the corner of the shop to where she stood, "Hey, I'm gonna hop in the pool a little later, if ya wanna hang out?" I gave her a smile and a wink and looked her up and down, "By the way, you're not so bad yourself."
She blushed and smiled, "Okay, yeah. I get off in an hour."
"Me too, God willing," I accidentally said out loud again.
"What?" The girl blurted out, shocked but still smiling.
Not knowing what to say I just nodded and saluted as I disappeared once more.
I was a little distracted before and I just rushed past her. But now that I had a moment to look her up and down I realized she was actually pretty damn hot. She looked to be a few years younger than me, long brown hair, slender frame, large breasts and a flat tummy. She clearly worked out though, her arms were tone and she carried herself like someone who could handle herself in a fight.
As I walked back through the lobby, I thought about how stupid I must have looked. "Did you really just salute her?" I shook my head in disdain for my own actions, but was too drunk worry about it for more than a few seconds.
I cracked open the new bottle on my way to the pool and took a swig. It wasn't the busiest hotel in the world, but I should have been asked to stop drinking in public by at least one person. But if they weren't going to stop me I wasn't going to question why.