ENTRY 9
Hello Digital Diary. It has only been a few weeks since I last wrote you. I feel like there is a lot I have wanted to write in here the past few weeks. I have felt a lot of regret from what happened with Reggie. Every person I know would shun me if they knew what I did. But I guess that is just between you and me isn't it?
Tiffany loves me though. I told her I was willing to do what it took to become head cheerleader after she graduates. As a result of me showing her my dedication by fucking her boyfriend with her, two important bi-products came of that experience. One, as head cheerleader, she is holding to her promise to pave the way for me to meet and talk to all the influential people I need to help me on that mission. I even got a chance to talk to the cheerleading coach about my desires and she showed me a path to get it. It really has worked out wonderfully. Daniel says he is proud of me, which makes me feel terrible at hiding what I did to help it.
Additionally, Tiffany and I have become lovers of convenience. Apparently she is turned on by my body and loves kissing me. So any chance she gets she is always touching me and kissing me and trying to talk me into having sex with her. Aside from the threesome with her boyfriend, I consented one more time when we fucked at her house for a couple hours. She is sexy as hell. I don't consider that cheating as bad in my mind because it is with another chick. At least that is the story I am telling myself.
Three days ago after practice we were in the locker room getting cleaned up. All the other girls had left. She was not sitting next to me and attacking me like usual. Instead I had to go looking for her. As I came around the corner to the section of the locker room that connects to the coach's offices, I heard her voice. "Oh my god coach, you have the biggest cock I have ever seen."
I knew right away I should head back the other way and not be nosy. But my curiosity got the best of me. I slowly walked around the corner and saw her on her knees in front of the strength coach. I could see her head bobbing. She was obviously sucking his cock. A bunch of thoughts flew through my head like 'she already has a boyfriend with a huge cock' and 'how inappropriate for the coach to be taking advantage of her like that.'
I felt like I needed to get out of there before they saw me. So I gathered my things and bolted. The next day I was on the field for our training session. Both of us were there early to get extra work in. I was next to the bench stretching when she came over and sat next to me. She said, "I am sorry that I did not hang out with you after practice yesterday. I had something to do."
I don't know why I said it. I guess I was lucky no one else was close enough to us to hear. But I blurted out, "I know. I saw you giving a blowjob to coach Jacobs."
Her face got a little red and she looked around to see if anyone else was close enough to overhear us. Then she said, "So what. I needed to."
"Why would you need to?" I asked.
She replied, "He was instrumental in me getting the head cheerleader position."
"How was he instrumental? He is a strength coach."
"I guess you don't know that he is also the younger brother of coach Jenkins, our head coach. You know the one that makes the decision on who is the head cheerleader?"
"I see. So you suck his cock and he puts in a good word for you?"
"In not so many words yes. Coach Jenkins does not listen to very many people's opinions about her team. But her brother is one of them."
"Soooooo. Why were you in there sucking his cock yesterday? You are already the head cheerleader."
"Now I just do it for fun."
Just then a couple of our teammates came over and joined us in stretching. Soon after the training session started. After training, she came up to me in the locker room and said, "I think you should go see coach Jacobs. He will be in there after practice tomorrow."
"And what... suck his dick? I have a boyfriend Tiffany."
"So what. It is just a blowjob. You're not marrying him. Listen, he is a very blunt straightforward type person. You go in, introduce yourself, and tell him that you want to be head cheerleader, and that you would appreciate if he would put in a good word for you with coach Jenkins."
I just looked at her in disbelief. I did not know what to say. She filled the empty space, "You want to be head cheerleader right?"
I nodded. She continued, "You told me you were going to do what it takes right?"
I nodded. She continued, "You have been training with me constantly. You have been training with the other teams. You have been meeting people and have been invited into the senior parties. You even got an audience with the coach. You are so close."
I sat and thought about it. We did not speak for the next few minutes. Finally she sat right next to me and pulled me into her and we kissed. Then she looked at me and said, "Think about it. We can talk about it tomorrow."
I thought about it all day. I'll save you the back and forth digital diary. But needless to say I spent most of the time trying to figure out how to justify it.
The next morning I was still on the fence. I went through my school day and eventually it was time for practice. I met with Tiffany early like usual to get extra work in. As expected she asked me what I was going to do. I told her I did not know, that I wanted to be head cheerleader very badly, but did not want to cheat on my boyfriend.
Her final justification was this, "You will have lots of opportunities in your life. And if you have a chance to do a one-time sacrifice to accelerate your progress or to raise your chances of being successful shouldn't you do it? Especially if it is almost completely harmless?"
I did not respond. If I was honest with myself, I think I would. If it was really a harmless one time act then why not? I asked her why I should consider giving a coach a blowjob as harmless, especially when I have a boyfriend.
She responded, "Because your boyfriend will never find out. All he will see is that you worked hard and became head cheerleader. He doesn't need to know how the cake is made. He just sees that it looks good and tastes good."
"We can't guarantee that he won't find out."
"Who is going to tell him? Does your boyfriend know that you fucked Reggie?"
"Of course not!"
"Does your boyfriend know any of the stuff that you and I have done?"
"No!"
"And he won't know about coach Jacobs either."
Part of me felt like a slut. It became abundantly clear to me at that moment that I had cheated on Daniel with so many people -- Chet, his brother, his friend, Megan, Reggie, Tiffany. And Tiffany is telling me that I needed to do it again.
I asked her if I could still become head cheerleader without cheating on Daniel. Her response was, "You can. But there is a lot of competition for the spot. And I cannot tell you how important relationships and certain people's impression of you are in the selection process. And I will tell you from experience, that the other girls are going to be busting their asses and won't be passing up on opportunities for an advantage."
Then she got up and told me to think about how bad I wanted to be head cheerleader and walked away.
We went through our workout in silence. Then the rest of the team showed up and we went through our practice. Then everyone vanished. I sat in the locker room by myself. I contemplated my decision. I'll save you from the back and forth in my head digital diary. I will say that I finally made my decision. I put my stuff in my locker and walked toward the coach's offices. My heart started beating faster the closer I got. When I rounded the corner and saw coach Jacobs' dim light on I stopped. I took several deep breaths and remembered Tiffany's dialogue. One step in front of the other I went. I walked into his doorway and tapped on his door lightly. He looked up from his computer and said hello.
I walked into his office several steps, "Hi. My name is Candace."
"I know who you are."