ONE: The Convent of the Sisters of Blessed Charity
Sister Dominique was preparing for her morning prayers. The devout young woman always found prayer an intense experience, often losing herself in the joy of giving herself to God. But occasionally, on days when she was especially blessed, it became something even greater.
When she came to prayer this morning she had had a feeling that this might be one of those days. It had been several weeks since the last time she had been transported into what she thought of as 'her ecstasy'. If God wanted her to have the experience today he would let her know. It was sinful to wish for it, selfish and prideful. She would seek forgiveness for such thoughts at confession.
Anne-Marie de Beaulieux had come to the Sisters of Blessed Charity from her home in the south of France. Her family was wealthy and had noble roots, but Anne-Marie had had the misfortune to be born the youngest of one son and four girls. As a result the prospects for Anne-Marie to marry well were close to nil, in spite of the fact that she was a very pretty girl, with jet-black hair and deep blue eyes. With most of the land going to her brother, the family fortune would be stretched extremely thin to provide two, or maybe three, dowries. There was simply nothing left for Anne-Marie. The best thing for her, and for her family honor, was to enter the Sisterhood and give her life to the Church.
At an early age Anne-Marie was sent to the Sisters of Blessed Charity, where she was raised and educated by the nuns. In addition to her native French, she was taught proficiency in Spanish and English. Everyone knew that she was going to be a nun herself, and when she finally achieved this honor, and the name Sister Dominique, Mother Superior told her that she had been selected to travel to the New World to join the mission in Panama. Only nineteen years old, Sister Dominique was a bit frightened at the prospect of going to the unknown lands across the ocean, but she was obedient and was grateful for the opportunity to serve God and the Church.
When she knelt on the chapel floor, the young nun arranged her robe so that her bare knees were in contact with the hard, cold stone. She avoided any comfort, even the slight cushion that her robe would provide as she moved smoothly through the rosary, then on to her special prayers.
As she prayed, Sister Dominique began to concentrate on her favorite subject, the suffering of martyrs. She knew that God chose only the most deserving for the divine glory of ultimate personal sacrifice, but she hoped that the circumstances that had led her to a life in the Church indicated that she was on the right path. She prayed that the Lord would some day select her for that honor, though she sometimes despaired of the hope, and feared that it might be denied to her because she had the effrontery to want it.
She asked that if the Lord, in His infinite wisdom, could find some special use for her, anything at all, that He would allow her the chance to serve Him. She knew that she was undeserving, that there were others, even in this convent, far more worthy than she was. But she was ready now. No suffering was too great; she would endure anything for her faith and asked only to be given the opportunity to demonstrate it.
As sometimes happened at this point in her prayers, the young nun's thoughts began to drift toward scenes of martyrdom. In these reveries she saw herself chosen to make the ultimate sacrifice, enduring unimaginable suffering, so that she could demonstrate her faith and so that others could be saved. She kept several such scenes in her memories to which she would return often, adding more details each time.
In her favorite fantasy she imagined that she lived in a village where she helped the sick. One day a band of outlaws rode in to plunder the village and to slaughter anyone who stood in their way. In the central square the bandits erected stakes to which they bound a dozen helpless villagers, young men and woman. Some of the women were mothers with small children, and the men were fathers with families to support and protect. The leader of the outlaws announced that he would torture and kill the captives unless the village turned over all their food and anything of value to the raiders. The helpless people quickly complied; bringing several wagons filled with sacks of grain, smoked hams and dried sausages. On top were a few meager items made of silver and a small bag containing whatever coins they could gather.
"Is this all?" demanded the bandit chief.
"Please, sir, this is all we have. We are a poor village, we beg you to have pity," pleaded the town elder.
"What about that church?" the villain said, pointing to their pathetic little chapel. "What's in there?" He knew that such impoverished settlements often placed whatever wealth they possessed in the church.
"Please, sir. That is our house of worship, the Lord's house," begged the old man. "What is in there belongs to God."
The chief drew his sword and placed the point at the throat of one of the bound young women. Dominique recognized her and remembered that she had an infant child.
"I will run my blade through this girl's throat if you do not bring me whatever is in that church by the time I count to ten," he said calmly.
To emphasize the seriousness of his words he prodded the girl's pale flesh with the tip of his sword, causing the villagers to gasp and cry out as a trickle of blood ran down her neck. If her husband hadn't also been bound to a stake he would have rushed forward and undoubtedly would have gotten himself killed.
"One...Two...Three..." he counted as two people ran into the tiny chapel.
Before he got to 'seven' they emerged carrying the poor box and a large silver crucifix. They placed the box on the ground by his feet, and rested the crucifix on top.
"Well, not much better," he grumbled. "You were going to hide this from me, were you?"
"Please, Excellency, we did not think you would want the crucifix," said the old man.
"Why not, fool? Do you imagine that I give a dog's carcass for your filthy church?"
The old man stood there helpless, not sure what the angry bandit might do next.
"This is still a miserable offering. It's not enough, and you need to be taught a lesson about lying to me."
"Please, sir, we did not intend to deceive. It was an honest mistake."
"Silence, insect!" barked the fearsome outlaw. "We will take this pile of shit, but we will also take this woman," he said, pointing to the young mother with his sword.
"No, please, I beg you in the name of the Blessed Virgin, spare her!"