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Guardian Program Ch. 30
A novel by R.C.PeterGabriel, all rights reserved.
Slightly over an hour later, several members of the yacht club greeted us by cursing at our pilot before we even reached the dock. It was obvious they wanted him to slow down because we were in a no-wake zone, but he only did so to a small degree.
He was forced to throw the boat into a hard reverse to keep from plowing into the dock, but he expertly swung our stern around and stopped port side to the dock, with only the slightest kiss on the bumpers.
Sam jumped onto the dock without any difficulty, so I followed her with the bag. dropping our life vests on the dock, we ran to our waiting cab, all the while listening to the yacht club members shouting at the pilot.
I had Hal run through the pre-flight while we rode to the airport, so the plane was ready for takeoff the moment we stepped on board. When we arrived, I slapped the control to retract the stairs and ordered Hal to begin taxiing for takeoff before the hatch was sealed.
Sam and I headed for the lounge, where I could access a view screen, while Hal flew the plane. I sat down only to realize I was trembling uncontrollably. I was beyond terrified with worry for Toni and Jessie, and my body was running on adrenalin overload.
"Make us a shake, please." I requested, then noticed that she too was trembling but only slightly. It could be the adrenalin for her also, but the expression on her face told me that she was as worried as I was, so I retracted my request. "Never mind, just sit."
I got back up and stepped over to the galley, while Sam sat down. She stared off into space for several moments, before pulling her feet up into the seat and hugging her legs. She shifted her eyes to me and tried to give me a brave face, but her exhaustion, and fear leaked through.
I mixed the shakes while I tried to think, but I just couldn't concentrate. As I was rinsing the mixer the plane made a tight port side turn with the engines spooling up, and I knew we were about to take off, so I quickly secured the mixer body back on the stand, grabbed the shakes, and rushed for my seat.
I managed to get within a giant step of my seat when the acceleration kicked in. My feet in contact with the plane floor decided to move forward as the rest of me continued aft. I found myself in a headlong dive into the bunk room with both hands full.
As Sam screamed, I thanked God that the door was open. I landed hard on my chest about halfway through and had the wind knocked out of me. I did manage not to dump more than about a quarter of one of the shakes. But that was only because the contents shot straight up out of the glass and when it came back down the glass was no longer under it.
I was fine but Sam didn't know that, and I was afraid she would get up to try and help me. In an attempt to make sure she stayed put, I tried to say just that, but it came out as a gasp, as I attempted to re-inflate my lungs.
Knowing my gasp would be misinterpreted, I mouthed for Hal to tell Sam to stay seated. Sam was uncurling from her seat when using the cabin speakers, he said, "Samantha Smith remain seated."
"Robert, are you okay?" she asked desperately.
She had to repeat the question before I was able to respond. "I'm fine," I gasped, as I started to climb to my feet, which was a little awkward because I was now facing downhill. "Just got the wind knocked out of me."
I walked uphill to where Sam was seated and handed her the shakes. "Drink one. I'll be right back." I returned to the bunk room and got a towel out of the dresser. I used it to clean up the spill, then took it to the galley and left it with the service linen.
Returning to my seat, I took the offered shake and we drank in silence for several minutes. "You scared me to death. Are you sure you're okay?" Sam asked with concern in her voice.
I gave her the best smile I could muster, and reassured her, "I'm sure. I didn't mean to scare you."
She studied me for a moment, then began to shrink me, "Robert, you move like a dancer, all power and grace. When we boarded, you were trembling, and then you fell, it more than scared me. I've only seen you like that one other time when you thought I was leaving you."
I wasn't sure what to say to that, so I waited to see where she was going with what she said.
After studying me a few moments longer, she continued. "I know that a lot of your reactions are physiological responses to the stress. And you of all people, are under a huge amount of pressure, with all of the corporations you run, and the Guardian Program, not to mention our current situation. You deserve to be reacting. I would be even more worried if you weren't having one.
"However, I think you're on the road to a complete breakdown. You need to slow down and think this through. Try not to have any emotions color your responses. If you do, your emotions will snowball, until you either have a psychotic break or you start killing people using Hal ... or both.
"Neither situation is healthy for any of us."
I gazed into the most beautiful eyes I could ever imagine and tried to burn the image into my being. "I told you on the boat that I needed you to help me hold it together. Please stay close and keep me from ... doing anything I will regret. I feel like half of me is missing ..."
I reached out for Sam's hand and when we touched I felt part of myself return, but I knew a big chunk was still missing.
I finished my shake and handed the glass to Sam, then sat on the deck, closed my eyes, and started doing some deep breathing exercises. After about ten minutes, I felt much calmer and opened my eyes. I'm sure part of it was meditation, the other was Hal rebalancing my endocrine system.
Sam had returned the glasses to the galley and was sitting very close looking at me. She smiled when I opened my eyes. "Better?" She asked.
"Somewhat. At least, I think I can concentrate now."
When we stood Sam asked, "May I kiss you?"