Chapter 2 of Brides of War
The underground facility had self-detonated an hour ago and ever since we had been moving northward once more. There was a knock at my cabin door.
"Come in." I called out.
The door opened and an attractive woman in her early 40s stepped in. Standing up I addressed her, "Dr. Susan Albright I believe it is?"
She smiled and quickly nodded. I indicated a chair and she sat down.
I'd only seen her a handful of times as she'd been transferred to the ship at virtually the last moment before we'd taken flight ahead of the chaos of a few days ago. Still, it was no excuse for not having had a consultation with my chief medical officer until now.
I was glad she'd come, even though I'd been about to crash and get a few hours of sleep. I could see that while she was possessed of a very bright and positive disposition that her own face had the symptoms of the same haggard weariness that I felt hounding myself.
Empathetically I reached out my hand and squeezed hers briefly as I said, "I can only imagine how stressful, it's been for you and your staff having to not only deal with your own emotions of loss, but seeing to the needs of all the crew that have been coming to you for help."
She nodded her head emotionally and a few tears slipped down from her eyes, but she wiped at them quickly and said, "Yes, it's been hard but we've been managing."
I nodded, liking the woman more and more. She had steel in her and a part of me relaxed in the knowledge of what capable hands my crew was in when it came to medical matters.
"What is it that I can do for you? Do you need more staff assigned to you, and oh by the way I appreciate greatly that you've been refusing to hand out opioids or anything like that which could affect the ability of the crew to do their jobs."
Softly she said, "We're at war. We can't have everyone high as a kite now can we. That said, I do well understand the need to escape the reality that we all find ourselves in. We are literally it. There are no more of us. There is no place to go home to. As hard as that reality is we all have to face it head on and deal with it and to that end Sir, I just want to say that you have my full allegiance and I appreciate so much how you given everyone hope along with a mission of sorts. A mission to survive. A hope of a future. I.... this crew couldn't ask for a finer leader."
I looked down at my clasped hands on the desk. Maybe it was wrong to share my emotions, but I spoke anyway, "I am not unaffected by everything. I'm barely hanging on. The only thing keeping me together is the responsibility to keep this crew alive. To be honest our chances of survival are one in a million, maybe even worse odds than that, I simply don't know. The crew may have hope, but I.... I really don't have much. I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you Doctor, but......"
Her hand squeezed warmly down upon mine this time. I looked up.
Her gaze was intense, "First off its Susan, for you to use when we're in private and I want you to know that if you need to talk about anything I am always here for you. I can well see the back breaking pressure that you are under."
Somehow her words and touch were offering me comfort and I latched on to them as if I was a drowning man.
"Captain Lee..."
"Morgan." I interjected softly.
"Morgan, we will survive. God has not spared us this far to abandon us now."
"I have my doubts about that." I confessed.
"Well, I do not."
I nodded, letting the woman's strong faith bolster my own as I went through a weak moment.
"Now Morgan I think your plan is a good one. I too agree that while justice is needed, we simply have to find a place of sanctuary first and regroup and go on as a people."
I nodded, being encouraged by her support, but her next words shocked me, "However, there is a problem with your plan."
Her face had blushed a little and hanging on her every word as I waited to see how I may have miscalculated the future I waited to see what she would point out.
"Are you aware of the disparity of men to women on board this ship."
I blinked. It was rather large come to think of it, but in truth, I hadn't really given it much thought.
"There's more men I know that."