Chapter 04
A secret is revealed
------------------ Jackson -------------------
It was almost 3 pm when we were done eating breakfast. Orkideh's plane was at 6:45 and mine was at 7 pm. We joked and laughed to keep from letting the emotion of our pending good-bye overtake us.
We decided to take a walk and go out to get some sunshine on our faces. From our window in the hotel we could see that it was a beautiful autumn day. We dressed quickly and headed out, anticipating that we would have time to come back, share a bit more intimacy and clean up before it was time to go. We stopped at the front desk and asked where we should go. The concierge explained that there was a nice park not far from the hotel and pointed us in the right direction out the back entrance.
We started out from the Hampton Inn, walking down Conduit Ave toward 150th street. While we walked, even with all of our laughing, Orkideh seemed nervous and continuously looked over her shoulder. It was as if she expected that someone may be following us. I had not forgotten about our experience the previous night, jumping out of the cab and running nervously into the CVS.
I asked Orkideh about her nervousness while we walked and she started telling me about the role she played in the Green Movement, beginning with the "where is my vote?!" mantra that erupted after the incumbent president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad stole the 2009 presidential election from the reformist Mir Hossein Mousavi.
"I was living in London then and I kept a blog where I continuously posted updates and articles about the corruption of Ahmadinejad and the Supreme Leader, and the people they had murdered to suppress our movement," she explained.
"I tried to do it anonymously but somehow the Iranian authorities found out. This got me in a lot of trouble and put my family still living in Tehran at risk. They put me on a list of 'people to be silenced.'"
"But how would the guy in the cab have recognized you?" I inquired. It just didn't add up to me.
"I don't think he recognized me as a dissident, Jackson. I think he was a religious hardliner who saw an unmarried woman without the proper modest clothing on, out on a late night date and he jumped to assumptions. I think he also guessed from my accent what part of Iran I was from and that I may be from an upper-class family."
"How would he be able to tell how much money your family has?" I asked, confused. "We didn't talk about anything having to do with class."
"Poor people generally do not make it out of Iran," she answered simply.
"Ok, but why would all that matter over here?" I pressed further.
"There are financial rewards for turning people in, and if he were to figure out who I am he could try to bribe my parents in exchange for not turning me in," she explained, looking down nervously.
"But Orkideh, I still don't understand how he could possibly figure out who you are?"
"There was a camera in his cab -- many New York taxis have them mounted behind the glass on the driver's side these days. I think when he started messing with his little computer that he was taking my picture. I may just be paranoid but I had someone following me while I was in Malaysia and it really spooked me! I can't be sure but something about the look in his eyes told me that he really wasn't happy to see me out with you." She said the last part quietly, the implications clear but left unstated. I felt an old, familiar pang in my chest.
We turned left on 150th and walked up to Rockaway Blvd., where we ran into Baisley Pond Park. We walked in silence for a little while, both obviously deep in thought. She held my hand nervously. I couldn't tell if it was further nervousness about being spotted by someone like our cab driver from the night before or from taking our affair out into the public streets.
We had both been to New York before but neither one of us had heard of, or ever been to this park. We found an entrance on the east end of the park and quickly stumbled upon a sizeable pond with a nice walking trail around it. There were a number of migrating ducks and geese swimming around which made for a really romantic stroll. We walked around until we found a nice secluded bench tucked away under a group of oak trees. For the longest time we just sat and held each other, telling the odd story about our childhoods.
Eventually a strong hunger grew in me and I tried to seek out her lips, missing their taste and their feel against my own. I could feel her body tense up as my lips claimed hers and as my tongue sought entrance past her teeth. It became clear to me that Orkideh seemed real uncomfortable about excessive PDA.
I teasingly asked her why, given how secluded we were. It wasn't just about her fear of being seen, she explained, but about a lifetime of growing up under such intense scrutiny. "Even married couples don't really kiss in public. A young woman would never allow her boyfriend to kiss her like this where anyone could see." I held her close as I tried to imagine growing up in such conditions.
"It's silly for me to still be so scared," she continued, nuzzling into my neck. "It's just that I have grown used to needing to hide my true self from ever being revealed. The events of late have not done anything to ease those old fears, even six thousand miles away from home. It's something I have been trying to work on with Brian, my fiancΓ©."
I bristled at the mention of her betrothed and she could feel it. It was if she had violated our little fantasy bubble by mentioning his name, and she knew it from the way my muscles tensed beneath my skin. "Sorry," she said softly into my neck, giving me a brief kiss just under my chin.
I don't know why it struck me so hard in that moment. There had already been a number of instances when he had been mentioned and I had acted quite maturely. Maybe it was the fact that it was so close to when we were going to say goodbye. Maybe I was having trouble accepting the advice I had given her the night before, about letting this day be separated from the rest of our lives as one moment in time.
I rose to my feet, pulling her along. I suddenly had an irresistible urge to get her back to our hotel and put her body through some serious convulsions. In reflection, I guess you can say my primal instincts kicked in at the mention of Brian's name. I wanted to remind her in a raw, almost violent way that for that day she was mine and mine alone. I resolved to put her on that plane back to Boston with a sore pussy full of my cum, and she could sense it by the look of determination on my face. She walked briskly along side of me, clinging to my arm, in total acceptance of her fate.