The moon is full and lights up the fields at the back of the house, I stand at the back door looking out towards the river listening to the sounds of the animals and the birds as they hunt. It is a mild evening, occasionally clouds pass across the face of the moon and in those moments the sky darkens briefly. It is late October and I so love this time of year.
As I sit back down at the kitchen table to write I listen to the silence of the house. I am the only one up and it will likely stay that way until well past dawn by which time I should hopefully have finished a few more chapters and can then get some sleep.
I haven't always been such a night owl. When we lived in the city I was able to work during the day and sleep well at night which meant that Mark, my husband, and I had a normal, if boring, sex life. But since we moved to the country I have more and more been drawn to the night and find that now I can only really write when all I have are the night noises to keep me company.
We still fuck, except that was what we do, we fuck, often like rabbits. Without the added intimacy of sleeping together our sex has changed. Not necessarily for the worse though, it is just different. We have instinctively made up for the change by being a bit more adventurous. In fact I can still feel the imprint of Mark's cock inside me as I sit here writing this at the same table where I had been bent over as he pounded me hard from behind, my tits pressed against the table cloth.
He had surprised me then, as he stuck his cock in deep and I arched my back to take all of him he had grabbed my hair and held onto to it pulling my head back. That was not the surprise though, we had long ago realised that I preferred the shulachitaka and liked a little pain with my pleasure, the surprise was his question as he pulled himself almost all the way out. He stayed still for a while, his cock head still inside me as he teased and he said:
"You need a cock in your mouth right now, a long hard cock filling your mouth as I fuck your pussy, perhaps I should fuck your hot brown ass too."
This was a surprise for three reasons, firstly Mark was not really one for talking dirty, secondly neither of us were particularly keen on anal but lastly, and most significantly from my point of view, was that this was the first time there had ever been any suggestion of anyone else joining us.
It's not that I hadn't fantasised about it once or twice and I did have some experience many years ago before I met Mark but not since. In fact, if truth were told, I had watched the two tree surgeons from the village working in our garden last week with less than honourable intent imagining as I was having one at either end of me pretty much in the way Mark had suggested.
We have been here for almost a year now moving in just before Christmas and I think the villagers are getting used to having some colour around, me being pretty much the only brown person in the County as far as I can tell. I suspect I'm exaggerating but that's how it feels sometimes.
My mind keeps going back to Mark's comment and the more I think about it the more out of character it seems which is disappointing because the idea is so attractive and the more I think about it the hornier I get. I am distracted so I can't work now so I walk over to the sink and look out of the window into the night.
It's a lot quieter than earlier, the animals must all be back in their dens or nests or whatever and I wonder if that's because the moon is lost behind clouds which has made it a lot darker. All I can hear is the tinkle of the water over the rocks at the river across the field and all I can see is that single faint light amongst the trees. Which, thinking about it, should not be there.
So I start imagining who it is, firstly the mundane: it's a villager out night-fishing or local children camping out in the autumn night. Then my imagination moves up a gear and the villager becomes a poacher and the children become a local couple finding somewhere quiet for a lovers tryst.
Then my thoughts get a little wilder and I start to think that it's samhain in a day or two so maybe its a local skyclad wiccan preparing their rituals or that the woods at the end of our fields are a local dogging site. I laugh to myself as I realise that this little light a hundred or so yards away has now become evidence of naked bodies frolicking away.
I keep looking and notice that the light has moved, it looks nearer and it flickers so it must be a candle, which seems odd. Or they might have just gone behind some bushes, or it's a trick of the light, or it's my imagination but it doesn't matter anymore because it's gone now. I watch for a little more before going back to the table to try again.
My book is about the impact of the MeToo movement on policing in the UK so sadly my meandering thoughts involving witches and rutting bodies don't help so I save my work and head on over to Twitter for 'research'. I know it's not proper research in an academic sense but I'm not in the mood for that right now. I'm still a little horny and the thoughts of the whole village gathered in the woods nearby fucking each other's brains out hasn't helped.
So I scrap Twitter too and start checking out some of the dirtier corners of the internet. I'm not too sure what has come over me lately but more and more I find myself drawn to videos of older white men fucking younger brown women. That should not come as too much of a surprise as that describes Mark and I to a T, Mark being the wrong side of 50 and I'm not 30 for another 2 years. What is strange though is how recently I have found myself watching these videos. I've never been much into porn but over the last few weeks it seems as if something has just clicked inside me.
The problem I have is that they are usually so unrealistic, the men are usually way too buff with huge cocks and the power dynamics are wrong, the women are too submissive, when the reality is that most cocks are no bigger than 5 or 6 inches and most brown women I know love to take control. It's certainly not unusual for me to pin Mark down as I ride him to oblivion, which gets me thinking as to how that's exactly what I want to do right now.