Out in the garden is a neglected corner with an old pagoda and a little fish pond. None of the servants ever follow Amelia here. This feast of all souls the shroud is so threadbare in this secluded spot that the blurred outline of spirits can be seen passing by.
"I wonder if any of them really are to blame." Amelia says softly. "They hurt themselves just as badly as they hurt each other."
The freezing rain drizzles steadily onto the black pond water, the gentle hiss punctuated by the sharp drip of water from the climbing roses onto a little tin watering can. The frost is thick on the ground.
"Felix." she sighs. "I know you can hear me perfectly well."
Her body is as cold as the love seat it rests upon. Just like that awful night almost five years ago, she's drenched to the bone. Dawn is many hours away.
"Even Eleanor. How can I blame her? Her mind must be a tangled mess from all your scheming. And Paracida's. And this mysterious Tythos. She's as helpless as I am, isn't she?"
"You don't say?" Felix says at last.
"What happened that night? What did they get up to between Eleanor's room and the courtroom? It's a blank, I feel sick whenever I..."
"Look kid. Don't do this to yourself."
"Don't be silly Felix." She smiles and brushes away the vitae from her eye. "This is all I have left of her."
"It was her choice. She knew the price."
"Will you ever tell me what really happened?" Amelia asks. Her grief leaves her hollow tonight. Not even anger at his cruel words breaks the ice on her heart. "Beyond the shroud I mean?" Amelia presses her eyes shut tight and the image that will never leave her is there. Necromancy is about control, purity of mind. There is no hope that Meryem pulled off her ritual in that frenzied state.
"It's not the way she would have chosen to go, I'll grant you that." He sniggers. "But you're wrong, kid. Dead wrong. When you're allowed back to open court, swallow your pride. Make an apology to Anastasia, watch the warlock bitch's face as you kiss her hand. Trust Felix."
*
Trust Felix. As sires go, he's not the worst. Meryem was right about everything. Amelia finds solace in that. Eleanor's tutelage is thorough and the elder always treats her fairly. The only sticking point is Amelia's distaste for combat training. Though she attends monthly lessons as ordered, she makes no progress at all, and it doesn't escape Eleanor's notice.
"Regretfully, I'm not so enamored of this existence that I'd do anyone a mischief simply to defend myself." she explains to Eleanor.
The elder is amused
"You care so little for those that rely on you for protection?"
"Not so." Amelia insists. "Do I not excel at the disciplines of presence and dominate? I defend my interests well enough."
"No childe under my tutelage will leave it without a basic grounding in the martial arts. If you refuse my instruction, you will endure the consequences. Do we understand one another?"
"What good was strength to Meryem?" Amelia retorts. "There will always be someone stronger..."
"Enough." Eleanor says cooly. "There are limits to my patience. I do not expect you to rival those whose martial prowess defines them, but this is pathetic." The elder makes a two fingered jab at Amelia's shoulder with barely any force behind it and sends her sprawling onto her back. "Even that pampered fool Leopoldine could overpower you. Get up."
Amelia scrambles to her feet and dusts herself down. Nothing is bruised but her pride. She tries a different tack.
"Madame Eleanor, I will of course endure whatever pleases you, but my heart isn't in this at all."
"You think it pleases me to waste my time?" Eleanor scoffs. "You will learn to defend yourself. It is merely this tedious method that does not suit. You were never one for lessons and tutors."
*
The first time Amelia encounters Eleanor's new "method" she is on an errand to the library. On the long narrow passageway between the clan meeting room and the stairs to a deeper level, she can feel eyes on her. She turns and barely has time to register the club swinging at her face. In uncanny silence broken only by her own shriek of terror, four large figures converge on her.
A heavy knee falls onto her chest, pinning her shoulders down and knocking the air out of her. Cruel booted feet grind her hands into the dirt and only fortitude preserves the little bones. Blows rain down from all angles, cracking into her head and shins with punishing force. And then, as quickly as they descend on her, they flee. Their footsteps fade into distant laughter. She lies in the dark for a long moment before she dares rise up.
She is badly shaken on her return home, and Sylvie makes a fuss of her.
There's no doubt Eleanor arranged the assault. It happens again three days later, but this time Amelia is ready for it. She drops immediately to the ground and balls herself up against the rain of fists and nightsticks. They tear her clothes this time and spit on her as they leave.
"Please just do as she asks." Sylvie pleads as she patches Amelia's clothes together. "It will only get worse."
As much as she reassures Sylvie that Eleanor is merely teaching caution the best way she can, Amelia is fearful. The beast is difficult to control when it's surprised and Amelia has no wish to kill or maim servants that are simply following orders.
Felix has been away for weeks now. If he were here, Amelia would certainly ask him to put a stop to these dangerous lessons. He's out of reach again. Amelia's dreams become fitful with worry. At times it's like being buried under the cobwebs, cocooned in silk, with tiny little hands pulling at her, threatening to unravel the walls and leave her screaming in sunlight. When she wakes, a thin sheen of vitae stains the sheets.
Next time Amelia is ordered to attend the palace she is expecting to encounter the ruffians. She draws the cloak of obfuscate around herself and gets a good look at them while they're hiding. Four ghouls. Four strong young men in the prime of life. She passes them by and heads over to the corridor outside Eleanor's apartment where she uses presence to summon all four of them.
She doesn't hold back her screams as they lay into her, after all, their blood is up now, their beasts are close to the surface. Once they realise their target really won't fight back, they make a game of it, pinning her down and battering her naked backside with their nightsticks.
Amelia is sure they're about to do worse when Eleanor opens the door at last and all four of them scatter.
"What the devil are you playing at!"
Amelia is pulled into the apartment by a handful of hair where she stands, clutching her tattered gown across her breasts. Elizabeth is standing by the fireplace with a smirk on her face. She bows deeply to her sire and takes her leave without a word, closing the door gently behind her.
"What a performance." Eleanor fumes. "Do you think this is acceptable behaviour?"
"No madame." Amelia says contritely. She sinks to her knees and allows the gown to fall as it may.
"I expect you felt you had no choice but to test me this way?"
Amelia says nothing, and the silence lengthens to awkwardness, but it would be foolish to speak out of turn and antagonise Eleanor.