I have tagged this story carefully but just in case you missed them, it's not a nice story. It also contains non consensual sex.
Bad things happen to people who probably don't deserve it. Themes include addiction, mind control, slavery, sacrifice and blood play.
N.B. I've made some effort to build the world and characters up to this chapter. You will get more out of the story if you read Debtor's Promise and part 1 of Debtor's War first.
In Elizabeth's own words
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"There are no heroes."
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We all do as we must to survive.
March 1517
I lost my mother the year before. That would make my twin sister and I about seven years old, maybe eight? It was early spring, always the season of empty bellies and freezing nights, but that year was cruel. We begged for scraps and coins, but no one could afford bread, no one could spare us a copper penny.
I remember holding my sister's hand and running as fast as we could past Old Lugoz's place despite our hunger. We street rats were wary of the one eyed tanner. Aside from the rank smell of his work and the foul vats of mangled skin, there were rumours. My brothers said the old man stole children in the night and pickled them in the barrels outside his shop.
Claudia and I bedded down together in our corner of the big straw mattress. Our brothers were already snoring, we held each other tight. She prayed that God would keep us safe from wicked men who hunt children, then she slept. I lay awake and wondered, how could pickled people smell like fish?
That morning, well before first light, I left the others sleeping. The dew had frosted on the grass. l played a game, skipping from one stone to another along the muddy verges leaving little trace of my passing. I approached in silence, hugging close to the wall where there was no frost.
The top of the pickle barrel was about level with the top of my head. I stood on tip toe, lifted the lid an inch or two and peered inside.
Wide eyes stared back at me through the brine, eyes that never blinked. Gaping mouths that never drew breath. I filled my apron with the salted eels and trout. I didn't dare stop to eat a bite, but ran home and packed them in snow under the eaves. When our father left for work we didn't go out begging. We fried the fish in tallow fat and devoured it all together, me and my brothers and sisters.
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October 1529
Claudia's eyes were wide open and listless as Stojan put her on the bed, her breathing shallow. The old soldier nodded to me, shot a glance at his mistress, then left us.
I tried to keep the emotion from my voice but I was furious. My sister was more than drunk, she was drooling, insensate. "Hemlock?" I shook my head in disgust.
"Spare me the self righteous crap," madam Gerta said. "I hear you were popular with the sentries on the road. Before they locked us down, mind. Did he know?"
I swallowed my reply with no small effort.
"Didn't think so," she smirked. Her teeth were disgusting. "Well, he won't learn it from me." She looked me up and down. "As for your sister, you pair are nothing alike."
Gerta sat beside Claudia, took up my sister's arm and turned it over to show me the fresh scars on her wrists. A hollow sickness rose in my throat as the anger drained out of me.
"She cut herself," I breathed.
Gerta nodded grimly, pulled the blanket up over my sister and hushed her as she moaned. "And I'm not running a sick house. Girls come here to work, I gave her enough chances."
"So what?" I perched on a nearby chest. "Did she ever actually fuck the customers or..."
Gerta laughed, "Yeah, for a couple of months this summer past. Now? She's not the only soft head I've taken in over the years. The special brew treatment works as a rule, loosens the girls up until they begin to appreciate the money."
I forced myself to simmer down. I knew first hand there was a market for unwilling girls and I owed Gerta a debt for sparing my sister. Claudia. How had I missed it? How long had she been so unhappy?
The woman looked at me gritting my teeth in silence and sighed. "Poor girl's not cut out for this, is she? But there's other work, lass, honest work. All it takes is the right word in the right ear."
"After the siege?" I said, uneasy. "Please keep her safe until then?"
"Pah, could be months yet."
"Fine," I snapped. "A week?"
"You can have until Sunday."
Just five days. I pressed my nails into my palms and forced a smile. "That's generous enough, Madame. Say I'd not come here tonight. Or say I'd left in anger what would..."
"Fuck you. Take the win and hurry back to your master,
Sparrow
."
My master. Despite everything, I was convinced he cared deeply for me. Though things had changed so much between us, and he was caught up in his own troubles, I still hoped for his blessing. I didn't want to leave my sister at the brothel, but I had to. If there was any hope of finding an honest living for us, the state she was in was more hindrance than help.
I kept a lamp on that night, and like old times I waited to help Enzo with his gear. It was very late when he came to bed. I stood and met him with a guarded smile, but my heart sank when I saw his eyes.
"I told you not to bother waiting for me."
"It's no trouble master. I needed..."
He unfastened his belt buckle, slid the leather strap out in one smooth motion. He had to take his belt off anyway to unfasten everything, but I knew by his manner I'd be in for it. The question, as ever, was whether to stay or run. Either choice would have ended badly that night.