A deep and heartfelt thank you to Xpoerotica and Decal_Last for editing my latest foray into the world of storytelling and milking a tale of espionage and unrequited love out of my word salad, you guys truly are my rock.
Cormac and Mrs. Vee are two recurring background characters that are often featured in my stories, but this is my first attempt to flesh them out.
Please join me in this journey into the lives and loves of Valeria Volesky and her many husbands.
TORN APART
I know the exact moment Kolya fell in love with me.
He was sitting on a bench joking around with his friends when our eyes met, his smile froze and words failed him.
His stare followed me across the playground as I twirled with handkerchief in hand, showing my friend Anya all my sleek Barynya dance moves.
My long golden braids swung in the air, glowing in the morning sun but he would later confess that it was my warm laughter that caught his attention and my harsh green glare of disapproval that pierced its way into the silly boy's heart.
Annoyed, I marched straight toward him and smacked his forehead.
"Whap!"
"
Ow!
Valeria!"
"
Blyat
!" I cussed him, feeling my heart race.
"Ah! Kolya is in
love
!" the boys laughed.
His eyes stayed on me throughout the afternoon classes as we judiciously listened to our teacher naming the benefits of the Pripyat nuclear power plant being built just 300 kilometers to the south. I smothered my annoyance, the boy meant nothing.
His grades were terrible and like most artists, his wandering mind lacked the commitment to help advance our motherland into a brighter tomorrow. Plus, he was always smiling like an imbecile; what girl could
possibly
find that attractive?
After school, Anya ambushed me at the gates.
"You have an admirer," she handed me a rolled piece of paper as I grabbed my Aist bicycle to hit the gym.
The drawing of a gorgeous teenage girl stared back at me. Stern eyes armored in thick eyebrows glared deep into my soul while anger turned her thin lips into a line. And yet all her exasperation only made the girl even cuter.
Seeing myself through his eyes, my cheeks flushed and Anya's smile arched with mischief.
"W-who?" I held the silly girl's arm, shaking her. "
Who
gave you this?"
A soft nod to her right steered my eyes toward Kolya. His waving hand recoiled before my ire.
"Stupid boy," I scrunched the drawing and his love with it. Sadness clouded Kolya's face and my heart sunk. My chest pressed watching his devastation.
No, I had to remind myself, love is weakness and the world is especially cruel and relentless when you're weak.
Mom and Dad had frozen to death in a cell in Novosibirsk. Who would take care of my sister Nastya and Uncle Vadim if I screwed up chasing after stupid dreams of love and romance?
I fought the need to console him, there was no place in my life for foolish teenage crushes.
They stood staring as I rode away in a huff, fleeing these troubling emotions.
Spring had arrived in full force and Minsk was once again covered in lush greens as I glided down Stalyetava Street, taking in the scent of freshly cut grass. The whole city was buzzing with preparations for the 1975 World Wrestling Championships at Minsk Sports Palace.
Comrade Brezhnev had led the Soviet Union into an era of prosperity and everywhere pretty ladies showed off their counterfeit European bags while men proudly paraded around in their expensive American jeans. The economic stagnation was still years away and for this teenage Belarusian girl basking in the warm afternoon breeze,
this
was a good time to be alive. I didn't need love in my life to complicate things, did I?
Did... I?
I had learned to like the old gym at Zakharova Avenue, it smelt of history, mold, dedication, and despair. With the end of Khrushchev's restriction to the movement of rural populations, boys and girls from every corner flocked here with hope of qualifying for the Championship.
They all wanted to show their prowess but after a few crushing defeats, not one dared to enter the Krav Maga ring that we, the Volesky twins had claimed for ourselves.
"Would you do
it
with a Cuban?" my sister Nastya caught me off guard, jabbing her fist square on my chest.
Robbed of air, I withdrew a step.
"
Wha
... what do you mean?" I countered her with a spin kick.
She dodged it, then eyed the two tanned men in suits admiring our installation while our local official representative praised its Stalinist architecture.
"If representative Rybak asked you, as part of his Operation Charm," a mocking tone colored her deep voice. "For Belarus. For the
Motherland
."
Representative Rybak was a brown nose with deep connections to the Kremlin. A former World War II hero, he had been disgraced by a scandal with the daughter of a party member and exiled to Minsk.
"Of... of
course
not."
"They all do
it
, you know?" she smirked, looking at the foreign students watching our training in awe. "The Bureau operatives? How do you think they get the westerners to squeal their secrets? Mata Hari, Skarbek,
Dalilah
... women are the
best
spies in the world. We've
always
been. "
"
We?
" I laughed at my sister's sense of self-importance. "You're just a farm girl from Pogost, chasing after pigs and chicken. Just because Uncle Vadim got us here, you think you're gonna be the next Bond girl, banging Americans in exchange for nuclear launch codes?"
"Shut up!" Nastya lunged at me blindly, furious, and stupid as a bison. I slid to the side, planting my fist on her jaw.
"Whack!"
Our trainer's whistle blew in anger before my sister even kissed the mat.
"Proshu proshcheniya!"
I apologized for my roughness.
The State needed its pretty athletes to retain most of their teeth and radiant beauty at least until the championship. Inside I was fuming, the whole notion of pulling back punches was alien to me. Uncle Vadim had taught us all our lives how ruthless and unforgiving Krav Maga was. Giving anything less than 110% in the ring was an insult to both the philosophy of the discipline and your opponent. Disgraceful.
"Hit the showers, ladies, you're done for today," the sow dismissed us. Behind her, state eyes tracked us.
"Bloated
korova
," Nastya grunted between teeth and I muffled my amusement. Four black foreign students watched us head out.
"Those are Zambians," she grinned. "One day, they will graduate as doctors and engineers and return to their country to help spread communism there. Imagine the
memories
we could fill their brains with."
"My classmate Anya's mom cooks and cleans at Representative Rybak's
dacha
and says they're vacationing there."
"Wow..." she turned to look at them again.
"Yeah, they study in Moscow. She says he takes them every night to all the pubs in Zybitskaya and feeds them a steady diet of Minsk's finest bleached hookers. I doubt two virgin girls from Pogost could teach them anything they haven't seen."
"It's cute that you think I'm a virgin," she joked and I playfully punched her in the shoulder.
"
Ow!
Valeria!" Nastya feigned a lethal wound and I hugged her, giggling:
"Aww, my poor little
Nasha.
"
I was older by 17 minutes, which instinctively made me protective of her. Sometimes.
"Can I borrow your soap?" She treated herself to my bag, without so much as waiting for my approval. " I forgot mine..."
"
Again
? Some superspy you'd make..." I mocked her. Nastya had a smart mouth and a quick tongue, but she'd lose her head if it wasn't attached to her neck. She had failed to qualify for my school due to her poor grades and it still bothered her to this day.
Uncle Vadim had worked so hard to get us out of Pogost. Disappointing him had been crushing.
"What is
this?"
she rummaged through the content, producing Kolya's drawing. I had kept it til I could find a garbage bin to dispose of it and completely forgotten. "Oh, it's
gorgeous
!"
"That's just Kolya's stupid drawing.
Cyka blyat
, I forgot all about it..."
Her green eyes lost themselves on the graphite lines and her thick eyebrows softened. I knew very well that fascinated expression, a keen spirit was calling out to her through those pencil strokes on the paper.
"Kolya... is he a...
classmate
?"
"Just some hockey head who won't shut up about Dinamo Minsk returning to the top league..." I blushed, reaching for the drawing. She held onto it.
"You and Dad used to
love
hockey..."
"It's a stupid game that won't put food on our table, give me
that
..." I pulled at my end as if my life depended on this drawing to live.
"No,"
, she resisted. "Let me have it..."
"Riiip,"
the drawing was torn in half and my heart stung. We both fell backwards, each holding a piece. Nastya hit a locker with a loud bang and my heart raced.
I rushed to my sister, was she hurt? Was she bleeding? That drawing, that
stupid
drawing.
This
is what happens when you let feelings...
"Oww,
" Nastya moaned. "That
hurt
!"
Relief flooded my chest, thank God she was alright.
"A thick head like yours? Doubt it..." I smiled nervously, helping her get up. "You
seriously
liked it?"
"Of course, can't you see it?"
"See
what
?"