Chapter 1:
I've always been a slightly above average guy. Average good looks, income and lifestyle. I'm nearly 50 now, but as recently as last year, the universe has seen fit to reward me with several unexplainable interactions with people that have crossed my path seemingly by pure coincidence. Physical touch is my love language. I need to be touched. It is the source of my ability to bring joy and light to the world. Sometimes, when my wife isn't feeling like taking care of my needs, I get those needs filled with other people who similarly need to be touched...like me. We are out here. We are sexual healers. Sex is a powerful force to manifest the things in life you need the most. When sex healers link up, the whole world seems to brighten. Over the next few chapters, I plan to shed light on how this is possible and how some chance interactions have created a space for sex, healing and redemption across several decades.
Fast forward to the age of internet dating, an app called Adult-Friend Finder gets created and I figured maybe I could find someone near me who was seeking an arrangement like me. I set up a profile and scrolled through the members pics and sent several invites. After literally years with no success, I make a legit connection with a single mom in my area who was physically attractive and willing to meet me at a nearby motel one night. We made plans and eventually she entered the room I had rented. To protect our anonymity, we both actually wore masks. But as we sat on the bed and got comfortable, she looked at me and told me that she knew who I was. And when she took off her mask, I realized that this could be very problematic. This wasn't just any random woman. This was one of my wife's besties. She was a bridesmaid in our wedding! She showed up anyway and wanted to understand my motivation to cheat and to be understood. I told her about my super high sex drive and need for intimacy that my wife appeared to be incapable of that put me out in the streets. She, similarly was out because things didn't work out with the dad of her kids and she recognized that she wanted something uncomplicated to pass the time as her kids grew up. We struck a deal on our first visit. Oral sex only. She needed to cum and her favorite was from having her fat clit sucked. I agreed that we could decide if we wanted to continue our relationship later.