This is the story of a confused young man and a group of alpha-females. It takes place after the CoVid pandemic ends and as a second, catastrophic pandemic unfolds.
Prologue:
"Grandpa, how did you survive the great pandemic?"
"I'm sorry. What did you say?" I said looking up from the chess board into the sweet innocent eyes of my 12 year old granddaughter. I had actually heard her question; I was just stalling for time, trying to decide just how I was going to answer.
"How did you survive the great pandemic? My teacher told us that nearly every man in the world died during the pandemic. She said that's why we don't see many old men walking around. When I told her that my grandpa was old and he was not only walking around but could still jog on the treadmills in the club where he and my grandma still lived, she laughed and said I was very lucky to have both my grandparents. When I told her I may have another grandmother who lives in Mexico, she just smiled and asked the class how many other kids had grandfathers who were still alive. I was the only one."
I didn't want to lie to her, and yet, I didn't want to tell her the truth either. So, I lied by omission.
"I don't really know why I lived. I remember getting sick for a while, and then I just got better. I guess my mother took extra good care of me."
"I'm glad she did, otherwise, who would teach me all of the stuff that they don't teach us in school and who would teach me how to play chess. It's still your move."
Chapter One:
Later that night, after an extremely satisfying round of foreplay, at the age of 82 my wife no longer desires, nor has the energy for intercourse; but she still feels it's her duty to take care of her man, the conversation with my granddaughter kept going through my mind. I was carried back in time, nearly fifty-five years to a very turbulent period in our history, when everything seemed to be spiraling out of control.
I was sixteen years old and very confused. Why wasn't I like all of the other boys in my school? I was fair haired, slightly built, about average height, but I had no desire to do what my contemporaries were doing. I didn't date, I didn't play any sports, I had no hobbies, in fact, my only obsession was my appearance. I spent an unusual amount of time making sure I looked good. My clothes had to be in style, my hair and finger nails clean and groomed properly, and my shoes had to be polished.
One day, at a family gathering, I overheard a conversion between my father and my grandfather. 'In my day, we'd call him a 'dandy'. To which my father replied, 'well, in my day, we'd call him a queer, a homosexual. I don't know what we are going to do about him'.
I know I was great disappointment to him. But I wasn't homosexual. I wasn't attracted to either boys or girls. I had no sexual desires at all. I was a virgin. I hadn't even started to masturbate yet. 'Maybe I should become a priest!' I was so confused.
During the next two years, the school curriculum began to change. Human sexuality was discussed openly in health class. Although the term was not used until later, gender identification was the new hot topic. I felt somewhat relieved. I could relate to what the teacher was saying. 'Some people, she said, are born with the mind of one gender and the body of the other. Those people have to decide how they want to live the rest of their lives. There are treatments, including reassignment surgery, to match up the person's body and mind.'
That weekend, after my father had left on an extended business trip and my mother had left the house to do whatever she did during her day, I slipped into her walk-in closet and picked out a fancy cocktail dress and coordinating shoes.
I stripped out of my clothes, put on a pair of her throng underwear and stuffed a bra with tissues. Looking at myself in her floor-length mirror, I liked what I saw. I had little, if any body hair, my legs were nicely shaped and my butt was solid from all the walking I did. I sat at her make-up mirror and put on a little eye make-up and some accent powder on my cheek bones and some red lipstick. Satisfied, I slipped on the cocktail dress and her four-inch heels and stood staring at my reflection in the mirror.
I was so preoccupied with my appearance that I never heard my mother enter the room.
"If you are going to wear my clothes, the least you could do is to not have them look better on you than they do on me." She turned and left the room allowing me time to get changed, wash my face, and compose myself for what I assumed would be a long and nasty argument.
When I walked into the kitchen I spotted her sitting at the kitchen table, there were two cups of tea in front of her.
"Come sit, we have to talk."
For the next hour, I explained what I was doing and, more importantly, what I had been feeling for the last couple of years. She sat quietly listening to me as I let out all of my feelings of confusion and isolation. Afterwards it was her turn. She understood what I was telling her and she was sympathetic to my plight.
"You know, of course, this is going to kill your father. He always wanted a son. How can I tell him that his son believes that he is really a girl? We are going to have to do this one step at a time. The first thing we have to do is seek some professional advice as to just how your transformation should take place. Once we have that information we can decide just how far and how fast we can proceed. For now, we'll just keep this incident between us. I'll start laying the ground work with your father."
We stood and hugged. For the first time in my life I felt there was hope for my future.
Chapter Two:
When I think back about it, I can understand why my granddaughter was never taught that there were actually two pandemics. The first, the COVID-19 pandemic lasted nearly three years. Although that is subject to some debate; on March 11, 2020 the World Health Organization (WHO) declared COVID-19, the disease caused by the SARS-CoV-2 virus, a pandemic. However the first deaths actually occurred sometime during the fourth quarter of 2019 in Wuhan, China, while the first case in the United States was confirmed on January 19, 2020. During the last half of 2022 and the first half of 2023 the death rate from COVIC-19 had declined to between two and four times the long-term average death rate for influenza, the WHO never actually declared that the pandemic was over. At that time the world-wide death toll attributed to the disease totaled a little over six and a half million. That number would soon be dwarfed by what would occur next and be all but forgotten.
My father would be one of the first to die in Europe during his business trip to Switzerland in 2019. He had gone there to obtain financing for a deal involving the purchase, by a group of wine enthusiasts, of two of the largest privately held vineyards in Napa Valley. After a week of meetings with the owners of several large private banks in Zurich, the financing was obtained.
The next day, my mother, who was also my father's administrative assistant, received a large package of signed documents to forward to the attorneys involved. There was also a letter from my father.
'Babe, I've come down with some sort of bug. I've got a fever and body aches. I'm going to stay here for a couple of days until this flu passes. I'll let you know when I'm ready to come home. Hold down the fort like you always do in my absence. Love, me.'
That was the last communication we ever received from my father. Three days after the date of the letter he was admitted to a hospital in Zurich and died three days later. We received an urn of his ashes by Fed-Ex the following week.
I had started my first year at UCLA, but my heart wasn't in it. I went to my classes until the school shut down, while my mother went into the office. Without my father there was no business. The phones stopped ringing; there would not be any other deals. She cleaned out my father's desk and file cabinets, took down the pictures from the walls, and informed the management company that the office was now available for rent.
One night over dinner, I asked the question that I had been too worried to ask.
"Mom, what are we going to do now? How are we going to live? I can quit school and get a job if that will help."
"Dallas, what are you talking about? We'll be just fine; your father left us financially very secure. Your father was a very savvy investor. He favored real estate, but also invested in blue chip companies, and several of the tech companies in Silicon Valley. That doesn't include money he invested in gold and silver and money he kept in treasury bills and certificates of deposit. He also had a large life insurance policy, plus the finder's fee on that vineyards deal which I just received."
I visibly relaxed.
With a chuckle, mom continued. "I made an appointment with a doctor here in Beverly Hills for early next week. I want you to begin your transformation as soon as possible."
Talk about anxiety. Was I really going to do this? I found out the first phase of my transformation would be a year of hormone therapy. Phase two would be breast augmentation or "top surgery" and finally after another year of hormone treatments, genital surgery.
But before anything could be started, I needed several visits with a therapist to determine my state of mind and my expectations for my future.
My psychological tests went fine and I started my hormone treatments while the world around me went crazy. On February 3
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