Tony was abjectly apologetic over his blunder with Emmy.
"I should have just said "You're a hooker aren't you Miss Brown!"
"I don't think it really matters," I replied. "The funny thing is, pretty much everything that was said is true. It's just a question of how you interpret it."
Vanessa had joined us for lunch and sat quietly as we ate and discussed possible witnesses.
"There were a lot of them, weren't there," she muttered and then realised what she'd said. "Sorry Rick, I didn't mean that critically."
I hung my head. "No, you're right, it was fucking crazy. Laura was right six months ago. Totally out of control. I don't think I'll ever be giving anyone a massage - never, ever again!"
She came over and kissed me on the cheek. "Never say never," she smiled.
After we'd had a long debate about the relevance of individual witnesses, I called a halt to the conversation.
"Enough is enough. I'm not putting any more of those women through that experience. It isn't fair. Just put me on the stand. Either the jury believes me or they don't."
Tony pondered for a moment.
"I may call one other witness," he said. "I've been working on it for a while and she insists she wants to testify, if the court allows it. Still trying to get permission."
The prosecution rested with Emmy, so we were up.
I took the stand and was sworn in. I was shaking slightly and tried to calm myself. Looking out over the sea of faces I began to understand how life-changing a trial can be. Guilty or innocent, I knew that nothing would ever be the same. The old carefree, bang-anything-in-a-skirt Rick was gone for sure. I'd finally grown up.
Tony tried to establish credibility. He listed all the positive comments from previous witnesses. Asked me about how I'd set up the business and how I ran it. We covered training, ethics, paperwork, insurance, the law. I described how I checked IDs where relevant, sought consent, got regularly tested for STIs and used contraception wherever requested and often with new clients. It was matter-of-fact and sounded professional.
He finished with a flourish.
"For absolute clarity Mr Rollins, have you ever had intimate contact or sexual intercourse with anyone who you believed had NOT given you consent to do so?"
"Never, Sir," I said meekly. "I have never wanted to do anything other than give pleasure and joy to my clients."
Weller grilled me hard for 40 minutes. Was I aware of the laws around soliciting and prostitution in the UK? Or the impact it has on both prostitutes and their clients? Did I really believe that offering so-called 'massage services' justified the true purpose of the enterprise, which was to take advantage of vulnerable women?
He pulled out copies of my client records and read them out to the court.
"Maya (husband: Andy). Loves firm pressure, hands and fingers. Awesome BJs. Janet (husband: Ray). Quite shy, keep it gentle. Lots of breast play. Susan (husband: Peter). Loves to be licked, then fucked doggy style."
He paused for effect. "Would you say these were typical client records kept by a massage therapist?" He barked and there were titters from the gallery.
I wanted to explain but it all just seemed so lame and pathetic, so I just remained silent.
We went through the entire evening with Emmy again.
"Doesn't a professional therapist leave the room when their clients are changing?"
"Er, usually yes."
"What exactly did you say before you touched Miss Brown's breasts?"
"Would you like me to..." I replied. "But she was..." Weller cut me off.
"And you consider that to be a clear request for consent to intimate contact?"
"I... er..."
"Miss Rollins claims you were on top of her and said "Shall I?" and she said "No."
"Yes, but we were talking about a condom," I pleaded, but I knew it was futile.
"And you expect the jury to believe that?"
And on it went. I just wanted to sink into the floor and disappear. It was a massacre. The court adjourned after my evidence.
"You did OK Rick, under the circumstances," said Tony sympathetically. "There's one more witness tomorrow morning. Keep your chin up."
Vanessa knocked and entered.
"I think I'm going to take you out for dinner," she said.
"Condemned man's last meal?" I suggested.
"You really know how to put a downer on a night out don't you?" She smiled and I managed a grimace.
She thanked Tony for everything he'd done.
"I wish there was more," he said. "With cases like this there's so little to go on. Forensic evidence is irrelevant. No witnesses. No phone records. It just comes down to one person's word against..."
"Phone records?" I said suddenly. "What about the texts? Emmy had a phone with her and she definitely got messages while we were together."
Tony and Vanessa stared at me.
"Sorry, I totally forgot. I mean, probably not relevant anyway," I stammered.
"No stone unturned," said Tony as he grabbed his notes and rushed out.
She drove me to a swanky Chinese place but it was no better than being in court. Everyone knew my face now, so heads turned constantly as we sat and tried to order. Vanessa ignored it but I couldn't.
"I'm really sorry but this isn't working," I muttered. She understood and took me back to the apartment.
"You've been incredibly generous," I started as we tucked into take out food.
"I'm a sucker for lost causes," she said. I had to double-take but she was grinning. I laughed with her.
"That's better," she said. "I haven't see you smile for weeks."
"I wish there was something I could do to repay you."
"Well," she paused tentatively. "I have been struggling with my shoulders recently. Maybe a quick massage?"
You don't need the details but she left feeling much, much better and I slept like a baby. But while I slept a small army was gathering on my behalf. I only learned this much later, but I'll describe it to you here, just as it happened.
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