He caught my interest just as he ascended the back steps of the bookstore, freeing his dark hair from a bike helmet like a job well done. Securing the helmet under one arm, he tamed his disheveled locks with his free hand. Oh yeah. I always had a thing about bicyclists. Not the guys who wear ball hugger shorts, mind you. I'm more into adventurous men who simply liked to propel themselves by their own muscle power. Think less Tour de France, more bicycle couriers. He wore dark blue jeans with one gray cuff rolled up to the knee; the gear side, so he didn't get the cotton caught in the teeth. Racing stripes streamlined his shoulders and sleeves could be detached so he didn't have to pull off his whole shirt while peddling.
"Why isn't Isaac here now?" My mother asked.
Her question refocused me. The table in front of me, with stacks of my novel on it, waited for responses from an Instagram post that I had made promoting the event. The hot bicyclist was a mere distraction. I couldn't help it if my eye wandered. I wrote erotica. When a handsome man dangled his bait on a hook, it was natural for me to take a nibble.
"What?"
My mother leveled her eyes with me. "Isaac. Your husband? Shouldn't he be by your side during your first book signing?"
The bicyclist stopped on the top step, set his helmet down and took off his backpack. It was one of those aerodynamic capsules with the hard shell. I always loved that design. Made him look like he stepped out of the future, with the lid opening like space luggage.
My mom's eyes demanded an answer.
"My husband... yeah," I remembered stammering, "he said he would pick me up after the show. You know he doesn't like crowds."
He wasn't that much younger than me, that bicyclist; thirty-eight, maybe even forty. That was only a gap of ten years. He pulled a book out of his backpack, then he stuffed the helmet in and strung it over his shoulder. When he stood up, I swore that he glanced at me. The look shocked me, as if he had caught me peaking in a slit in his bedroom door. As I cast my eyes elsewhere, his face flashed in my mind.
Wait a minute. Isn't he that one actor: what's-his-name? From the movie that came out a couple years ago?
"Well, I'm here for you, Rache." Mom said, selecting the top book from a stack of many. It dismayed me this was the only one that had been taken all day. "I wouldn't miss your big day for anything in the world."
Over her shoulder, I caught eyes with that bicyclist again. Only this time I didn't look away. Just when I thought he couldn't get any hotter, he smiled at me like someone recognizing an old friend from times forgotten.
"Well?" My mom beckoned.
I shook out of my stupor. Down on the table mom had opened the book to the front page. "Aren't you going to sign it?"
Hastily, I scrawled out a signature, but my eyes still peaked at the bicyclist standing just behind my mom.
How can he walk around in plain sight like this? Aren't people going to recognize him?
Mom narrowed her eyes at me, as if trying to figure out if I was staring at her or not. Her words invaded my head:
Your husband? Shouldn't he be by your side during your first book signing?
Isaac. What would he do if he caught me ogling this eye candy... what's-his-name...like some kind of steamy love scene stolen from my erotica book? He wouldn't do anything. That's what. We've always talked about how a little bit of flirting wasn't a crime. He wouldn't outlaw me exchanging a few hot glances with another man any more than I would outlaw him from jerking off to his favorite porn sites. A little flirting now and then with other people was the spice of life, and in the end, we would just exercise that sexual energy with each other.
There was nothing wrong with looking... Right?
Behind my mom, that Hollywood heart throb stepped up and suddenly my dear old Mom became an obstacle.
"Bye mom." It came out a bit too prickly.
She grimaced, knowing her presence annoyed me. "Bye Rache."
She passed the man, giving him the head of the table. On his shirt I managed to get a glimpse of a button. It said: Got Milk?
My mind flashed with visions of white cream spilling down his chest. I opened my mouth, as if to take a sip of him, but my mom turned around and interrupted us. I sighed angrily. I thought she already left.
"I'm so proud of you." She offered, then she walked away.
Immediately, I felt ashamed of myself. My mom didn't mean any harm. I just iced my biggest fan; however it was a fleeting regret. A rich masculine voice pulled my attention.
"Can you sign this?"
He set a book down on the table. The Xyancy Generation. The oldest copy I had ever seen.
Avoiding his warm brown eyes, I focused on the graphics on the front of the book; a close-up of a man's hip with a tattoo etched in the skin. The edges of the hard cover look chewed.
"I can get you a new one."
He put his hand on it. Rugged, callused fingers with short nails. Makers' hands.
"No. I couldn't give this one up. It's like an old friend."
I looked up at him. Finally face to face, my heart skipped a beat. His overall look was a bit flashy. The average man tended to wear dull colors. Men's clothing stores were filled with grays and olives, appealing to their instinct to blend in. This guy, though, wasn't trying to blend in. He stood out. Everything from his charming demeanor to his movie star looks. His whole presence seemed to say: look at me. I'm not afraid to be noticed.
Damnit. What was that actor's name?
"Are you from around here?" I asked.
"No. I'm visiting from California. When I heard you were going to be here signing your book, I bought a plane ticket."
I cocked my head with curiosity. "You flew here just for me?"
"And the biking," he added. "I read about how amazing Madison's trails were, and I had to see it for myself. I hear you can tour the whole city on a bicycle."
I love it when visitors expressed their appreciation of my hometown, especially ones from California. I used to live on the west coast, and I always missed how impressive everything out there was. The Pacific Ocean, the hundred foot trees, the snowcapped mountains and the perfect weather. When someone comes to my little city, they really have to look harder for the more subtle perfections.
"Yeah. Sometimes I forget how lucky we are to have our bike trails."
"They're extraordinary," he gushed. "I like the tunnel under Gammon Road. It's like I have my own private passage though the intercourse."
I stiffened.
Intercourse?
My mind flipped to erotica mode. I fantasized about crawling across my table, spilling stacks of my erotica novel onto the floor. In my mind I gripped his shirt with both hands, pulled him into my lips and kissed him before he could say no. I could actually feel his tongue slide into my mouth when I dropped my pen. It clattered on the table and fell off the edge. The sound jerked me back to reality. It made me fumble around on the floor looking for it. When I tried to stand, I hit my head on the table.
He rushed to my side. "Are you alright?"
I stood up inside his personal space. The kiss, still ripe in my mind, had only been a fantasy. Yet, those lips hovered so closely I could smell his aroma. It was oddly familiar, like sanded wood. This was what my husband smelled like when we were first dating. Isaac worked at a wood shop. A fine dust covered his skin and hair when I would run into him. How could this actor smell like that? I couldn't imagine a touring Californian would spend eight hours of rigorous wood working before riding his bike here.
I rubbed the bump on my head. "What was I doing?"
He held up his aged copy of The Xyancy Generation. "You were going to sign my book."
He put it down on the table and opened the front cover to the first page.
As I poised my pen, I asked him. "Who should I make it out to?"
Now I could find out once and for all who this actor was.
"Just do your signature."
Ah, now I understood. He wasn't really into me at all. When people didn't want me to sign it to a particular person, that meant they were going to sell it on the internet. Personalized signatures devalued the item. No one wanted a first addition book signed to someone else.
Inside the front cover I wrote RAR with a dot on the end as if completing a statement. He pulled the book close so he could admire the name.
"You don't know what this means to me."
He acted as if I had handed him the keys to a sorority house. Alas, it was just a signature. I clicked the pen as if conversation had ended.
"Have a safe ride home."
He made no move to leave.
Clutching The Xyancy Generation tightly against his chest he said, "This book. It's a gateway to another world. All the characters in it, I know them just as well as my own family members."
He gave me a sincere look. "And you're the one that thought it all up. Right out of your head."
I smirked at him. He was a fan. A delicious, irresistible fan. For a fleeting moment I thought of the four years I spent writing my novel. All those mornings before the sun rose, alone in the dark, without a soul to talk to about it. Not even Isaac liked to hear about how the plot unfolded. He could stand only a sentence or two, then he would shrink away into his computer room to watch knife making videos on YouTube.
Somehow, I didn't deserve the admiration in this actor's eyes. "Oh, it's nothing."
"Nothing?" He chuckled. "Where I come from, you're a legend."