Author's Note: All characters in this story are 18 years old or older, including those in high school or graduating. This is a story by adults for adults about adults.
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By far the most insane year of my life started on the last day of high school.
All of us seniors had been let out of our last classes early and we'd filled up the Common Area, sitting around tables, lounging on benches. My classmates were taking last day selfies, reminiscing loudly about all the wild times they'd had. A couple pom team girls were crying, getting consoled by jocks.
"Can we just get on with it?" My friend Bridget groaned. She'd never been a fan of high school. I imagine it just didn't fit with her aesthetic. Bridget always joked that she was my best guy friend, and in fact when we were in Middle School together people had often mistaken us for two boys. A lot of people were dressed up or in their Senior gear for the last day, but Bridget was wearing an oversized jean jacket over a hoodie and sweatpants, with a knit beanie pulled over her tangled tawny hair.
"Cheer up, babe. Twenty minutes and we're fuckin' out of here forever." Sadie sidled up and sat down at our table. She'd become part of our group just over Senior Year. I'd always judged her as a loud, basic, ditzy, party girl, but I'd been wrong to. She was loud, could be a ditz, and loved a good party, but she was really a lot of fun to hang out with and was a lot smarter and a lot weirder than she let on. She had a reputation around school for being kind of a slut, which I think was exaggerated on account of her shameless attitude and famously huge... well... tits.
"What's up, sweeties?" Sadie nudged me. She was affectionate with all her friends, but it was still new enough to me that it made me blush and get awkward. "Don't tell me you're actually sad about leaving this shitstain?"
"Well--" I started and she laughed. "So what if I am? Y'know, it's our very last day and everything... I didn't think it was so bad."
Compared to most introverted, nerdy kids, I probably had a pretty good time at high school. I got good grades, I liked my teachers, and I got along with most people. Hartford Collegiate was small. I wasn't the most popular kid in school or anything--I didn't play sports and I wasn't on Student Council, but I did play piano in Jazz Band and I was in the school musicals, so most people knew me and I was friendly with a lot of the drama, band, and dance kids.
Of course, I had my close friends, including Paige, Bridget, Amanda, Rani, my only real guy friend, Grant, and sometimes Sadie, and we'd have fun on the weekends just hanging out in someone's basement, playing Mario Kart, or hitting up the local diner, ice cream shop, and Chinese restaurants. I didn't have much to complain about.
So why was I so depressed?
Like she usually did, my best friend Paige seemed to read my mind. "Are you thinking about all the stuff you never did?"
Fuck. I shook my head, trying not to let it show.
"Yup, that's it." Bridget narrowed her eyes at me. "Let's see: never smoked, never drank, never did drugs, never went to a real party..." She counted on her fingers. "Never cut class, never cheated on a test, never snuck out."
"Never went on a date," Paige added. I avoided her gaze on that one, because Paige had asked me out in Freshman year and I'd said no. It had been a whole thing. She wasn't ugly, a bit chubby, with curly auburn hair and big brown eyes, but we'd been friends for so long that I just didn't like her like that.
"You've never even kissed a girl, have you?" Bridget asked bluntly.
"Yeah, he has." Sadie grinned slyly. "Musical."
"Doesn't count," Bridget scoffed. "Not even close."
"Oh, c'mon..." I mumbled. Everyone at the table knew that my first kiss ever had been with Reagan Symons in a rehearsal for "Anything Goes" in the fall. This had been awkward enough, but to really pile it on, she was Grant's girlfriend at the time, and I'd had a massive crush on her for months.
They were right, of course. I had basically spent my entire high school career not doing all the things you're supposed to do in high school.
It wasn't that I had strict parents or I was a Mormon or something like my friend Amanda. And it's not like I never had the chance, either. I might have spent most nights playing PC games or reading fantasy novels, but Sadie or Paige would have been happy to bring me along to a party to get wasted. Even Bridget went out occasionally, when she wasn't smoking weed in her basement.
I guess I was just worried I might humiliate myself. What if all it took was one drink for me to pass out with shit in my pants, like Zack MacDaniel? What if I hooked up with someone who thought my dick was too small and told the whole school about it, like Austin Poloski?
These things happened, and I would hear all about it in the Commons the next day at lunch.
It just seemed safer to wait until I was a bit less completely fucking insecure. I don't when I expected to suddenly wake up and be cool, hot, and muscled, but I imagined it would be sometime in university.
Forcing down the lump in my throat, I looked at my phone to distract myself, but I even found myself hating that I had a shitty Samsung smartphone instead of an iPhone like everyone else.
Then I felt a familiar jolt as I saw Reagan's name. I'd been over her since before Christmas, of course, but some of those automatic things stuck around. It was a Facebook message, from three minutes ago.
REAGAN: AJ!! Come to the auditorium
I frowned. Weird message. I typed back.
AJ: In the Commons! What's up?
The three dots popped up and she replied almost instantly.
REAGAN: It's a surprise... Come alone!
She added the ghost emoji at the end of the message.
I chewed my lip, confused, but thoroughly intrigued. I couldn't stop my stomach from jumping a bit. A surprise from Reagan? Probably nothing. Reagan sang with Jazz Band, maybe they'd all put together a farewell thing or something.
I got up and pushed back my chair.
"Where are you going?" Paige asked.
"Off to your first makeout sesh? I bet Mrs. Sanderson's down." Bridget nodded her head towards the office, where our ancient, grumpy secretary lurked.
"None of your business. Maybe I'm gonna go do my first line of coke in the bathroom. Be right back." I grabbed my backpack and hurried down the hall.
The Hartford Auditorium was small, and there was normally nobody in there during the day, but as I knew from my musical days, the door stayed open. The door closed loudly behind me, leaving the place quiet as I jogged down the aisle steps.
"Hello?" I called.
Reagan poked her head out from behind the curtains onstage, brushed her bangs out of her eyes and smiled. "Hey!"
"Hi... Uh... whatcha doing?" I crossed the floor towards her.
"It's your last day, right? So I thought you'd want to see the place one last time." Reagan slipped out from between the curtains. She was in Grade 11, so she wasn't graduating until next year. Seeing her up on stage, I was reminded of why I'd liked her so much in the first place. She was sweet and witty and incredibly talented, a much better singer and actor than I'd ever be. At Hartford there were so few guys who wanted to be in musical that I'd somehow gotten a lead role in the fall.
She'd played Reno Sweeney, the lounge singer in Anything Goes, and sometimes looked like she walked out of an old-fashioned musical. She had brown hair cut around her chin in a cute retro style, elegant features, and soft, dark blue eyes. She was wearing red lipstick and a similarly vintage outfit: low-top Converse, a floral skirt, and a white blouse.
"Yeah." I looked around the empty auditorium with my hands in my pockets. "Good times." I felt a stab of annoyance as I remembered what it had been like to kiss Reagan every night for a week and then see her jump into Grant's arms at the end of the performance. They'd broken up since. I swallowed as I thought of why.
"She just really wanted to have sex. And I didn't," Grant had told me.
Reagan had been a lot less innocent than either Grant or I had ever thought. I got that Grant didn't feel he was ready, but honestly... I'd kill to have a problem like that.
Back in the fall when I liked her, of course. Back then.
"What is he doing?" I heard a girl's voice whisper. Reagan glanced back behind the curtain, making a shushing motion.
"Um..." I gave a confused laugh. "Is there someone back there? You know it's not my birthday, right? Am I about to be mugged?"
Reagan laughed. "No. Just... come here, okay?" She held out a hand.
Nervously finger-combing my hair, I hopped onto the stage and took it. We'd held hands before, but only on-stage. The vibe in here was getting weirder and weirder. Reagan led me through the curtains. It was pretty dark backstage, but a bit of light was filtering in from the back hallway, and illuminated by her phone I saw another familiar face.
"Took you long enough," Eva Nassry said. She was another Grade 11 girl I'd consider myself friendly with, a dancer in musical and Pom Squad who took my bus. She was half-Egyptian, petite, with light brown skin and long dark hair in a high ponytail. She wore the usual dance girl uniform--yoga pants and a tanktop.
"Oh. Hi. What, uh--why are you hiding back here?"
Eva popped her gum and glanced at Reagan. "Can you tell him already?"
"Okay, chill!" Reagan laughed, squaring her shoulders and tucking her hair behind her ear. "Okay, so. It's the last day of school, so you're gonna be graduating and everything. And you've always been such a nice, great guy... and castmate," She added. "And I wanted to do something to... y'know. Say thanks and bye, I guess."
I blushed and looked down at the words, but as she finished I looked up in time to see Reagan stand on her tiptoes and kiss me. The soft cushion of her lips, the smell of being close to her was familiar, but then her tongue slipped into my mouth and met mine and her fingers knitted into my hair and I realized I was making out with Reagan Symons. This was certainly not in the script.