"It's all 'Her pussy dripped from her desire' and 'His cum exploded from his pistoning cock.' I'll try and find something worthy of reading." He looked over at her to see if he had embarrassed her, and then worse, himself.
She had pulled the rolling chair next to his, her expression engaged but otherwise unreadable.
It was a Friday night. Their 4
th
date. They had planned it earlier in the week. They would have sex later, she'd pretty much guaranteed it. But even up to dessert he wasn't certain.
It would be the 1
st
time they'd go the whole way. He was happy as hell. She was beautiful and she'd enjoyed whatever they had done so far; as far as he could tell. It was still early in the relationship - she could be a good faker, but he didn't dwell on that shit. She smelled good sitting next to him. That was enough for now.
"Are some sites better than others?" She leaned forward a little to watch the screen.
"Yeah. Some are a smoke screen claiming to have a 'literary' approach to 'erotica.' Bullshit in a lot of cases. Either they are so tame that they don't do anything for me, or they're just plain old porn. But in a couple of cases I've found some consistent quality worth reading."
It was a strange conversation for him. He would never have predicted
this
was what they'd be doing after dinner when he met her at the restaurant. It was one of those neighborhood places - chef-owner, locally grown, high end drinks, but the atmosphere was low light, the food was fantastic and the prices were within his budget. She loved it and that always helped.
"So, before you met me, were you dating a lot?" She had opened a conversation over the baby greens and oysters.
"Umm, off and on. Mostly not." He wasn't sure how to answer questions like that - if he said he'd been dating a lot, what message did that send? And if he said no, not at all, he'd be signaling he was a loser.
"The reason I ask," she continued after a moment to reflect on her last bite, "is you seem to really enjoy sex, and I was wondering if it had been an awfully long time since you'd had any." She looked up with a mischievous glint and continued: "Or were you happy to just masturbate a lot?"
He smiled to cover his nervousness and buy some time. She was bold, and he liked that, but it made him very nervous when a new girlfriend asked him such personal questions. Not that there was any time he could think of when answering
that
question would make him completely comfortable.
"Weelll...how do I answer that? First, thanks, I mean, yes I really do enjoy sex a lot. Is it contagious?" He hoped the implied meaning was clear while he decided whether to address the second part. He took a forkful of salad and waited.
"I'm just curious," she said softly, her eyes looking up at him and back to the candles. "Yes, I have enjoyed being with you. I'm hoping we'll fuck like bunnies tonight, actually. But I was wondering: a) if you did masturbate then b) do you like to masturbate when you read porn or watch movies or do you just have fantasies?"
He almost choked but managed to maintain an outward appearance of calm, slowly swallowing the remaining bites he had chewed, practically into liquid. Okay, if she was going to fuck him anyway then there was little to lose.
"Yeah, well, mostly I just make stuff up in my head, but it depends. Sometimes I don't have much to think about and need fresh material...so I'll read a little or look at porn. Pictures mostly, I guess.." He stopped, realizing he was basically telling her what a loser he was. He looked up in alarm, and when he saw her face, he relaxed . She looked fascinated, like he was telling her the secret of making a million dollars or the recipe for the best perfume in the world.
"I want to see what you like to read when we go back to your place. But not before I try one of the desserts."
And that was that and here they were.
"Oh, this guy, if it is a guy--you never know--he writes pretty well...".
He didn't know a lot about her, after three dates. He knew she was about 26, that her birthday was in October and that she had three older brothers. He knew she had a degree in Anthropology and worked at a "creative agency." He had smirked when she had said it the first time, imagining some kind of call-girl setup, but after he picked her up there for one of their dates he was impressed.
It was in one of the new warehouse conversions - a brick building with names of the prior companies faded but still legible. When he walked into their suite, though, he was hit by the contemporary design - all metal and wood, spot-lit with art on the wall. She was just one of several beautiful women he saw walking around.
She explained what she did there, when he asked at dinner, but he wasn't sure he understood it. Something about customer ethnography and new product design. It didn't matter if he got it, she was smart; that much he understood.
She looked at the screen and let her thoughts drift while he found a suitable subject. She knew a lot about him, and she knew most of it before their first official date. She gleaned it the night they met at the Halloween party. A group of them had coalesced when each had realized they weren't alone in arriving without a costume. He cracked a joke, she laughed (it
was
funny), he asked her to dance and they agreed to see each other.
She had made a study of males starting around 8 years old. Her older brothers were fascinating to her: charming, heroic, amazingly stupid around women and constantly focused on sex. She didn't catch the last part until she was around 12, and by then her oldest brother, Frank, had left for college, but the other two, Jimmy and Chuck were non-stop.
When she learned about masturbation, first in sex ed class, and realized that boys were probably masturbating already, she was hell bent to satisfy her curiosity about her brothers. In spite of her best efforts, though, she only caught Jimmy once, and even then she wasn't certain--he yelled at her from under his covers and she couldn't see anything.
By the time she had turned 18, long after she had started dating boys from her school, her need to understand the masturbatory behaviors of the adolescent male eclipsed any good sense her girl-friends tried to impart to her. She got a reputation around school as "the girl who'd give a hand job" and that was just fine with her. She had taken an experimental interest in the subject and had more willing lab partners than she needed.
She was amazed at first at how easy the boys were. They would practically drop their pants before the drive-in movie began, knowing she was there to jack them off. In actuality, it wasn't quite that easy and neither was she. To avoid getting labeled a complete Ho, she made them demonstrate how they did it, watching in fascination as they made themselves cum. For any new boy, she used this bit of self-revelation as an insurance policy: if they even breathed a word of her interest in stroking them, a) she wouldn't do it later that evening (after they recovered), and b) she'd happily explain their technique exactly.