With nervous anticipation, I pace my living room, awaiting his arrival. Yes, we'd met before, in another lifetime, but this was different. Though we'd met before, it was only through recollections of places we'd both been, things we'd both seen that we found memory in one another. Our pasts had intertwined and somehow, through the grace of the gods, we had found each other again. What the fates had in store for us, I wondered, my mind racing, my heart pounding so loud I swore it could be heard from a mile away.
I hear his car pull into my driveway and suddenly I can't breathe, I become dizzy with nervous anticipation. Would he be all he seemed to be? Would our minds mesh as they had done in our emails and chats? Could this really be happening to me? I paced back and forth, waiting for him to approach the door, what seemed like hours passed, though I knew they were only seconds, simple moments in time, I could wait no longer. I strode to the door and opened it just as he started to walk towards the house from his car. My heart skipped a beat, the butterflies in my stomach causing me to swallow over and over for fear I was going to vomit from the nerves.
He smiled as he moved towards me, his eyes twinkling. I was barely able to look into his eyes, but surveyed his features as I had done so many times before in pictures. His hair was perfect, sweeping gently over the right side of his face, slightly slicked back. His deep dark eyes smiling at me, his white teeth gleam as he smiled. He spoke, but the words weren't audible though the pounding of my own heart. I barely mustered a grin as he walked towards me and took both my hands in his, gently placing a kiss on my cheek. I couldn't see myself but I knew I was blushing.
He could feel my nervousness and gently pushed me back against the bricks of the entryway, his lips quickly finding mine. All my breath left me as he'd pushed me against the bricks. I was excited, nervous, scared and more turned on than I had been in more years than I cared to count. Gently he placed his hand over my heart to feel it pounding, while he took his other hand and slid his fingers across my cheek, the warmth of his hand intoxicating. His kiss started gently, his tongue slowly probing between my lips and searching for mine. Our tongues encircling one another, his warm breath on my skin. His kiss became more passionate, deeper, the pressure of his lips on mine exciting me. I let out a moan, barely audible, more a whisper. My obvious overwhelming desires become apparent to him. He pulled his lips from mine, my gaze downward. Gently he slid his fingers from the side of my face to my chin, bringing my chin up so our eyes would meet.
His gaze mesmerized me, my heart was pounding in my head but his gaze eased my tension. He seemed to be searching my soul, looking for an answer to an unasked question. His eyes holding my gaze as he spoke, gently, words I couldn't hear but my body could. My instincts took over and our minds seemed to melt into one another. The longer his gaze held mine, the more I felt the tension release from my body. I wanted him; I wanted him so badly I couldn't speak. I wanted to scream and shout, to tell him to take me, but I could not find the words.
"Please!" Was all I could whisper.
"Please what?" He responded. "Tell me what you want."
I could not answer, could not meet his gaze, I felt his stare but my mind was racing so quickly I couldn't think, couldn't put my words together. I felt out of control, unable to put simple words together. I felt so foolish; no one had had this affect on me. I allowed my hair to cover my face again, to cover the nerves welling up inside of me. I wanted him, that was obvious and I knew he wanted me, why it had to be so tough to tell him I did not know.
The silence was so thick I could have cut it with a knife. Finally my eyes met his gaze and he was staring into my soul, seeing a part of me I never shared, it felt as though he was reading my every thought. He saw me, really saw me and I knew it.
"I want you, I want you inside me, and I want to feel you in me." I blurted out. I couldn't believe my own ears! His gaze upon me changed quickly, his grin became mischievous as he grabbed my wrists and pulled them above my head. My arms pinned above me, his body pressed to mine, his lips upon mine again, this time harsh and rough, his body grinding against mine. He slipped both my wrists into one hand as he quickly reached down with the other hand and quickly pulled my skirt up and his hand was underneath the fabric of my panties and rubbing my clit. I could feel my clit harden under his touch, his index finger and thumb wrapped around my clit, massaging it back and forth as his kisses increased in depth and passion.
His grip loosened on my wrists and I quickly began to unbutton his pants as I pulled his shirt up to feel the bare, soft skin of his chest. As I began unbuttoning his shirt, he pulled my tank top over my head and quickly unclasped my bra, his lips finding my erect nipples, sucking them in, rolling them between his teeth, from one to the other. My fingers fumbled with his buttons, the feel of his mouth around my nipples exciting and distracting me from my mission.