Yumi checked the government portal one more time, hoping against hope that something would be different this time.
No change. Her green card for America was still set to expire in six months.
Despite the clear blue skies and the beautiful white sand beach, she had no desire to do anything but lay on the pool chair and feel the wind on her skin. This trip was supposed to take her mind off of her situation, but it just highlighted the life she wouldn't get to live in Japan.
Under the harsh sunbeams, she could already notice her ring tan begin to fade. It had been cruel of her to demand so much from her ex-husband, but she had never expected the petty small man he could become when upset. She perhaps made a mistake by latching onto the first available man to get a US citizenship. They never fit together perfectly, but she thought she would have more time to sort things out even if they did break up. What she hadn't expected was for him to immediately rescind his support for her naturalization and call the fucking ICE.
Every few hours, she oscillated between blaming herself for making a hasty choice and feeling the raw hurt of his betrayal. Yumi mourned the loss of the life she could have built. She had secured a job as a concept artist for a company that she liked, but they couldn't sponsor her citizenship. She had found herself a group of like-minded friends, both Japanese-born and American-born. Yet the dream felt further and further out of reach with every job rejection. And who could blame them for not wanting to hire and sponsor a Japanese citizen right out of college without much of a portfolio to speak of?
Even her friends couldn't help. Kaya, an old classmate and nepo baby, did what she could in calling lawyers, but it just didn't seem like things would work out. In the end, Kaya decided to make Yumi go to her family's timeshare to take her mind off things. As a last hurrah of living in America. There was a luxurious house on the outskirts of Honolulu with an attached resort. It was one of the kindest gifts she had ever received, but a sudden emergency in the family business had prevented Kaya from coming. Despite the steady flow of video calls from her friends, she was deeply lonely. The scenic beaches were only so beautiful when she was alone to see them. She had grown used to, perhaps too dependent, on her ex-husband and now she paid the price.
So much had been taken away from her in an instant, leaving her terrified of the uncertainty in her life. To return to Japan likely meant living with her father again who had never supported her dreams of being an artist. It would mean returning to a nation that felt old and backwards to her. It wasn't that life would be miserable in Japan, but that she would leave America without the chance to have really tried.
The hot sting of a tear rolling down the slope of her cheek pulled her out of her thoughts. Blinking twice, she decided she couldn't stand to be outside for another moment. Packing her things, she swiftly made her way towards the house.
"Miss, is everything alright?"
An older man approached her, maybe in his 50s. Despite his age, he wore his years well with a handsome chiseled face and only flecks of gray in his chin-length hair. He was a head taller than her, but that meant little considering her diminutive five-nothing height. He was wearing red swim trunks and a kind smile.
Yumi tore her gaze away from him. She just wanted to shut the rest of the world out, watch some shitty television in the bedroom and fall asleep. Him being so good-looking just felt like the world taunting her.
"I don't need anything!" Yumi yelled, louder than she intended. She could notice a number of heads in her peripheral vision turn towards her for causing a scene. Cringing, she turned around, pulled her beach robe over her head like a child, and scurried off.
A mere minute before she arrived at the house, the skies darkened and rain began to pour suddenly. At least this time, she thought, the universe was matching her mood. Pulling her towel over her head, she was able to get through mostly dry. Inside, Yumi found herself in the bathroom, changing out of her wet swimsuit. It was a beautiful navy blue bikini that had been picked out by her ex. It was comfortable, looked great on her, and fit perfectly, just like all of the clothes her ex had gifted her. What had started as a charming trait turned bitter when so many of her favorite clothes were tainted by the memory. It was hard to reconcile the man who knew her favorite clothes and foods better than she did with the man willing to call a government agency to ruin her life.
Looking down at her nude body in the huge bathroom mirror, she intellectually knew that her petite form with perky breasts had been perfect in her ex's eyes, but an irrational part of her hated that too. Despite the crying and the general shitty direction her life had taken her, she looked great. Her eyelashes were long, her skin was clear, her shoulder-length hair had great volume and shine, and her nails looked amazing with the fresh red coat of polish. Kaya had insisted on a trip to a salon together before they left and the results were fantastic. Now with Kaya busy, Yumi realized she might have taken their last outing together for granted. Instead of relaxing, Yumi had spent the time at the spa trip complaining about job interviews and incessantly checking her phone.
It wasn't so simple... she thought to herself. She was a person entitled to emotions and taking things poorly.
Still, Kaya deserved better than what she had been giving her. Her other friends deserved better than what she had been giving them. Even the stranger on the beach deserved better.
Yumi slept fitfully, her body struggling to adapt to the new timezone and her turbulent emotions. If nothing else, she was grateful that she had blocked her ex's number.
Walking out of the house with the same swimsuit as the previous day, she felt a renewed resolve to truly savor this vacation. This time, she took a clear raincoat with her, a less fashionable piece than the diaphanous robe she wore the previous day, but a more practical one.
As she was turning a corner, she bumped into someone. She almost gasped. It was the guy from yesterday. He glanced down at her and gave another one of his bright smiles. He seemed dressed for the beach too, only wearing slippers and a pair of swimming shorts, the rest of his toned body proudly displayed. Yumi found herself lost in his body for a short moment.
"Feeling better today?"
Yumi nodded without saying a word, but she matched her pace to his. He seemed like a good sort and it was probably best she got some company. Besides, given the way he was appraising her, it seemed like he wanted to spend time with her as well.
"So, you're from the mainland, then?" he asked.
"Michigan, I moved there from Japan when I went to college," she said.
"Heh, your English is pretty good for only living here for what? 2 years?"
The tips of her ears went red. She was young, but certainly not 19-20. "I moved here 4 years ago! I'm twenty-two!" She said enunciating every word.
His face burst into a shit-eating grin. "Bless your Asian genes for their fountain of youth."
Yumi was about to snap back, but she decided to take the backhanded compliment instead. Instead, she just looked up at him, taking it in. The sun had tanned his skin a beet red, but the smile lines around his eyes implied he had enjoyed every minute of it.
Eventually, he turned to the left, to a busier beach than they were yesterday. There was the sound of children screaming and waves crashing. Away from the water, she could see a wooden hut bar. Maybe that was why he picked out this beach.
"I'm Ted, by the way. Never caught your name."
"So sorry for not introducing myself, my name is Yumi."
It was early enough that they were able to find a spot. The man laid out a huge towel, just large enough that they could share it if they were close to each other. Considering Yumi had forgotten a towel, it was going to have to be good enough.
In her bag, she was still able to locate her sunscreen, her phone, and a few other knick knacks.
"Here, you clearly need it," she said as she handed him the sunblock.
"Hey, how do you know I wasn't born looking this way?"
She made a point to stare up and down his body. He was fit, especially for a man his age, but skin was beginning to loosen at the joints. Another person might have called it ugly, but she felt oddly entranced like seeing the gnarled roots of a great tree.
"You've aged pretty well, like a fine wine, but don't push it."
Chastised, he rubbed the lotion over his limbs. It wasn't a particularly generous or thorough application, so Yumi saw an opening. "Hey, rub my back and I'll rub yours?"
"You Japanese girls are all so obsessed with your skin," he drawled. "Of course, I'd love the privilege of rubbing this
all
over your back."
An alarm bell went off in her head. An old white guy acting as if he knew Japanese girls? What was the world coming to? "Shut up, lie down and give me that."
She made sure to use generous dollops of sunblock on his back, rubbing in the lotion onto his hard muscles. It was her first time touching a back like this with such leathery skin yet corded muscle underneath. She decided she liked it.