Robyn was a leading psychologist with a successful private practice. She had been well-established in the city for a number of years, primarily providing counselling and guidance to high-flying professionals.
She also had a variety of kinky pleasures in her private life but, happily, was able to keep her private life quarantined from her work whenever she felt it necessary. Her life partner, a female executive had never really understood Robyn's predilections for "dirty sex". But she never stood in her way and allowed Robyn to pursue such interests on the proviso that she always "stayed safe". Robyn was in her early forties with short spiky hair, a little short and a little plump. Married once, now she had a female life-partner and a vow to never have any regrets about not pursuing her interests.
She was a regular attendee at the wild sex parties hosted by the Carvers - important people and strong supporters of Hanson House. The doctor always got plenty of "dirty" thrills at those parties. However, sometimes she was able to mix business with pleasure. Robyn's practice had progressed to the point where she was able to be selective about which clients she accepted. In addition to the "normal" problems she had a small number with much more interesting complaints that received special attention. They all came to her by word of mouth. That was how Jelena and her husband had found their way to her office.
In fact, it had been Jelena's mother-in-law who'd been responsible for that. A careless remark had been overheard and the mother-in-law had guessed that everything was not right in the marital bed. If her son wasn't hitting the mark then she was ready to step-in. It just happened that the older woman knew of Robyn and the services she provided. A quiet, but insistent word, in Jelena's ear had finally done the trick.
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Jelena was in her mid-thirties, a rising lawyer with long brunette hair and soft brown eyes to match. She'd had three children with her husband David and, to outside eyes, it seemed her life could not have been happier. Robyn, naturally, saw through that straight away. There was something about the way the pretty lawyer avoided eye contact. Besides, she'd not have been there at all if she didn't feel there was something that needed fixing.
"I just feel confused sometimes you see," she was telling Robyn. "I know who I am but then sometimes I wonder if I am really happy." Her husband loved her, she was certain. That was not the problem. The way she said it, however, gave Doctor Robyn her first insight.
"I am going to be honest Jelena," she said. "This is about your sex life with your husband."
Jelena was a little surprised. Did it really show? She nodded mutely. The doctor wanted to know if she was struggling to keep up with his demands. Some women, especially with small children, could at times have less interest in sex.
"Oh no Doctor," Jelena replied. "I still want sex. These days I am more interested in sex than when we were first married."
Robyn probed further. How often did they have sex? Who usually initiated it? Did her husband leave her satisfied?
"Oh yes, yes I always have an orgasm with him," she smiled confidently.
"That's not what I meant," explained the good doctor. "Are you getting the level of sexual satisfaction you need? Our needs change as we get older. Women, I mean. What we accepted in our younger years sometimes is no longer enough." The look on Helena's sweet face told Robyn she was on the right track now.
"I can see you love your husband. When you are having sex, making love, is that what turns you on the most? Is that what makes you climax?" Jelena didn't seem sure. "What I mean is, do you get aroused primarily by your love for your husband? Or is there something else? What about his body, his physique?" Again, Jelena seemed unsure. Robyn pressed on.
"How many men did you have sex with before David?" The patient went a deep shade of red.
"Oh that's... ummmm... I would say eight or nine." Robyn wondered if that was part of the problem.
"And have you ever been unfaithful to David?" Jelena flashed a look of horror. "We are being totally honest here," explained the Doctor. "There's no need to be ashamed of anything you've done."
Jelena muttered and stumbled, trying to insist that she'd never done such a thing and wouldn't ever want to hurt her husband like that. Robyn wondered if that, too, was part of the problem.
"What about his penis? David's cock. Is it a good size?"
Jelena baulked again. "Its fine... I guess. I really have no idea. Does it matter?" She didn't have the time to react to the Doctor's crude choice of words.
"My dear girl, is he adequate in size? You said you've slept with other men. How does he compare?"
"Well..." She was turning red again. "He's not the smallest. And I guess not the biggest. He's OK. I said he makes me orgasm."
Robyn was unconvinced. It was hardly a ringing endorsement from a woman who said she didn't need anything extra in the sack.
"Jelena, we are coming to the point. The reason you are here. Your problems are based on your sex life, your unmet needs from your sex life."
The patient was aghast. It was ridiculous, it was like a slap in the face. She'd said her husband satisfied her in bed and that was the end of it.
Then why, Robyn demanded to know, was she unhappy and confused? What was so confusing about the satisfying sex life Jelena claimed to enjoy.
"I have these thoughts," Jelena blurted out. "I keep getting these ideas in my head. I know they're not right, not proper. If you really want to know, that's why I feel confused. Like there's something wrong with me."
Doctor Robyn allowed herself a small smile. This was real progress.
"Ideas? You mean desires? You mean thoughts about sex and about new things you'd like to try? There's things you want in bed with your husband but you don't have the courage to ask?"
"These are not good things or normal things. They're not things a woman like me should be asking for."
And there it was. Sweet Jelena had the makings of a slut, the urgings of a sexually liberated woman. She was trying to rebel against her own nature. Robyn had forced her to see that now.
"People do all kinds of things that we're told are wrong. Oral sex and anal sex. Sex in strange positions and sex outdoors. If you're ever going to be happy, and keep your husband happy, you are going to need to come to terms with these desires. Do you understand me?"
The sweet lawyer nodded in reply, trying to fight back the tears. "I just don't want to be a slut."
That was the magic word. Robyn knew she had Jelena at her mercy. The doctor adopted a softer tone. "Jelena, I can help you. The thing you have to worry about is finding your true self. The word 'slut' is a label. For now lets just explore these thoughts and ideas a little further. We can worry about labels later on."
Jelena nodded her silent assent. "Good," said Robyn. "Good. That's much better. We're almost finished for today. Now you will come and see me again in one week. By then I want you to write me a list. On that list you are to put every single one of these ideas and desires of yours. Don't hold back anything, OK?"
There was just one more thing to finish this first meeting. "Do shave your vagina, your cunt?"
Jelena blushed deeply again. "Yes, I do. Its the fashion nowadays after all."
"And do you regularly wear underpants?" Jelena nodded, wondering where this was going.
"Take off your underpants for me now." Jelena stared at the psychologist, looking for signs of madness. "Do it now Jelena," ordered Robyn softly. Though she was very reluctant, the other woman felt she just had to obey the doctor. She wriggled out of her underpants, the sense of shame deeper than at any time during this strange encounter.
"For the next week you will not wear underpants at all. Not once. Do you understand?" Jelena was about to protest and Robyn raised her hand to silence her. "You have to trust me if this is going to work. We need to go through some difficult stages now to make it easier later on." Robyn knew this was mumbo jumbo but it did seem to convince her patient. Jelena was "respectable" enough to be inclined to obey doctor's orders.
Jelena left a few moments later, feeling shock on top of her confusion and fear. Could this really make her feel happier?
Robyn sat and pondered for several long minutes. This was going to be an interesting case. Most of her patients were high-flyers with self-esteem issues or borderline depression. Poor Jelena was not like that at all. If Robyn played things right, she'd get some kinky fun and help Jelena all at the same time. She had to start planning for next week's appointment.
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