There's a woman I see once in a while when I'm out looking for landscapes to photograph. We say hello and pass to go our separate ways, the two of us alone, out walking. She always catches my eye, pretty, nicely dressed, bright eyes that take me in in just a glance before she's gone. I look forward to seeing her while I'm out.
One morning she stops me. "Hi," she says, "I just wanted to ask whether you're a photographer?" looking at the camera I have slung over my shoulder. Her voice has a soft Irish lilt.
I laugh, "sort of," I say, "I like to come out and photograph the landscapes."
She nods, "I thought so," she says, and after a moment, "do you do anything with them?"
"Well, I print some of the good ones. I use them for drawings and paintings."
"Wow," she says, smiling now, "that's cute."
I study her face, glad to have the chance. She's about thirty, very lovely, mousy highlighted hair blowing around her face in the atlantic breeze, greenish hazel eyes twinkling. She's wearing a subtle lip gloss and her mouth is wide and full, cute little nose with a smattering of pale freckles. "What about you," I say, "what brings you out here?"
She shakes the hair out of her face. "Oh, I just like to breathe the air and enjoy the quiet... see what comes along," and with that she turns and carries on along the path.
I look back to see her again and catch the briefest glimpse of her looking back too.
***
That evening I'm looking through the shots I took, but I can't concentrate. Her face obscures my vision, those eyes looking at me, her glossy lips with a little curl of a smile at the corner. I make myself a cup of tea and take it up to bed, a little read in the snug before lights out, but again my concentration is drawn away by the vision of her, so I have to keep rereading passages.
In the end I give up and settle down to sleep, but the darkness makes it all even worse, her face, her being are like bright lights in the room, and as I remember the way she moved, her voice, I feel the stirrings of arousal.
***
Thinking back over the times our paths have crossed I realise that we've always met at more or less the same time. She must be a creature of habit, whereas my walks are more erratic, and determined by the light out over the coastline. I decide to head out more often around the time that she's generally out, sevenish, in the evening.
Later on that day I get myself prepared, put a little bit more effort into my wash and scrub and spray on some nice smelly. I set off eagerly, hoping that I might see her again, and sure enough about half an hour along the path, she appears. As we approach one another I smile and say hello.
"Hello again," she says, "and sure but don't you smell good," her smile is mischievous, little wrinkles by her eyes. "Did you make the effort for me?"
I'm slightly taken aback at how easy I must be to read.
"Well," I said, "I kind of hoped that I might bump into you, you know,"
"Bump into me?" she said, "like an accident?"
"Sort of," I said.
"Nice timing for an accident though, wouldn't you say?"
I don't know how to answer her, shuffling a little bit, slightly embarrassed.
"Well," she says, "we're here now are we not. Would you like to walk a way with me?"
We walk together up to the headland for the view, and she chats with me while I take a few pictures. We get along nicely, neither of us forced or awkward, not exactly having the craic, but feeling one another out gently. After a while she looks at her watch. "I've to be going soon," she says, "I was wondering would you take my picture just there," pointing to a little cove maybe a hundred metres down below, "I'll send it to my ma, she'd bring me there when I was small."
"Of course I will," I say, and she smiles. We pick our way down and she sits herself down against a rock, and gives me time to line up a good shot, the atlantic rolling in in big heavy waves, a cloudy sky just turning to colour, and her almost a silhouette but with the curves of her features picked out by the light. She comes and stands close to look at the picture, and as I show it to her she lifts up on tiptoes and kisses me on the mouth. "Thankyou," she says.
I taste the salt from the sea on my lips. A little bit of her scent, something floral and fresh reaches my nostrils. "Thank you," I reply.
Back up on the headland she says goodbye and she's gone, just like that. I think to shout after her what about your picture, but my voice would be lost to the wind. I wait and watch as she grows smaller in the distance until she's rounded the cliff and is gone from sight. I lick my lips and hurried home.
***
I work on a few edits of her picture while dinner is in the oven but keep reverting back to the original. I leave her on screen while I eat and afterwards I open a bottle of white and return to studying her. I zoom in and look at every pore that is visible, perfect, as perfect as can be. Before bed I print two copies, one for her on the kitchen table, and one for me. I take mine up to bed with me.
I put on the bedside lamp and snuggle down, the picture in my hand. Outside the wind is howling, and in the cosy warm of my bed I feet the stirrings of desire.
I don't intend for it to happen but my penis begins to enlarge. I reach in and stroke it while I study her face. In the picture she's looking away, and I wonder why I didn't photograph her looking into the lens.
I want to masturbate so badly, but I decide against it, the act seeming somehow wrong, so I put the photograph down on the bedside table and switch off the lamp for sleep.
But her image stays there with me in the darkness, and my dick won't shrink away. I delve down into my pyjamas again and begin to stroke and rub myself gently. I imagine her turning to me and remember her kiss, quick and firm, the taste of the sea and her eyes so close.
My rhythm increases as I imagine that it were her hand down there, not mine. In my mind our lips are pressing together, the tips of our tongues exploring one another, and with only a few minutes passed my penis swells and the I'm coming and coming. I carry on stroking myself, milking out the last few drops. I turn onto my side to sleep and close my eyes
As my dreams come she whispers in the night.
***
The next day she isn't there, on the path. I've brought out the photograph with me, but she doesn't appear, nor the next, nor the day after that. A week passes by and I'm beginning to feel frantic. I tell myself that I'm being silly, for christ's sake I don't even know her name, but after every walk I put her picture up on the mantlepiece and I can't focus on anything other than her.