she is startled awake by something
heart pounding
the sheet tangled around her soaked
she looks around her studio apartment
she is the only one there
nothing is out of place
her cat meows as she trips over him on her way to the bathroom for a drink
she flips the light on
and notices her reflection in the mirror
a gasp escapes her lips
her neck is a kaleidoscope of colors
red
blue
purple
brown
tiny blood vessels broken due to a drastic change in pressure
she reaches up to touch one of the marks
it is tender
and it stings a bit under the weight of her fingers
a smile spreads across her face
as she remembers what happened two nights ago
and realizes what is wrong
something is missing
he is missing
she lays back down in her bed
and feels completely alone with out him next to her.
she closes her eyes and tries to remember
the smell of his hair
the touch of his skin
the look in his eyes
the sound of his breathing
the taste of his lips
she sighs and rolls over
curling up into a ball
and tries to recall that night
they were walking back to her apartment
after drinking at a friends place
it was late
around 2:30 am
they were walking down the street
holding hands
talking
during an awkward silence in conversation
he asks if he may be bold
she answers yes
he stops suddenly
turning her to face him
leans in
and kisses her on the lips
when they break apart
a smile is on both of there faces
when they reach her apartment
the awkwardness returns
they get ready to sleep
and she puts a movie in to break the silences
as they lay there side by side
all she can think about is touching him
but for some reason
she cannot bring herself to reach out
so she lays there
as still as she can
faking concentration on the screen
wishing that he would move