Some readers requested a background on the previously posted story 'Iron Rain' I hope you enjoy and this makes things clearer.
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Late December 2010
The Bastion Military Academy was silent in the late hours of pre-dawn. The cadets were asleep and blissfully unaware of the terrible event that was to befall one of their own. Corporeal William Bell had managed to sneak out and perform a deed most foul. The stars of heaven began to fade one by one as the perfect black of night was diluted with a deep indigo. As the clock ticked relentlessly forward patches of violet and sapphire began to splatter the celestial canvas. With a suddenness of breaking dawn a deep ruby color replaced the last vestiges of ebony and burnt orange raced across the sky as the eastern horizon all golden was pregnant with the promise of the coming sun. Shafts of true daylight stabbed over the ancient tree line that edged the parade ground and the virgin snow that lay near perfect in the light of the day star. But in the middle of the field burned another light full of blazing white intensity that rivaled the sun as the magnesium engulfed the kneeling figure and burnt it to ash.
On that bleak December morning the cry was taken up... FIRE! FIRE!
Captain Nicholas T. Shaw was awakened by the shouting voices and as he sat up in bed he almost missed the envelope that fell off the covers where it had been placed there hours before. Rubbing the sleep from his eyes he absently collected the envelope and placed it on his pillow before dressing hurriedly and racing off to help with containing the fire. When he reached the pyre Nick knew this was no accident. One set of footprints lead unerringly to the site of the conflagration and none returned. He made sure no one contaminated the scene, so that the police could investigate this tragedy as untainted as possible.
"Everyone back to the dorms, Sergeant I want a head count ASAP we need to know if anyone is missing... just in case." Nicholas ordered feeling a growing sense of dread in the pit of his stomach. "I've got a bad feeling about this..."
Nick headed back to his dorm room and scooped up the letter and examined it. The elegant hand writing on the front identified the author immediately, it was William. He turned over the envelope and as if to remove any doubt was the wax seal with the fleur-de-lis surrounded by seven stars pressed into the wax the color of dried blood. He sat down on his bunk and pondered if he should open the letter or not. This was potentially evidence but this note was meant for him after all. With trembling hands he broke the wax seal and lifted the folded parchment from the envelope. For all of William's intelligence and love of computer science there was a part of him lost in the past. Nick wiped the tears from his eyes and read the letter.
Dearest Nicholas, I am glad we were friends. You protected me when it seemed like the entire world had turned its back on me. When others pointed and stared at the 'autistic' kid you were a true and loyal friend. You are my hero! I was hoping to stand with you and our friends at graduation but sadly that is not to be. My father phoned and informed me that he had pulled strings and even though my handicap would have normally kept me out of the regular work force he landed me a job with the government, the NSA to be exact. Me work for the feds I don't think so. All I wanted was to go home, see my family and work on the better computer. I have taken the liberty of moving my personal belongings and our pet project to your locker, I hope you don't mind. You will also find my ring beneath your pillow; please do me the honor of wearing it in memory of our friendship. Who knows we might meet again in another life? Your friend CPL William Bell. P.S. This letter will self destruct in thirty seconds I hope.
With a sudden whoosh of white flame the parchment was ash in his hands. Nick drew back at the suddenness of the eruption of cold fire. He shook his head and smiled a gentle smile for his friend who despite all his adversity had lived and died on his own terms. He would miss William, a lot but knew without a shadow of a doubt he was in a better place than this. Nick reached under his pillow and retrieved the signet ring that lay there and held it in the palm of his hand. It was a thing of beauty and craftsmanship, how did William describe it again... oh yes old world quality. The dull gray metal was fashioned with love and great pride, the top was flat and still held a little of the wax that William had used to seal his letter with. Absently he scraped the last of the residue away and slowly slipped the ring onto his finger. It was a good fit and comforting somehow. While he wore the ring William wasn't really gone, not entirely.
The counselor sat behind her desk and perused Nick's profile while she absently chewed on the non-business end of her pen. She raised her head and gave him a wan smile and paused for a long moment before speaking.
"Nicholas... how well did you know William?"
"We were very good friends."
"Do you blame yourself for what happened?"
"Not at all, why do you ask?"
"Your file says that the reason for your arrival at the Bastion was due to the death of your mother."
Nick stiffened and the color ran from his face.
"I'm sorry..." the counselor began to apologize but he cut her off.
"Never apologize... it's a sign of weakness. Besides that is ancient history."
"Is it, your reaction seemed a little more than ancient history, tell me what happened and maybe I can help."
"My mom got sick, she died and I lost my fucking mind! I did a lot of stupid things and my dad did what he thought best and sent me here."
"So you don't blame your father for your mom's death?"
She saw his jaw tighten up and his fists clench as he chose his response carefully.
"He couldn't help it if he was gone all the time. He couldn't help it she got sick. He wasn't responsible for my actions after she died."
"Is that what you tell yourself or is that what you believe?"
Nick looked as if he had been slapped and lowered his head as he let her words sink in. What did he believe? Did he blame his father? Mom had asked for him so often and at the end she forgave him. But he hadn't had he? No... deep down he hated that fucker that was always gone on business. Nick felt the tears of anger, loss and bitterness well up and before he could rein it back in... his body shook as he wept. Suddenly he was being held and all the anger and bitterness felt like it was leeched out of him. He did blame himself for her death... and William's. There had to have been something he could have done to protect William from his father... from being sent off to Washington D.C. to work for the government.
"It's all MY fault!!!" Nick's voice cracked as he spat out those terrible words.
"No it's not Nicholas... she got sick... he lost hope... beyond your control..."
Her words were more terrifying than his. Her words drew out the psychic venom in his heart and laid it bare in the undeniable light of truth. He couldn't have prevented it. Even if his father had been there she still would have died. William wanted to die! The burden he had carried all these years was gone... maybe it took Williams death to force him to face the truth about his mother. Another senseless passing that could not have been prevented no matter what Nick had done or not done. When he opened his eyes the counselor was sitting down smiling over at him.
"Better?" she asked.
Nick nodded and reached for the tissues and wiped his eyes and blew his nose.
"Why now... why did it all come out now?" Nick asked.
"You were ready I guess," she smiled again. "I only told you the truth it was up to you to accept or reject it. I am glad you let go of that guilt."
"Me too... I still hate the fact that my dad wasn't there for her. But maybe he and I can work on that after I graduate."