Getting Married! Dream Come True?

My name is Tricia. I don't know if I'm the luckiest young woman in the world or whether I am heading for disaster. I'm 21 and have a boyfriend named Josh. We met in college and have been dating now for 3 years. I do love him. I know I'm lucky and I've always wanted to get married. I had even picked out a dress and the place and the color for our wedding. I've told Josh a little about all this, just in hopes that it would move him along towards proposing.

But life has taken such a turn now. Josh is not at his place so I take out my key and enter. I know his roommate is not there right now as well. What I'm looking to find should be in his room. Either in his night stand or in the pants he would have worn when he saw me last. I start going through them.

Josh is good to me, he's been working a retail job and I've been working as a bartender-server at a country club. It's there that I came across someone. This one day, I'd seen him at different times throughout the day. It was very odd. First I saw him in with the directors of the country club, then sitting outside eating lunch. But it was when he was at the gym that I really tried to put it all together.

He was definitely over 40. While he wasn't in perfect shape he still had a very manly presence. His muscle had tone, he seemed to have a purpose, though I didn't know what that was just yet. At dinner time, he plopped down at a table by himself in my serving area. He was going over something on his laptop when I came to take his order. He smiled at me and already knew what he wanted when I arrived there. After he gave me his order, he asked me how I liked working there. I said it was fine and it paid my share of the rent and a night out here or there. Then I couldn't resist asking any longer. I asked him what he'd been doing around the country club, knowing that then he'd know that I'd taken notice of him.

He said that his name was Sean and he worked for the IT company which systems ran the club. It's really quite sophisticated in that it tracks the members, where they are, who their friends are and even what their favorite drinks and food are. He was dressed nicely, definitely a professional. And while I didn't really know what he was talking about, I felt the presence that he had in the gym also came across when you met and spoke to him. He looked you in the eye, and took an interest in you as well.

By the time I was settling his bill, he'd asked me what was going on that evening.

I'd said that one of my friends had just had a breakup and we were going just the girls to a dance club to let loose. I was just finishing right now and one of the friends was going to stop and pick me up as the club was almost an hour away.

He wished me a fun evening and we parted ways, him to the lobby of the club to read, me to wait outside.

And I waited, and waited. I eventually came in to escape the heat and I noticed Sean still reading. He looked up in surprise as I entered and asked what happened.

I explained that my friend had ghosted me and was not responding to call or texts. I later learned that here work needed her to do a rush order and she had to drop everything... literally. Including her phone.

Sean stood up without hesitation he said "I'll take you, wait out front" I was going to say no thank you, but he was already walking away and... I really needed the ride. The other 2 girls were already at the club! And I just learned what would be normal for Sean and I for this evening. That being he doesn't ask and I don't stop him.

When Sean pulled out front, it was a really nice car. Not an exotic sports car, but I certainly knew he was not working for minimum wage, either. Far from it. He smiled as I got in and asked which club.

On the way, we just talked about normal things. My school, his job & life on the road, vacations and our plans for the summer. It's funny that the fact that I had a boyfriend never came up. He asked me a lot of things, but not one question where I'd even thought about inserting Josh's name into the conversation. He made me laugh with some of the stories of his dogs who stayed with his family while he traveled, and I could finally meet his eye contact when I smiled.

But the conversation turned when he asked what we were doing after the club. It had just struck me then that the friend who had not showed up was to take each of us home in her car. The others had gotten rides there from family. At this point, Sean said he'd not had anything to do this evening and he would read at the bar while we enjoyed ourselves. Again, didn't ask and I didn't stop him.

I didn't make any deal of it, I just smiled and blushed and said that I was definitely not going back to my place tonight and would stay with my friends.

As we entered the dance club, my friends were all very cordial and I explained to them how gracious Sean had been. Of course as soon as Sean was walking away on his way to the bar, the girls were teasing me about him. Not bad for an older guy or.. oh, Josh is going to be jealous. But it soon faded into the background. We got a few dances in - just enough to get the blood pumping before we made our way to the bar.

Sean had taken up a small table, one of the few on the far side, so I gave him a little smile and wave as I stepped up to the bar and unzipped my purse to find a credit card. We put in our order and upon returning with the drinks, the bartender said that all 3 of us had been opened a tab by Sean and could use it as we like.

My 2 giggly girlfriends each went over to give a shrill eek and a hug for Sean. He smiled and said "No problem." then we went back to see some friends that had unexpectedly come to the same club. It went on this way for several dances.

Having an open tab took it's toll on my girlfriends. They were certainly going downhill before long. I was more reserved. I was so gracious to Sean that I didn't want to do anything stupid.

As it got later, of course guys started to make their way my way. One who danced with me was very good. And when you're with a good dancer your mind often wanders to sex. But it wasn't the man dancing with me who came to mind when sex invaded my brain. It was Sean. I thought about what I'd seen of him earlier in the day at the gym. I pushed the thought out of my mind for a while, I was with Josh after all!

But the thoughts kept coming back. I noticed Sean was smiling a small wry smile as I caught his glance. But it wasn't until i made my way back to the bar that he approached me to say "You know, it seems you and that guy got something going on if you want me to take the other 2 girls home."

This caught me totally off guard and I quickly recovered with a laugh saying "No, and Hell no!" At that moment, our looks at each other seemed to take on more meaning. We smiled and joked with each other for a bit before I made my way back to the floor.

When we finally burned out, us 3 giggling girls went back to Sean to say we were ready. We all crowded up to him to show our appreciation and little kisses and hugs. As we piled into his car, the party atmosphere continued.

The 3 of us in the back, joking about our Chauffeur. I mentioned that I may stay with them cause I didn't want to go back to my apartment. And going to Josh's was way out of the question.

As we arrived at their place, I felt the blood going to the top of my head. What to do now? They opened the door and we all got out. Sean paused. I gave each of them a hug as my decision was made. I couldn't believe what I was doing. I opened the passenger door and stepped back in the car. Giving Sean a small kiss on the cheek as I landed in the seat. He smiled as we drove off.

It was still a good trip back toward the country club. and we talked a little. but this time about music and partying and just fun things. Within a mile of the country club, Sean turned into a hotel and up to a door. My heart skipped a beat as he put his hand around my shoulder for the short walk to the door.

As he opened it, I noticed it was a nice suite and was outfitted well, He motioned to the sofa as he walked to the small kitchen. He'd remembered the drink that I had been having at the club and brought that and a glass of water to me. I thanked him for the water and I drank it greedily as my buzz from the club had mostly left me. Then I took a few sips from the drink and set it down as he had.

As I turned to face Sean, there was no hesitation from him. He'd brought his hand up under my chin and as his lips met mine, mine parted as an acceptance of his offer. From there his hand moved from my chin to... pretty much wherever he wanted. He never paused, and I never stopped him.

We were already breathing heavy when he finally rose and grabbed my hand to lead me to the bedroom. When I entered, Sean got behind me and started helping me out of the clubbing dress. As it fell to the floor, his hand came behind my back and led me to the bed as he kissed me. After being laid down in the bed, Sean took over completely from there.

I thought maybe he would stop as this was our first time together, but as I felt his fingers hook my panties, I knew it was going to be so much more.

At this point my daydream ended. I'm back in Josh's apartment reflecting on my night with Sean. This is so wrong ,but somehow meant to be. I needed to find what I was looking for before Josh or his roommate returned. Going through all his dirty clothes was disgusting. Though I had to finish this task I came for and put my life back in order.

But as it does often, my mind starts to wander... After my night with Sean, Josh and I did get together 2 nights later. It was a bit awkward knowing what I did, but we soon fell back into our familiar routine. Both in our relationship and having sex that evening. I remember wishing that Josh would go down on me like Sean had. I'd never came on a mans tongue before Sean. He did this thing where he would suck my clit up into his mouth and let it pop out. The thought of it turned me on even though I was with Josh now.

When Josh entered me from behind, my thoughts once again returned to Sean. I pulled my hair back much like Sean had done, though he did what Josh never did and grabbed my hair in a fist and used it for leverage when thrusting into me from behind. But before I could complete my daydream thought, Josh was fumbling for me to flip over and enter me missionary.

Now muscle memory kicked in as I moved my knees back toward my shoulders. Josh stopped and asked me what I was doing as he usually just spread my legs as he flopped back and forth on top of me. Not like Sean who pinned my legs back so I was completely exposed and open to him.

With Sean, he had moved slow and I could see his length move in and out of me. And he would grind on me when he was all the way in that felt oh so good. I missed Sean just then. I missed how even when he stopped to kiss me. He'd press up against me. Not just chest to chest, but I felt full and he pressed against me inside. I came thinking of Sean. It must have set of Josh cause he made his little squeaking noise and shot into his condom.

Oh, yes, condom. daydream over, and back at Josh's apartment. I finally found them in a pair of Josh's pants and set to work. I pocketed the extras just leaving one. Then I paused. I couldn't believe I was doing this.. and started to daydream again.

It must have been almost a week after being back with Josh, but I was feeling off. A little dizzy and my period was late. Somehow I already knew but the EPT test just confirmed it. Pregnant. Trying to deal with it, I just sat in my apartment and stared blankly at the TV. A nature show came on and the stereotypical show about a pride of lions and as I watched, It came to me why this had all flowed so naturally and I was not surprised nor too upset.

I had met the alpha male, he had put all thoughts of other males out of my head and I'd presented myself to him. When the alpha reaches his climax, his instinct is to project his bloodline. To take the female he'd seduced and conquer her, planting his seed in her to mark his territory and establish dominance.

I remembered thinking about Sean that way, how although he started easy enough with me in missionary, before long Sean had my knees pinned back and was pounding me. I came at least twice. And it was animalistic. Sean had finally leaned back and groaned almost roaring as I felt spray after spray inside of me. Even though I was so scared, I still got wet at the thought.

Back out of the daydream. I open the little knife I'd brought and pierce slit the condom through the package. I just hope that Josh thrusts enough times to break it next time we have sex. I need it to be obvious that it happened. If it doesn't, I'll just have to try again. I've already checked out some dates at the place I want to get married and this can work quickly if all the pieces fall into place.

As I put the knife away, I pull my phone out of my pocket and go to the text history. That night at the club, we'd asked Sean to take a picture of us. He did but he also must have sent it to himself. So it also went to a number in my chat history that I did not recognize. The area code was from the same city Sean said he was from. So I assume that was his number. He must have wanted a memory of the night for himself.

My head is swimming as I type in to the text. Is it that I want Sean to know about it. Or maybe I wanted one more night of ecstasy before I started to show . Or maybe more. I don't know but the next chapter is going to start as I type the one word - three letters into the text and hit enter. "Hey"