It had been months since Gene and I had begun talking on the net and though we were both a bit apprehensive about it we decided to meet. The restaurant was a nice, simple affair and there was no pressure on either side to take steps any further than just this...talking, laughing and relaxing with a newfound friend..
As we first sat down, I glanced at my watch, wondering how long I could handle being out and the center of attention as usually I was quite shy and almost always felt very inept at conversation. Looking across at Gene, I saw a man who was both good looking and who knew more about me than most of my "real" friends did. A part of me was feeling apprehensive and yet another part was excited with this meeting. I thought, he seems so easy to talk to on the net and the phone, is there going to be any difference now that we are face to face?
We spent hours talking and both found ourselves losing time as we focused on the enjoyment of each other's company. I was surprised to find the waiter back at our table and tactfully telling us that the restaurant would be closing shortly. We both glanced around and I was embarressed to see that we were the only ones left. Both Gene and I laughed about it as he and I were headed for the door. Neither of us had ever had something like that happen before!
In the parking lot, we seemed to just gravitate towards each other and he wrapped his arms around me and gave me a close hug. I tipped my head up as he bent his down and we shared a hesitant experimental kiss. Neither of us had planned for this to happen but I think deep down inside, we both were really hoping for it.
As Gene started to suggest "Would you like to..." I was asking "What do you think about...." both of us stopped and laughed at each other.
I said "You go first, hon."
Gene asked, "Would you think me so bad to ask if you would like to go back to my room so we can talk some more?"
I looked up at him and grinned as I said "Sure...On ONE condition"
Gene kinda looked a bit surprised and said "What is that?"
I said, "Only if I can have some more kisses."
At this, Gene laughed and said, "You can have ANYTHING you want, Gayle!"
I followed him to his motel, my heart pounding in my chest and my hands feeling all sweaty and cold at the same time. I wondered if Gene felt the same way I did and was willing to take the next step and if he was nervous at all. Meanwhile, in his car, Gene was wondering if he had read my signals right or if I was just flirting around without really meaning anything by it. He was ALSO nervous. This was NOT something he had ever done before and it was exciting as well as scary.
When we reached the motel, Gene pulled his key card for his room out of his wallet and slid it to unlock the door. If I hadnt been watching closely, I would have missed the slight shake that was there. That put my mind at ease very quickly and I relaxed and took a deep breath in anticipation.