China Kiss is an occasional series of one-off tales about the lives of expatriates in China and their romantic and sexual encounters. Each tale is stand-alone which means that they can be read in any order and there are no recurring characters. They are similar in style though, so if you like one, you will hopefully like the others as well. They aim to celebrate cultural differences rather than fetishize them.
Thanks as always to my beta readers Mal_Bey and 29wordsforsnow for all their help.
I managed to get to the concert hall just before the doors closed, but barely. There had been some kind of event happening at the expo centre next door and 'five-minutes away' had turned into forty-five very quickly.
My seat was one of the cheaper seats behind the orchestra as usual. It was in the middle of the row, so I had to disturb everyone as I worked my way down to the seat. I found myself sitting between an elderly gentleman and a young girl rather primly dressed and who was probably about university age. She seemed familiar. I must have been to enough of these concerts that I was starting to recognize the crowd.
I was expecting the lights to go down more or less immediately I sat down, but instead there was a delay. The sound system continued to broadcast the usual messages about being quiet and not recording the performance, first in Mandarin and then in English.
I'd gone through the list of concerts for the whole season with Nora, my assistant, at the beginning of the year with her translating the composers phonetically one by one. I'd selected about half of them. My Outlook calendar had reminded me that there was a concert today, but Nora had since gone on maternity leave and I'd left my own list of what was when back at home. As a result, I had no idea what I was going to be watching this evening.
As I waited, I turned to look at the girl by my side again. She gave me the impression of being quiet. That might be an odd thing to say as this was a concert, and quietness was expected. Perhaps it was because she was on her own, or maybe it was her general dress and demeanour. She had long uncomplicated hair and big round glasses and the kind of face you imagined always being top of the class. For all that, she was pretty but understated. The more I looked at her the more I was sure I'd seen her here before.
"Excuse me," I said. "Do you speak English?"
She smiled back at me. "Yes. A little."
Everybody from the younger generation always responded the same way to this question, but from the speed and comfort with which she said it, I got the impression she spoke more than just a little.
"Could I see your programme?" I asked. I'd normally have picked one up on my way in, but I'd been rushing to get in before I was shut out.
She handed it over. I scanned the list quickly and handed it back to her. "Thanks. Some good pieces tonight," I said. "Anything you are particularly looking forward to?"
"Well, it's a strange choice of combinations. Brahms and Wagner played together even though the two men couldn't stand each other and their styles of music are very different. Personally, I'm not a huge fan of Wagner's operas -- yes, there's good bits but you have to sit through a lot to get to them. The
Siegfried Idyll
is a good way to enjoy him though, but I'm really here for the Brahms. He's the master of variations and the Theme of Haydn, or whatever you want to call it these days, is a work of absolutely genius. The way he takes that core melody, breaks it down and then over twenty minutes puts it back together eight completely different ways, well after that there was not a lot more anyone can do with the form."
I looked at her in surprise. That was probably the most flowingly erudite utterance I'd heard in English since arriving in the county. It would be nice to be able to have a proper conversation about music. That had been more of an information dump, though.
She suddenly broke out into a blush, maybe realizing she's said a bit too much. "And then the Tchaikovsky piece afterwards, of course. The guest violinist is supposed to be very good, I've heard."
"A fellow Brahmsian. I can see we're going to be friends," I said.
"Really? I'd like that," she said.
I'd only really intended it as a polite joke, but the excited way she said it, almost made
me
blush.
I was saved from having to respond by the lights finally coming down and the orchestra coming on stage. It had only been formed about five years ago, at the same time as the impressive four performance hall arts centre. Even so, I'd been consistently impressed by the quality of the performances. Forty minutes passed in a magical instant.
When the lights came up again for the intermission, I took a bathroom break and picked up my own copy of the programme. I idly skimmed through the notes in English. My neighbour apparently hadn't based any of her previous speech on them, which only made me doubly impressed.
I took my seat again, smiling at my young neighbour as I did so. "Hi. I'm Thomas," I said, offering her my hand.
"Pleased to meet you. I'm Caiwei, but you can call me Jacqueline. Or Jackie for short."
"English major?" I asked. "No, music major would make more sense."
She nodded. "Right."
"Instrument or is your Italian as good as your English? Let me guess...Cello?"
"How did you know?"
"Well, all the most beautiful women play the cello," I said teasingly. That was probably a bit too corny too soon. She looked as if she was about to die of embarrassment. "And your English name was a bit of a clue as well."
She relaxed at that. "You come here often," she said. It wasn't a question. "I've seen you around a lot."
Normally I'd have been flattered that she'd noticed me, but in this country I tended to stick out. Not just because I was six feet tall, but also my thick beard tended to draw a lot of attention as did the way that I dressed. It wasn't that I made a special effort to wear something special for the performance, I was usually rushing from work and, as a result, had to keep my business suit on.
"I have a question," she continued. "Cheap seats, expensive suit? Something doesn't add up."
"It's a habit I formed in my student days when, yes, I did need to save money. I prefer sitting facing the conductor so I can see his face and motions better. Plus if you sit right behind the double basses, you get a much deeper sound. Usually. It can backfire if you have a drum heavy piece. Plus the more expensive the ticket, the worse the company you keep, in my experience."
"I see. You didn't come to the Bruckner last week," she said. Again, not a question - almost an accusation.
"God, no." I said. "I can't stand him. Far too overblown and bombastic."
"I agree," she said. "And the drums -- way too loud. I usually get tickets for the balcony, but I decided to try here for a change."
So, last week, she'd gone to a concert she didn't like and this week she was still in the section she hadn't enjoyed. Call me vain or call me paranoid, but I was starting to develop a theory about Jackie. But maybe it was just my ego.
"Are you married?" she asked suddenly. "I mean, it seems your wife never comes."
Bingo. Not just ego then.
"Divorced," I said simply. I wasn't going to elaborate further at the moment and didn't need to since the light went down again at that moment.
About five minutes in the first movement, I felt her hand brush up against mine and then a moment later, rest on top. I let it stay there and after a moment, splayed my fingers slightly so she could link hands with me.
We sat watching the performance -- me occasionally looking down at her and her occasionally looking up at me. She seemed to naturally smiling whenever our eyes met. I smiled back a few times, but felt self-conscious. Although I was happy, smiling felt fake. I settled into giving her hand a soft squeeze every now and then.
The concerto was wonderful, but inevitably, the wind-down seemed to last forever. The conductor and soloist returned to the stage several times and eventually the guest violinist performed not one but two encores. Normally this would be very welcome, but my mind was on other things.
When the whole orchestra departed for good and the audience was also starting to rise from its seats, we got the chance to speak again.
"It was nice having someone to watch the concert with," I said. I scratched my beard trying to remember. "What's the next one?"