This story continues from the earlier chapter, and both take place after the contraceptive pill was available but before the internet. Commercial sex toys were not easily available, especially in rural Wales.
Friday evening
After work on Friday, I trudged along the unpaved track to our small house in the woods. It was a warm summer evening. I found Joyce slumped in a chair, red-eyed, she had obviously been crying. I am good at fixing things but less good at comforting people. I picked her off the chair and sat her in my lap with my arms around her. She clung onto my neck and sobbed.
"Tell me. Is it something that I've done to hurt you?" She shook her head. "Is it something you've' done?" Another head shake. "Please tell me."
She slid off my lap and returned with a folded document, her birth certificate. She sniffed "I need it to get a National Insurance Number. Look at it. I wrote to Mum in Ireland, and she sent it without even a letter."
"Perhaps she was in a hurry," I suggested.
"No, look at it." I did, it looked okay to me, so I just raised my eyebrows and looked puzzled. I did say that sympathy was not my strong suit.
"My Aunt is my mother," she blurted out. My Dad is my father, but Mum is not my mother. Auntie was always around and lived with us. Dad must have made Auntie pregnant, and they pretended it was Mum. It is a punishment for what we are doing. It's a punishment for my sins, for being with you." She started sobbing uncontrollably.
I got up and made us a cup of tea. The British solution to all woes. "Joyce, you know that you are not responsible for what your parents did before you were even born. I understand why you are upset, tell me anything that I can do to make you feel better."
"I know that it's not really my fault," she retorted angrily, "But I feel dirty and guilty. What can you do about that? What possible penance can I do to make me feel better? I don't think I can let myself keep loving you. I don't know what to do. How can you possibly fix that?" she added mournfully.
I sat for several long minutes, thinking while she sniffled and sobbed. I said to her, "There are two types of punishment penance. Either denying something you want like food or sleep; or giving you something you don't want like pain or working to exhaustion. You will get both types until you feel cleansed. Drink your tea, wash your face, change those jeans for a skirt and then make my dinner. Do it now."
She seemed relieved to have something positive to do. A short time later she returned looking slightly better. While she was cooking dinner, I explained that the first part of the punishment was denying something that she wanted. "Take off your knickers."
"I told you I don't want to love you, I don't think that I should have sex with you, it would feel like making a sin even worse."
"You are not going to decide, you are not going to get enjoyable sex, you are being punished, this is a penance. Penitents do things that make them uncomfortable. Take off your knickers." She took them off with bad grace. "You decided that you need to suffer. Until you convince me you have excised these demons so that you feel better, I will punish you. Take off your shirt as well...
She put our dinners onto plates and sat down at the table. The expressions on her face were switching between defiance, anger, sorrow, and shame. I quietly told her that I liked looking at her tits so she should tuck the top of her bra under her breasts. She glared back at me while she did it, so I reminded her that it was not to make her excited, but for my pleasure. Despite that, her nipples rapidly hardened. As we ate, her breathing became shallower, and her skin flushed slightly.
"Why are we doing this?" I asked
"To punish me, it's my penance."
"That is why you want this. Why am I doing it?"
She thought for a while and then said in a hopeful voice, "To make me feel better?"
I took her head in my hands and gave her a powerful kiss. "Yes, to make you feel better and to get my happy Joyce back. I will keep going until
you can convince me that you feel better
."
I finished eating and moved to an armchair. "Will you get me a bottle of beer please?" She hurried away and stood beside me with the bottle. I placed my hand on her leg and reminded her that part of her penance was to deny her something that she wanted. As I held my beer in one hand, the other stroked the inside of her thigh, sliding up to but not touching her pussy. She started to pull away, "Stay," I said firmly. "Move your feet apart and stay still."
My hand slid to the outside of her leg and up to her hip, under her skirt. Then across her hip bone, across her lower belly and back again. "This is for my pleasure, and your penance. Do not cum, do not move, stay quiet." I finished my drink and with a hand on each hip, I moved her to stand in front of me. I undid the belt of her skirt, then lowered the zip and undid the button. It started to slide towards the floor, and she made a grab for it; I slapped her hand away. "Hands behind your neck if you can't behave," I told her softly. She was now only wearing a bra that displayed, rather than hid her nipples. I was pleased that she had kept her cunt shaved and her pussy lips had started to swell.