Laura loved her little truck. His name was Otto on account of him being German and kind of cute. It was a big enough for her dog but small enough to cut corners and slice around curves. Otto wasn't necessarily powerful but he got up and going quickly. If it weren't for the traffic light less than thirty seconds into her escape she would have been on the freeway approaching 90 headed for work and never would have ended up thinking, and inspired to take the unexpected turn that led her through the neighborhood and back to the studio.
She couldn't go back to work though, not looking like this. With time on her hands waiting for the green she made the mistake of dropping the visor and opening the mirror. Her hair was a tangled mess as it started to dry, her face had been washed clean of makeup. She didn't necessarily see how anyone could tell what she had been doing a few minutes ago but she was sure people could always tell. What kind of woman blows a married man in a public shower on her lunch break? Jesus.
She wondered what he thought of her. Nothing good she supposed. She had her reasons but with the realization he knew none of them he could only believe her to be a tramp, a harlot, the type of woman that fucks married men. She didn't fuck him but she was going to. He was the one that stopped it from happening. She wasn't surprised. Not looking like this. Jesus.
How did he not know?
A horn behind her brought her back to the moment. She flipped up the visor. "Fuck a duck." She muttered and gunned the little red truck through a right turn. She wound briefly through a neighborhood coming out on the other side of the studio. She skipped the complete stop and all four wheels squeaked at her as the electronics kept the little truck on the line she had pointed it. She bounced up the drive into the lot. She waited impatiently for an old woman leaving the grocery store to pass in front of her. She could see him at his car. He was tall, his hair was equally messy but for a man that had to be more a matter of pride than an inconvenience. She spun the wheel to the left, the little motor didn't growl, it kind of whirled but she made enough noise to draw his attention. He walked over to her passenger door when she stopped beside her.
"You okay?" he asked her. It was just like him to show concern. She imagined what the first words would have been out of Josh's mouth if she had done something like this to him.
"Not really. You want a drink?"
"Maybe. Mostly I'm starving."
"I should be. I always am after Kathy's class. Kind of full though." She said without thinking. It made him smile. "Oh my god, if you say a word I am running over your feet.
"Where? You want me to follow you."
"Get in." she offered as an alternative. He opened the door and when he folded himself in the passenger seat little Otto suddenly didn't seem too roomy. She felt his eyes on her. One of two things was going through his mind. He either was deciding he as crazy being in a car with a lunatic like her or he was staring at her tits. She should have pulled her bra back on.
Overly self-conscience she gunned the little truck again and out of the corner of her eye she watched him grab onto the oh-shit handle. He seemed as uncomfortable with her driving as her son was. He needed to get over it.
You decide where you want to go?" he asked harmlessly enough. She felt badly about her reaction.
"I shouldn't go anywhere, Jesus, look at me." she began. She resisted to look at herself again. "I should be headed back to work. Speaking of that, I need to call them, remind me, 'K? So I am not headed back to work, I ran into you. I honest to god don't know what I was thinking. Wait, don't take that wrong. You are cute. Real cute. Too cute. Shut up, Laura. It wasn't about that though. I don't know what it was, I think probably just that you were still married. I bet if I wasn't all worked out and fuzzy headed from Kathy's class I would have just gone about my merry way but Oh no, not me. I had to get all worked up. It was good though right? You liked it. Don't answer that. Yeah, so, we can't go back to my house either. I mean, it would make sense. I could put on a bra. Yeah, I want clean clothes but I really am not the type of gal that can go without a bra. You know what I mean?" as if to make her point she half turned in her seat demonstrating her nipples tendency to reveal themselves. "But we really need to talk. That's what I came back for. I came back because, well, we need to talk and you need to know, maybe because then you wont think I'm crazy but mostly just so that you know because you should. How do you not know?" she looked at him briefly but then put her eyes on the road. He hadn't been looking at her, he was focused on the cars blowing past on the left and right sides of the car as she drove like a bullet through the barrel of a gun.
"Maybe after we talk, I don't know, I can run home, get some clothes, we could go get dinner. Oh, but you want to eat now. So yeah, lets table dinner. What the hell am I talking about. It's not like we are going to get dinner. I have never done this before. No, I mean, well, I've done that before, and I've gone for drinks before. I just haven't done it with you, or someone like you. A red light caused her to slap on the brakes. He was looking over at her when she checked on him.
"Say something. Right now. Before my brain explodes."
"Charlie's is dark, they have cheesesteaks."
"Are you going to fill me with Italian beef?" she asked. She thought it was funny.
"If you don't blow it." He answered.
She smiled at him, made a left turn against the light and swung into a parking spot in a mostly empty parking lot.
She went to the ladies room while he got a table. She pulled her hair back fastening it in a rubber band, the best she could do with what she had. She ran a quick line of lip-gloss across her top lip and kissy faced it into place. She looked more normal. Another rummaging of her purse came back with eyeliner and she added a quick highlight to each eye. She wasn't pretty but she was presentable.
"Go away." She said to her nipples. She took a deep breath and left the ladies room to find him. he had gotten the big booth in the corner. Typically it held families with gaggles of children but with the bar empty it allowed them to hide. He had sat on one side she took the other.
She liked that he had try to work his way out of the booth to stand up when she got to the table. She liked his eyes. She liked that he put his phone down and pushed it away from him. She liked that he had blue eyes, she liked that he did yoga. Worst of it all, she liked that he had said no. He hadn't completely rejected her of course, he wasn't all gentleman but he came close. She liked him.
She didn't like that she liked him. She didn't like that she was about to tell him. When the plump blonde girl approached them they ordered beers. Laura went one step further. She asked for a shot. She didn't know what kind. She didn't drink shots. Tyler ordered them Jack Daniels.
"I didn't think about the fact Amber would be here today."
"Amber?"
"The server. She knows me. She knows Nicole."
"I'm sorry. I should have thought about that. Should we go?"
"Too late now. Besides. I don't mind gossip."
"It can't be trusted."
"What did you want to tell me? I don't want to know, do I?"
"Here come the drinks." She said, stalling for time.
"I haven't done a shot in forever."
The girl sat the drinks down. There was a lot of nodding. She asked if there was anything else they needed. They both said no.
"Do you want the long version or like, just the main points."
"I feel stupid because sitting here with very limited new information I feel like I know already. I sat here the whole time you were in the bathroom wondering if I always knew but honestly, I really didn't." He paused and they toasted. He swallowed his shot and chased it with a long swallow of beer. She drank hers, let it burn, and then when she was finally confident she wasn't going to throw up took the slightest smallest sip.
"If I knew what I was going to put in my stomach today..." she said aloud, thinking maybe it would break the tension.
"Short and simple to start with. I don't think it will ruin the suspense of the long version."
"I'm not much of a story teller anyway." She said. This time she took a much longer drink. She was buying herself time. The few brief moments they sat looking at each other seemed to drag on for days.
"Your husband and my wife had an affair." He said finally. It caused a tear to slip out of the corner of her eye.
"I wasn't going to put it quite as nicely."
"Seems like I should have known."
"I think we all assumed you did. Seems funny now no one said anything."
She felt sadness for him. She could recall vividly how she felt. It was worse for her of course. She told him the story of it. "it was a playoff game and we were assigned to bring the Gatorade. Remember how they always needed snacks. Tommy played four years of varsity football. They did it for every game then too. It amused me. They aren't boys anymore, they are these big nasty sweaty men. They have to have their Gatorade though. So yeah, Josh was going to meet us at the game but it was like the bottom of the fourth inning and he wasn't there and he wasn't answering his phone. Remember. Grownups didn't send text messages yet, they just made phone calls. He wasn't answering so I just figured he was busy working. You get used it to it being married to a cop. I didn't think twice about running home." He was smiling at her. It made it harder to get through it.
"I got to the house and you know, his patrol car was there. So was her little gray car. I knew the car or course. It had the weird logo on it. We all thought it looked like a penis. Remember? I didn't open the garage. It was kind of like you earlier. You know how you knew even though you didn't know. I went in the front door rather than the garage. Is it bad that I was more worried they were doing it on my bed spread than that they were doing it."
She took a break to drink.
"Fucking. That was his defense. It wasn't a good one. She was still there. I think she was in shock, she didn't spring up or anything she just looked at me with her ass in the air. He told me, with his penis dangling there in mid air that I shouldn't be upset. They weren't together or anything... they were just fucking."
"I always thought she would be better with someone like that."
"Like what?" She didn't feel like defending her asshole ex-husband, she was just kind of curious. Lots of people had told her they could see it coming after it happened but no one was really front and center with any kind of warning before hand. "Like an earthquake." She said out of no where drawing a funny look from him.
"Somewhat that just fucks. She even has told me that, if you can believe it."
"You aren't like that?"
"I'm kind of more about all the other stuff. I don't know. I get the appeal and sure, I want to 'do it' as much as anyone but compared to the other stuff, it is just kind of the climax without a story. It's like watching an action movie with a crappy premise but a great chase scene. I kind of like the movie to be worth the investment."
"Messing around in the shower is better than a quickie?"
"Messing around in the shower was damn near perfect."
"You guys need another round?" Neither of them had really noticed the girl sneak up.
Ty ordered more beers, asked if she wanted another shot and she deferred to him saying she would if he would. He ordered shots and cheese steak sandwiches. Amber knew to hold the peppers.