I am now well over seventy years old, have known a happy and contented married life but have always kept - well hidden - the little diary where I recorded my sexual exploits during by bachelor years. The diary was usually written after the affair was over. In those days, I used it to wank during the lean years overseas when I did not have a partner. This tale records just one of my liaisons that took place in 1960.
We were in rural Indonesia: we were both voluntary aid workers. I was a teacher, she was a senior nurse, who had set up a training school for local nurses. We had been good natured friends for more than a year and I knew her background well. As a teenager, she had entered a nunnery with a view to taking her vows in due course. But she had left after a year- for reasons I did not know, so she was very mixed up. But she was a consummately professional nurse.
We had been working together for some time on a photographic exercise to make training aids for her nurses, so she often came to my house. At one stage, as we bent over the developing solutions in the red light of darkened room - for no particular reason - I just turned and kissed her, which was returned with extreme passion. We moved the kissing to the bedroom, where she allowed her blouse to be unbuttoned and her bra removed. She was thin - even emaciate.
Her breasts were long, soft and drooped and she only had small dark areolas. But her nipples were huge, long and dark brown; they were hard to my mouth. She was very hot, but very uncertain. Eventually I managed to remove her pants and my clothes. She had a massive unkempt mass of long pubic hair - black as night - a hard dense triangle of hair that thinned upwards towards her belly button and flowed like a forest over her mons, and thinned down onto of her thighs - never ever trimmed I am sure.
I moved back to kiss her lips and while we engaged in very deep kissing, she allowed my leg to part her thighs and eventually for my hand to caress her sex. She moaned with pleasure at every caress. But she was very jumpy - one moment she would invite more - the next she would resist me. I did not think she had ever had any kind of sex before.
I moved down to see what I could feel. Her vulva - like her bush - was huge. Fat lips - swathed in even denser hair - started high on her mons, thick wrinkled purple inner lips that tangled their way out through the thick mat of hair. All the time rubbing and pressing her mons, I parted her legs to expose a shaft fully a centimeter long, fat as my little finger and rock hard. Sprouting around her hood, the crinkled inner lips faded down to her cunt hole. A dense ring of hair surrounded her arse hole.
I touched her clitoris; she moaned and pushed my hand away, but I returned and pulled back the hood. Her shaft - pink and swollen - was the size of the end of my little fingernail. I managed to get one kiss on the end before she - grunting at the sensation - pulled my face away by my hair, then grabbed my hand and pulled it cover the whole cunt area. I tried again and again to enter her hole with my fingers, every time she stopped me.
She pulled me back to kiss her nipples - her whole areola was now engorged. Her breath was coming in great gasps and her whole body was heaving with desire. Meanwhile and without any style, she held and pulled my cock. I tried to put my fingers into her cunt, which I could feel and smell was soaking wet and ready. But she pushed my hand away.
I rubbed her shaft and she moaned with pleasure and guilt. But, then, she pushed my hand away. My hand roamed back - she wanted the pleasure, but was hounded by some guilt. Meanwhile, she kept pulling at my cock. Try as I might she would not let me in. But eventually, she flung open her knees and pulled back her hood with one hand, with the other, she dropped my cock and seized my scrotum, pulled it to her clitoris and used the soft skin of my sack to rub herself off.
In seconds, she came groaning and howling and crying and writhing to a climax of pleasure and guilt. I came spurting great masses of spunk copiously and remorselessly all over her hand and bush and cunt. It was a sad unsatisfactory experience.
I thought that-was-that, but she returned a couple of weeks later. She sat down opposite me in the living room and said she wanted to 'try' mutual physical love again. She was sorry she had made such a mess of things the previous time. Full of embarrassment, she eventually explained to me that, during her nunnery days, another novice had shown her how to masturbate.
This girl had explained how lucky she was to have such a prominent clitoris and how to use it. She had shown her the joys of filling her cunt with whatever was handy and her how to suck her own nipples - her breasts very long enough. The pleasure was wonderful. But, she had been told never to confess to this 'sin'. She did however confess to it and had been mentally chastised by her confessor and the other nuns to an unprecedented degree.
But the pleasure was so great that she began to masturbate almost every night. But afterwards she was always filled with guilt and did not know how to overcome the self-loathing. She never again confessed this sin. Her hymen had long been broken as she guiltily purloined whatever vegetable was in season to fill her vagina. So she was not afraid of the pain of love-making. And, as a nurse, she was not afraid of pregnancy. It was just the guilt brought about by her Catholic upbringing and indoctrination as a novice.
It was clear why she had left the nunnery. She said that until our previous liaison, she had never seen a man's cock, limp or engorged and had certainly never been aware of the volume, smell and consistency of a man's jism. She was now excited by the idea of love-making. I listened open-mouthed, but said I was more than willing to give it a 'try' again.
Then to my amazement, she unbuttoned her blouse, and took off her bra - exposing her soft white hanging breasts, with their long dark nipples, now soft. With both hands, she held up the breasts out in offering. In a trice, I was on my knees beside her chair and worshipping those breasts. I sucked on them, drawing nipple, areole, and breast deep into my mouth, softly biting on the tips until they were hard and long. First holding one breast then the other, I worried those nipples until she was panting.
I pulled her up and moved her to the bedroom, where she undid her skirt and pulled off her panties. I was again amazed at the wonderful full black bush that completely hid her sex. I was fully excited by now and was naked myself. I turned her around and again took her breasts in my hands. Then caressed down, until I felt that huge tangled bush and mons. I just pressed there and massaged her mons.