Matt was like my brother. He’d known me most of my life and had been looking out for me during most of that time. Matt was my step brother Steve’s best friend. He had been house sitting for my parents when my friends and I got arrested at a party for underage drinking. The police didn’t book me, they just took me to the station so my parents could deal with me. Little did they know that my parents never dealt with me, and they weren’t about to start dealing with me at 19, especially since I'd just graduated from college pretty early. They were in Europe during that time anyhow.
I remember sitting on the bench at that police mini station with my best friend Carrie passed out in my lap. I saw him walk in. As I looked at him, I realized that he was now more handsome than I had remembered. He was still tall, with a good build, light brown hair and eyes, but something was different about his soft but handsome features. Somehow, graduating college must have made him a man, where it had make me even more of a child. He was dressed in tan and a blue button up cotton shirt, and a black dress coat; yea, he looked like a stockbroker. I laughed out loud; the last time I'd seen him he’d had longer hair, pot glazed eyes, and a Pfish T-shirt on. Now he looked like he’d stepped out of Law and Order, and in my drunken state that was hilarious! I’m sure my appearance was just as shocking to him. I picked up Carrie's head and got up, leaving her to drool on the wooden bench (she did get home that night).
"Matt!" I said trying to stand up, tripping over my own feet slightly before righting my balance. He signed something at the desk and looked up at me rolling his eyes, then nodded at he police officer, and turned his attention back to me. The party had been a wild one, and I’m sure my appearance reflected it. I had on tight black pants and black heels that made me incredibly tall considering I’m already 5’11. I had a tight sparkly black top on that tied in various places in the back - needless to say it barely covered my chest, let alone my stomach. I walked to him happily and tried to hug him; he grabbed my wrist roughly. "Hey fucker!" I whined, pulling my hand back.
"Cover yourself" he muttered throwing his coat at me. Begrudgingly, I pulled on the long coat. "Get in the car" he said seriously.
"Get in the car..." I mocked. I followed him out the doors of the mini station the car was parked out front.
I slammed the door and began to fumble with the seat belt; he got in slamming the door forcefully "I can not believe this!" he shouted, "What the hell is the matter with you!"
"What?" I said playfully smiling at him.
"Jesus Lola, I just picked you up from the police department!" he yelled, hitting the wheel as he began to drive forward.
"That’s just the mini station!" I giggled "Downtown is when it’s really serious!"
He looked at me angrily. "Cute.. Real cute Lola," he let out a deep breath, "just shut your mouth okay!" I rolled my eyes and leaned against the window.
It was 5am and I was getting sleepy. I must have dozed off for a bit but was awakened by loud music. I shot up like an arrow, turning the radio down "Hey asshole!" I yelled.
"Shut up, were almost home," he muttered.
"Yea and now you turn that shit on!" I said messing with the knob.
"Ill do whatever I want, I’m not the one who got busted at a party drunk as shit and dressed like a fucking hoe!"
"You’re a dick Matt, really," I said angrily.
"Really, Lola, what would your fucking parents say!"
I laughed. "Something incredibly valuable I’m sure!"
"What the hell happened to you Lola?" he said pulling into my mother’s driveway. "What, Ken leaves you and you become a slut?"
"Fuck you!" I shouted, jumping out of the car. He’d hit a sensitive spot.
Ken. Stupid Ken, who’d broken my heart, which in turn sent me on a self destructive pattern - in fact what he’d said was pretty much true, and that made it hurt even worse. I stormed up the icy sidewalk to the side door and pushed and pulled at the door, I was still a bit drunk, plus now I was upset, so I kept kicking and pushing.
Matt pushed me aside and turned the knob letting me in. I threw his coat on the floor, kicked off my shoes and stomped into the kitchen. "Ya know you should fucking talk" I shouted, turning around facing him, "Its not like you’re a fucking saint yourself!"
"Oh shut up Lola," he said picking up his coat hanging it on one of the hooks. "Go to bed."
"The only reason you're with your girlfriend is 'cause you knocked her up - but lucky for you she took the initiative and got rid of it!"
He lunged toward me, his hand grabbing my throat, pushing me against the counter. "Shut up! Just shut up!" Shocked by his own anger, he let go of me quickly and backed away, started by his violent outburst.
Never a quick learner, I started in on him again, "What, you think I don’t know about that?" I laughed, "Everyone fucking knows!"
He looked at me, "Ken was smart for leaving you Lola - he probably figured out you were a fucking whore before you did!"
I reached out and slapped him, "Fuck you!" I felt tears forming in my eyes.
"What, Lola? Don’t you know how happy he is without you!"
"SHUT UP!" I sobbed, slapping his face again. He shoved me against the counter again, his body pushed up against mine, both of us breathing heavily with anger. I glared at him; I hated him at that moment. He stared back at me, his eyes raging. His body was strong and hard against mine, his grip on