*****Note: Chapter 152 was not published on this site due to Literotica's publishing rules. I'm sorry, but it wasn't possible to cut it down to the point that it was worth publishing here. There will be likely parts skipped in future chapters, or chapters left out altogether in the next few weeks as well for the same reason. I'm sorry!*****
Chapter One Hundred Fifty-Three: Redemption and Vengeance
The mage was asleep in the bathtub when Anders and I found her. I woke her gently, and the two of us helped her out of the tub and into some clean robes we'd brought from her room. Anders was obviously reluctant to touch her, but Solona showed no signs of nervousness around him, not even worrying about covering herself as she stepped naked out of the tub. I resolved to have a discussion with Anders about allowing her to determine how much contact she wanted -- not to assume. She'd already decided she wanted to keep the healer with her -- I was hopeful that eventually she'd want him in her bed, too.
But it isn't going to happen if he keeps flinching anytime he looks at her.
Once she was clean, dressed, and mostly alert, I told her about Kirkwall. Explained that Anders was needed there, that Karl was at risk, and that Anders could open a healing clinic in the city -- and she could help, if she wanted. It would put her far away from the rest of the Wardens -- but still protected by the title, even if she never fought another darkspawn.
"You have to stay protected from templars," I pleaded. "The risk, if you run away on your own..." I sighed in relief when she shook her head slightly. "The Knight-Commander in Kirkwall is insane, though at least the Chantry has been forewarned about her, but I don't think she's mad enough to come after Grey Wardens, mage or not."
Anders nodded. "Aedan recommended we take another Warden with us, to help provide a barrier between us and the templars. You wouldn't have to be around them a lot -- you could be either in the clinic or we'll find somewhere to have a home together. Having a Warden who isn't a mage may placate h--"
Solona interrupted without even waiting to hear the rest of the sentence. "Rolan." She turned to me. "You wouldn't be nervous about it if you were sending someone else. You want to send Rolan."
I nodded slowly. "We can change our plans, if you want. Aedan and Alistair agreed that if you don't feel comfortable with him, you can veto it. But Aedan was hoping he could send Rolan as protection -- he may know some of the templars, and might be able to establish contacts and help ensure that Meredith doesn't move on you. At least get warning, if she does. And it allows him the chance to--"
"Make up for it." Her response was terse, and my heart sank.
Damnit, she thinks we're sending him because we don't trust her, or....
She interrupted my internal musing again. "Fine."
I blinked. "Are you sure? It doesn't have to be a templar. I don't think he'd ever hurt you, but I mean it when I tell you that you can say no."
Her expression softened slightly. "I am. I believe Anders when he says Rolan has seen the error of his ways. He was certainly...solicitous on our journey here. And when I panicked, he kept his head; he could have dropped me with a smite, but he didn't. Having someone who can help if I lose control isn't a bad thing." She tugged on her hair fretfully, pulling out several long blonde strands; I gave Anders a hard look, and he cringed slightly but reached out to still her hands, not holding hers, but offering the opportunity if she wanted it. She appeared to think about it for a fraction of a second too long, but then slowly wrapped her long fingers around his cautiously until they were holding hands -- almost like a normal couple.
I breathed a huge sigh of relief.
Maybe they'll be okay after all.
She smiled at me shyly. "Besides, I also remember him standing over us, trying to protect us from the darkspawn. I'm sure. Rolan will be fine."
I nodded. "Okay. I'll let Aedan know. Anders, can we talk later? I'd like to hear what you've learned about Faren, and I have a lot to tell you about Kirkwall." The mage nodded, face brightening at the mention of interesting new information about the future. "For now, I've arranged different quarters for the two of you, if you like. Why don't we go find my seneschal and see what he managed to figure out?"
I found Levi, and together we led the two mages to a spartan, but clean room down near the kitchens; he assured Solona that no one had been kicked out to make room, and given the fact that the chair and table from her old room were the only furniture apart from the bed, I believed him. He'd thoughtfully even provided a small cot, set up between the bed and the wall; clearly he'd noticed Anders' bedroll in Solona's room. Solona tried to insist he would sleep in the bed with her; Anders tried to insist he would be fine on the floor. In the end, Levi and I both crept away to let them figure it out themselves -- but I resolved again to have a conversation with Anders later. Treating her like a victim, like she was
fragile
, was going to drive a wedge between them he couldn't remove later. He needed to learn to take her cues -- and be willing to discuss them with her.